A/N. Well, hey! XD I haven't been on here in a while, but since summer is here, combined with time, I return! :D I've lately gotten into Black Butler and I'm not kidding, I still have no idea if I love it or not. XD I really love how emotionally deep it is, but the religious themes in it are just so messed up… But on the other hand, I was listening to If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn by Sleeping With Sirens and had a Ciel realization that I really had to write a oneshot about. The song is a little bit more romantically inclined than I intended it to be, but I'm sure that that's going to make some fangirl happy. ;) Enjoy! I own absolutely nothing but my crazy, emotional imagination. ;)

I never thought that I'd really become emotionally connected to him. Honestly. I'm known to be too unemotional, and he has no emotions. He has no history, only to taunt and play with our human souls just to consume them for his pleasure alone…

And look at me. The one who should be having a long, tearful, emotional past, begging at his feet for love and respect, instead only demanding his use for my greed. I would never go back on this contract by any means, but….. why the emotion?

I've come to appreciate his presence in the morning, his inquires of my mental well being…. It's just a human emotion thing, isn't it? I choose to just shove it aside, but….

I've come to like his presence too much. I don't know what I'd do without him. Without him by my side, knowing that I never have to fear of anything, even though I do….

He's like my shield from the outside world, no one can hurt anything when he's here, and if he was gone…. No, I'd carry on, I'm too stubborn not to. This is my life after all. Not he would ever leave, but…

*sigh* Oh, what am I thinking? I don't even know if I know, but… he won't leave me, he vowed not to… I guess that concludes things and makes them tolerateable.