Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds

A/N: I have thought of doing a series of one-shots based on conversations from my story From Bad Day to Better Days. Will mostly include Hotch then other teammates POVs. These one-shots will be from my From Bad Day to Better Days universe. Also, From Bad Days to Better Days should be read first as these series of one shots are part of the From Bad Days to Better Days universe. These one-shots won't include Harper.

Episode: Derailed

Characters: Hotch and Reid

Reid: "Could you guys do me a favor?"

Hotch: "Anything."

Reid: "Could at least one of you look like you're gonna see me again?"

Hotch: "See you when you get back."

Reid's POV

Hotch has shown confidence in me with sending me onto that train, because he knows about my mother being a paranoid Schizophrenic, and how I played into her delusions when she had an episode. Only Hotch and Gideon knows about my mother's illness and my father leaving me when I was 10. Hotch learned about my mother's Schizophrenia when I asked him to be my emergency contact and power of attorney when he became my probationary agent. He asked about my father and I told him I don't know where my father is since he left when I was 10 years old. He knows that I have an aunt, but she will only be contacted if he needs help to make certain medical decisions like if I am on life support, but Hotch will only make decisions if I get shot or end up in the hospital. Hotch has asked me about what some of my mother's episodes were based on when he learned about my mother's schizophrenia. I got the pretend chip out, but I was forced to stay on the train. At least I knew how to play into a delusion because of my mother. Elle was trying to make me not agitate Bryar, but I knew that if I kept talking to him he would eventually get distracted and Elle could knock him down with her foot and I could wrestle for the gun he has on him like when I tried to get what my mother had on her as a weapon when she was trying to attack me because she thought I wasn't her son. I almost had the gun that Dr. Bryar had on him, but if Harry Anderson hadn't had that gun with him I would have gotten that gun off of Ted. At least the only death was the security guard, but that was hours before I arrived and Ted's doctor got shot but she survived. Uh-oh my childhood secret was almost let out when Elle asked me how I know what's it like with the voices, but at least I diverted the conversation away from me and walked away.

Hotch's POV

I decided to send Reid onto that train not because of his slight of hand trick, but because I know about his mother's schizophrenia since he knows how to play into a schizophrenics delusions. When he told me about his mother when I became his probationary agent, I promised him I would keep it a secret from the others. Only Gideon and I know about his mother's schizophrenia and his father abandoning him when he was 10. I learned about his mother when he asked me to be his emergency contact and power of attorney since he doesn't know where his father is and his mother is institutionalized. He has an aunt, but he made me promise to only allow her to make decisions if he is on life support or in a coma. When Morgan told Reid he isn't allowing him to go in alone, I wanted to tell him that Reid knows what it's like dealing with a schizophrenic, but I promised Reid that I won't say anything until Reid really has to mention his mother. When I saw that Reid removed the vest, I knew that he didn't want to agitate Dr. Bryar. After he removed the pretend chip, Dr. Bryar made him stay on the train, and I knew that his next step would to be to play into Dr. Bryar's fantasy like Reid did with his mother when she had an episode. Reid almost got the gun away from Dr. Bryar, but if Harry Anderson hadn't had that gun with him, Reid would have gotten the gun. I know that Reid diverted the conversation he had with Elle about himself when she asked him how he knows what's it like, but I know he would tell the others when he's ready or he really has to. At least the only death was the security guard that was killed hours before we arrived in Texas.

Hotch and Reid's POV

"Hey Reid, why don't I give you a ride home for you don't have to take the train home."

"Thanks Hotch, I accept your offer."

"Reid you did a really good job during the hostage situation. I know it must not have been easy because of your mother being a schizophrenic."

"During that situation I kept thinking about my mother and flashing back to dealing with her episodes. You already know that I have to deal with phone calls from my mother's doctors and nurses when she refuses to take her medication and she demands to talk to me. I had to take care of her until I was 18 and then place her in an institution. After that I was able to go on with my life like completing my college education and finding a career where my abilities can be the most useful."

"I knew that you were the best person to go in and I had every confidence in you, must have been hard with the 20 year old kid drinking on the train."

"He kept on interrupting me when I was trying to talk down Dr. Bryer by playing into his delusion, but it was not helpful that Harry Anderson had that gun on him. I just wish that we knew he had a gun on him, because I almost got the gun away from Dr. Bryer. Plus Elle almost found out about my mother when she asked me why I know what it's like with the voices, but I am not ready to tell the others about my mother. You already know that I have to deal with phone calls from my mother's doctors and nurses when she refuses to take her medication."

"I know that you will tell the others when you are ready, but don't hold out on telling for too long. Morgan noticed you acting agitated during personal phone calls and asked me about it, but I told him that the calls are none of his business. Just don't think about how you could have done anything different, that security guard was dead hours before we arrived in Texas. Even though I know that you are going through scenarios in your head right now."

"You got me on my brain running through scenarios, I see that we have arrived at my apartment. Thanks for the ride Hotch."

"You're welcome. And get some sleep."

"I will try to get some sleep."