Hey there. Before anything I want to let you all know that the title means "suffering" in latin. This is the third one I've written for Twilight, the other two haven't been posted up yet. My editor hasn't edited them yet. This one came to me very suddenly, it was quite suprising.
This is of course in Bella's POV right after Edward leaves in New Moon. It takes place right after she discovers she can hear Edward's voice when confronted by danger and after she discovers the comfort she feels with Jacob Black. I, of course hope you enjoy and that you'll read my other Twilight Fan Fictions when I post them up. Please R&R. Sincerly, plainwhitelie.
Have you ever seen a light when you close your eyes or when you believe you're about to die? A light that you don't want to confront, you want nothing to do with it. You want it to disappear because it's just as scary as hell's deepest pits, and at the moment you want nothing more than to run away as fast as possible. A mere escape is all you long for.
Sadly I can't find a reason to run away. Although the light frightens me it also welcomes me. I want nothing more than to die right now. I no longer have a reason to live. He's gone, and the only time I allow myself to remember is when I'm confronted by danger. A frightening reminder that when I wake up his piercing topaz eyes won't be there, that I will no longer hear my lullaby, nor feel his cold body pressed against my own. His velvet voice will fade from my memories as will his lips.
They've tried to help me run away. Both Charlie and Renee tried to pry me from Forks. But, why would I leave? For all I know he might come back.
My once family might return, my other half. My life will be returned, but until then my only comfort will be a stubborn werewolf and the fiery light that resembles hell.
I hope you enjoyed it.
I hope the vampires do bite tonight. XD
R&R