I miss you.

I miss the way you hugged me.

The way you strong arms would wrap around my body and make me feel at home and safe.

I miss your crazy theory's.

I used to roll my eyes at them and think they were the most stupid things in the world. But now I miss them and I don't know how to solve a case without them.

I miss how your fingers would run through my hair.

It helped me sleep at night when ever I would have nightmares or couldn't sleep.

I miss how gentle you were.

To you it wasn't sex it was love slow love.

I miss the way you made me smile and laugh.

Whether it was your crazy theories your jokes or when you used to tickle me.

I miss the way you kissed.

When ever we kissed I just wanted it to last forever.

I miss the way you made my coffee.

When you would make love hearts or smiley faces when ever I was having a bad day.

I miss how excited you were to start a family with me.

When we would lay in bed and you would tell me what are baby would look like.

I didn't want to say goodbye.

I wasn't ready to say goodbye.

How was I going to let you go.

It hurts more than losing my mom.

I hate that case every single day.

I can't look at gun without seeing your blood.

But yet here I'm at your grave. It's windy and about to rain reminds me when I showed up your door and our relationship started. My wedding band is still on my finger and it will always stay on my finger. Always.

I'm scared of doing this without you. But I have to keep strong for our baby cause they need me.

I wish you could.

Feel our baby kick.

I wish you could have.

Picked out the nursery with me.

I wish we could have laughed.

About you trying to set the crib up.

I wish we could pick out names.

And we would fight about the name Cosmo.

I wish you were to hold my hand through labour.

And see our son or daughter.

But I promise you I will tell them all about you and I won't ever forget you.

Always is a promise. A promise I will always keep. You will always been in my heart.

I love you babe.

Kate