What ever happened to my happily ever after? To my peace of mind? What about my happy ending? Its not fair that some people get their perfect fairytale ending but then I forget, they all went through some kind of pain, fought their way and in the end, you just end up appreciating what you have right in front of you, and with that you have the wisdom to know that you did gain something, even when you don't end up winning. No, that doesn't happen for me. I end losing what I really want and need. Sure I got Ollie, and I do love him in a way, but that can't compare to the passion I feel for him.
Jack is forever gone. He is about to be bonded in a couple of weeks and he won't even remember my name, what we had, and the love that formed between us. The bravado is fading, and I know it. I can't keep pretending that everything is fine. You know what I hate about this whole thing? That I have to suffer for the rest of eternity, knowing that no matter how strong the love between us is, Mimi is what he needs to stay alive. I can't give him what he needs to stay alive. After all, what was his life compared to my desire for him?
This could have been prevented. But no matter how hard I try, I can't bring myself to regret all the precious moments I had with Jack. Sure I am in worst pain than I ever knew I was capable of, but at least I know how happy I could be. I can't be as happy with Oliver as I was with Jack.
I mean, what was I thinking!?!
We both knew it was wrong. Knowing that he can't escape the bond, fate was already written. Yet I can't help but hope that there is a way, and that is what is going to kill me. That tiny seed of hope deep within my heart.