A/N: This is just a bit of a filler. I wrote it before Everybody's Fool but this will be on hiatus for a while so don't ask for more.
Disclaimer: Twilight and all characters belong to one happy and oblivious Stephanie Meyer who I find to be a very weird woman. But whatever, I digress. And now to the story!
Chapter 1
She was throwing her clothes on rather quickly. She always did when we finished having sex. I just wish she'd look me in the eye without that look of guilt she always had. "Bella?" I whimpered. "Bella?" I whimpered again "Can you please just look at me? Bella goddammit!" She slowed in her hurried rush but she never turned to face me. "What is it Alice?" she replied wearily.
"Can you please just look at me?" I begged. She turned around "What?" she spat at me. "I love-""Alice please don't start that shit again with me please!" She shouted whilst cutting me off completely . "You know I love Edward. You're just a convenient fuck until I marry him. I told you that when we started this. Why do you insist on making all of this so fucking difficult?" I stared at her glumly. "Cuz I love you Bells. You know that. I don't know why I can't let this go. All I know is… I love you."
She turned away from me. Refusing to meet my eye. "You know I can't love you Alice. I really love Edward with all my heart and I just don't have room for anyone else." "Then why'd you sleep with me?" I questioned with an eyebrow raised. "Why'd you fuck with me like that? Fuck with my heart? You know I love you and I thought you loved me. But I don't think you love me if you're willing to do this to us." She looked up at me then. "You know I love you Alice-"I cut her off. "No. please Bella don't say those words to me. Don't tell me you love me if you don't fucking mean it. And I don't think I should allow you to say my name again if you're going to be like this."
She looked at me then with a hurt expression on her face. "Alice-"she started but I interrupted again" No Bella you do not get to say my name. Not when you've fucked me over completely. I fucking loved you. Ok? But after today I don't believe it's conducive to either of us if I speak to you again Bella."
I turned away from her, disgusted with myself for letting it go on so long when I knew she could never love me. "Just finished getting dressed and get the fuck out Bella. I don't think I can stand seeing you again after today." "Alice" She whispered. "Get the fuck out." I told her venomously. "I really don't want to see you right now." "Or ever again." I added after a slight pause. I really could care less how she felt at this moment. I was just hurting too much right now to care.
She finished getting dressed and left the room silently. But before she exited through the door she gave me one last lingering look that I decided to ignore. I felt the tears build up behind my eyes. I sincerely wished I could cry but vampires can't can they? But they could surely feel their own heart break. I sat there sobbing quietly. I reached up to wipe my face, a habit from my human years I guess, and was totally surprised when something wet came back on my hands. I looked down and saw a red trail falling down my hand. Shit. I guess a vampire can cry when their heart breaks bad enough.
I sat there wishing she would come back. Because as much as I know that I had thrown her out and as much as I had known that she had used and hurt me, she was still my best friend you know? I really wanted her back. Even if it was just to give me a hug or stroke my back and tell me it would be all ok, I knew she wouldn't. Because everything would not be ok. And she would not be coming back.