Turn around there's those eyes again
Turn around big indifference and I
Watch the cold, dark silhouettes dissappear
Hallucinations. I hate them. I hate them so much. And you know why? Of course you don't. It's because it's always Naruto. Always. Every time I close my eyes, or look behind me, or even turn a corner. He's always there, his sky blue eyes sparkling. I hate it. I can never concentrate on anything because his face always pops into my head. Then I turn around, and I see a shadow fade. Probably it's Kiba or something, just trying to scare me. Again.
Sometimes I tell myself I hate him for doing this to me. But then there's that little corner of my mind that tells me that the fact is, I don't hate him. I don't hate him at all. And I know it. Everybody knows it. Except for him. Okay, fine. Except for Naruto. Satisfied?
A hundred bodies fill this room
And all their faces overdone
Pain is foreign, foreign to us
Everybody always says, "Don't worry, Hinata. Your time will come." Big fake smiles. Big. Fake. Smiles. You know what, maybe I'm just not cut out for love. Maybe it's just not going to happen for me. But, seriously, how long have I like this guy?
Hold on...
No idea. Lost count. But it was a long time. And he still is completely oblivious to the fact. Isn't it obvious? Or maybe this is partly my fault, actually. I never told him...but still! COME ON! FIGURE IT OUT!
You know, I bet everybody who keeps "reassuring" me has never been rejected. Except Sakura. Sakura knows what it feels like.
I don't even know you
You won't even know I'm gone
Was it something I did wrong?
I guess I'm pretty much ready to give him up. Just take a big eraser and wipe the chalkboard that is my mind clean of the part that is fixated on Naruto. He might not even know who I am anymore. It's been a long time since I last saw him. Ten years or so.
I've changed.
I'm not that timid little girl who sat in the back of the back of the classroom anymore. I'm a pretty tough person now. And angry. Kind of. I still wear that jacket though...Heh, it still fits kind of.
Back to my Naruto issue.
You know, maybe it was my fault. I never really talked to him, huh? I still showed I cared though...did I?
Roses, roses cold
Roses, roses sold out
Turn around reds and whites again
I'd sell my kicks for one more low tar
Fevers hand in hand with shoelace bracelets
You might have figured this out already, but I think a lot of people (cough, cough, Ino) are very fake. Colors and rainbows and eternal sunshine! No. Hell, I'd sell all the happiness in the world for just one day without them.
They're all friends forever. I'm just an outsider. No one really gets me. And no, I'm not being emo.
Why are some girls so naive?
He didn't unbutton your blouse to see
A better view of your heart
Oh yeah, can't blame you for trying
Oh yeah, did I tell you? Nope. Well, Sakura and Sasuke slept together. Don't act so surprised, it was bound to happen someday. She was telling me the experience in extreme detail just a little while ago.
Ahem.
So apparently when he unbuttened her shirt she had no idea what he was doing. Uhm. Okay, Sakura. It's not like he did that just for the heck of it. And you only realized it when he kissed you...
And Sakura, why did you tell me this anyway? I barely even know you.
I'd say the rest of what she said but it's a bit too risqué for me to handle and it'll make me want to clean my tongue for the next three days.
I don't even know you
You won't even know I'm gone
Was it something I did wrong?
The only way I know who the heck she is is because she was in Naruto's group. And even then I didn't know very much. Only that she wore a red dress and had pink hair. She probably wouldn't notice if I walked out in the middle of a conversation with her.
Then again...that might be my fault too. I didn't really talk to her either.
Sigh...
Seems like I did everything wrong.
Roses, roses cold
Roses, roses sold out
Sing it soft
Make it slow
Apples parachute the boys back down
Fill it up
Overflow
A new improved, modern way to feel
Have you noticed that Neji's not around? Hm? He's dead. KIA. It happened about a month or two ago. Kiba told me about it. or rather just yelled across the room. He said just like it was, nothing to cushion the blow. Though if he was a bit nicer he would've.
"Hey Hinata, Neji got killed!" That's it. Then he went off to do something.
I cried though.
I would've thought Kiba'd at least be a little upset. But nooo...he always has to be the big macho man. Pshaw. Idiot.
But that's also my fault. I guess.
I don't even know you
You won't even know I'm gone
I dont even know you
You wont even know I'm gone
Was it something I did wrong?
Was it something I did wrong?
Was it something I did
Wrong?
Yeah. I did everything wrong.