Not Okay
Anakin was not okay. It had been one day since his apprentice had been kicked carelessly from the order; one day since she had been left on her own. The girl was only sixteen- she was tiny, and yet, that didn't matter to the council. No, she was still put as far from the order as possible. And that really made Anakin mad.
More than that, however, Anakin was worried. He knew his Padawan was skilled enough to keep herself alive out on her own; he had found that out from experience. And yet, with her gone, he couldn't help but worry about how she would be living.
There were so many things Anakin had worked into his weekly routine that would now become obsolete. He didn't know how to manage.
Would anyone be there to remind her that sometimes she needed to cut herself some slack and focus on herself rather than work? No, of course not. She wouldn't even know anyone, let alone let them close enough to know that she was stretching herself thin.
Who was going to sit beside her and pet her lekku when Ahsoka made herself sick eating all of the non-ration food she could manage in one sitting? No one, that was who. And who was going to distract her from the storms with game nights when she was kept up until the crack of dawn? Again, there was no one, not a single soul. She knew no one out in the world.
Who out there would know that the little Togruta sometimes got so panicked that she needed to count to calm herself down, or that sometimes she still subconsciously sucked her fingers in her sleep? Who would be there to appreciate all the little ditties that she came up with and sung in the shower at the top of her lungs, or how she had secretly always wanted to take a dance class, or how she walked on her tiptoes a lot to seem taller? She always was self conscious about her height, but who would know that? No one. No one would know that her favorite activity was sliding around in her socks, or that she accidentally stunted the growth of her Montral by drinking too much coffee on all-night missions, or that thunder sometimes scared her so badly that her cries woke Anakin all the way in the room adjacent to hers.
She was all alone.
im not even to the wrong jedi yet but i got spoilers and now im crying