Put the Past Behind You
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Dean Winchester lay in his hospital bed with his eyes fixed on the clock. 11:20 p.m. John Winchester had died only 29 minutes ago. Give or take a few minutes before Sam had found him lying lifeless on the ground just inches from his own hospital bed.
Sam had been with John ever since his death was declared. It felt like a sudden weight was put on his chest when he saw his father just lying there. 'Is this real?' Sam really had to ask himself. Had he and his father just had their last fight only minutes ago.
'Excuse me? Mr. McGillicuddy?' Sam smiled at the name their father had chosen for their alias this time. Sam wiped back tears and turned still holding his fathers hand. A pale looking nurse stepped a little closer and eyed Johns body. 'I'm sorry, but-but we need to-' she nodded over to the lifeless body and Sam turned to face John. 'Oh, r-right. Can I just have one more minute? Please?' The nurse gave him a sympathetic look and nodded. 'We'll be right in.'
Sam looked down at John and started to silently sob. He looked into his face making sure to remember every detail. 'I'm so sorry dad. I'm so s-sorry.' Sam couldn't contain himself. Once Dean had woken up from his coma, he thought they were all safe. Nothing could have gone wrong. Then he realized, 'Dad was acting so weird.' He was trying to make up for all the years. All the years of fighting. Sam began to calm himself down. "Sam…' Sam looked around hearing his voice. "SAM'
He jumped and looked at his father whose eyes were glowing yellow.
Sam immediately released the hold on his fathers hand and jumped out of his chair. 'Sam…you've failed me. Why? Why didn't you kill me? Why did the demon have to kill me instead of you? I died because of YOU!' Sam put his hands over his ears and shook his head. 'No! This isn't happening.' 'You're a killer, Sam. You're going to kill everyone in your life. Or, the only person in your life. Dean.'
'NO!' Sam yelled as he felt a hand on his shoulder. Sam jumped up and looked around. He was sitting in the chair next to his father. His hand still around Johns. 'Sorry, Mr. McGillicuddy. You must be pretty sleep deprived lately. You dosed off.' It was the nurse who was in his nightmare just moments before. Sam nodded. 'Sorry.' She smiled, 'You've been through a lot. There's no need to be apologizing to anyone. Now we need to take your father to the coroners. I think your brother may need you right now though.' Sam nodded.
'Um, do you know how he is?' Sam felt embarrassed asking a nurse that question. 'Shouldn't you know!' his mind screamed at him. Dean had silently walked away after the doctors had announced the time of death. He had to be in shock, besides Sam, he was the only family he had. And Dean had been Johns soldier. Without John, a part of Dean was gone.
The nurse shrugged her shoulders. 'He hasn't responded to anyone, but that's expected. It's tough losing someone you love.
Sam sighed, 'Yeah.' She smiled at him and warmth went through him. 'My name's Sam by the way.' He told her extending his hand. 'Trisha.' She said shaking it. 'If you need anything, ask for me. I mean it.'
'Well I guess I should let you…'
'Oh right, your father. Okay well…um alright. I'll be checking in on Dean soon so I'll see you around.' And Trisha walked over to John and put a white sheet over him. Sam turned and looked at his father one last time. His eyes were open and yellow and he had a crooked smile on his face.
'I'll be seeing you soon, Sammy.' He said.
Sam blinked and backed out of the room with a hurry. Sam slowly walked down the hall and took a deep breath. He sure hoped Dean was coping better than he was at this point.
Yay! Okay so this is taking place right after the season premire obviously .. so there you go. I have to recharge my brain and stuff. But don't you worry! I'll keep going if you want :
Don't worry, Dean WILL be in this! Just had to start it off with Sam. Don't know why but it's a start.
Review PLEASE! So I know the goods & the bads of this: