Something that came to me as I was driving home from work last night, a little bit sad but we all know that they see each other again, could be connected to I'll Be Seeing You, only because she quotes the song at the end.
My Darling Jethro,
This is the hardest thing that I have ever had to do and some small part of me hopes that you are finding as hard to read as I am finding it to write. Not because I wish you pain, I wouldn't wish you pain for the world, but just because I want to know that you love me as I much as I love you. This has to be done, we can't stay together, you know that, I have to leave, please remember that it is not you I have to leave. I hope one day you will be able to understand my reasons and be able to forgive me.
I love you Jethro, will all my heart, and please know that I always will. Maybe I always have, maybe that is why I am finding it so hard to do this, because I have done it before, in some other life, and the pain I am feeling now is not just the pain from this time but from another time too. I know you don't believe in that sort of thing, but it is how I feel and if I get nothing out of this letter apart from letting you know how I feel then I shall be happy.
The time we have spent together has been the happiest of my life and I can honestly say that I don't know if I will ever truly be happy again. Sometimes I feel so lost and all I need to do is look at you, you are my North Point Jethro, you set me back on my feet, back on the path that I have to take, and this is it, this is the path that I have to take.
As I am writing this the sun is going down on the Seine and I am thinking of that walk we took. We walked along the river, you held my hand and we went dancing in the small bar, you held me to you and people thought that we were just a normal carefree couple in love, how I was that that was true, how I wish that we didn't have a mission to do. Moments like that I shall treasure until the day I die.
Sometimes I don't understand how this world can be so unfair but destiny is something that cannot be ignored, I think you were, are my destiny. You taught me how to love Jethro, and for that I will be eternally grateful, it may have been a mistake but the mistake was worth making and it may have been circumstances that drove us together but even if it was, if I had to do it all over again, I would, without a shadow of a doubt.
I wish that this, us had happened sooner so I don't have to say I love you and farewell at the same time. I believe that we met at the wrong time, if we had met sooner or later, maybe we could be together, but you have people that you have to get back to and I can't waste my life wishing that you were mine, and mine alone.
I know you Jethro, do not take this letter and let it make you bitter, you have so much to offer the world, don't close off from it.
There is no easy way to say goodbye Jethro, we both know that, so this isn't goodbye, this is au revoir, I'll be seeing you.
You have my heart, always.
Jen
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