I will try to work on this story depending on the amount of hits i get. Only when i'm done writing my other in progress story 'Gravity' can i focus on this one. but i'll try.

even chapters are Bella

odd chapters are Edward.

-Edward-

I never saw immortality as a perk to my existence. I am a disgusting… creature, monster, beast, not worthy of existing . I'm not human and never thought I was capable of feeling anything this complicated until I met her. Infinite. Infinitely happy, exactly where I was with her in my arms. Of course the fear of losing her one day shook me to my core. I mourned my lose already. I'd rather see my beautiful Bella, age, live and die as nature intended her to, than turn her into a monster, no matter how she persistently urged me otherwise. How beautiful her rosy cheeks, how adorable her clumsiness was. I adored every flaw.

The unusual bright sunny day. Bella skipped school to lay with me in our usual meadow. It was warm, and breezy, the air was thick. Curled up in my embrace, I felt my Bella tracing along my forearm with her fingers. I cautiously let my chin rest on the top of Bella's head. Her hair was more sweet smelling than usual in the soft warm breeze.

"What are you thinking about" I could hardly stand the silence anymore. Her laying there for far too long without talking had to mean she was deep in thought. She tilled her head up slowly to look my in the eye. I pulled her body closer to mine and studied her feature carefully, wondering if she'd really tell me what was on her mind.

"You" She answered softly raising her hand slowly and cautiously to my face. Her warm hand brushed my cheek and her delicious sent blew in my face.

"What about me" I finally managed to ask after successfully restraining myself.

"Us" She corrected me. I didn't say anything, waiting for her to elaborate. My inpatients made the few seconds of silence feel like agonizing minuets until Bella threw her arms around my neck. I was bringing my hands up to her wrists to release her grasp on me when she flew forward to place her soft pink lips on mine. Immediately wrapped up in her passion, I fell victim to her needs.

I let my arms tangle around her small body, pulling her tightly to me, but being careful not to accidentally break her spine. My lips moved carefully with her as she ran her fingers through my hair. Her heart fluttered, blood rushing and she was slightly shaking. She broken the kiss before I was ready for it to end. In a persistent urge I moves my lips to her throat, pushing her hair out of the way. Bella released a soft moan as I moved my lips up and down her neck. Her little hand on the back of my head encouraged me to continue. My lips parted, creating a small seal on her neck. I tried to hide my teeth, keeping away my monstrous temptation as I sucked lightly of that single soft spot.

"Edward" she giggled, arching her back in excitement and surprise. "Edward, you're going to leave a hickey!" It was then I realize what I was doing. Blood built up in a neat circle under my lips. Just a small layer of skin separated my blood lust from the sweetest blood I've ever known. The hairs on the back of my neck stood up, my hand grabbed tightly to Bella wrist. I couldn't tear my mouth away from her neck, I could stop myself from my own needs. Bella still giggled in enjoyment as I internally struggled, my face buried between her face and shoulder.

I tried to resist my instincts but my effort were futile. My teeth lay genteelly on velvet skin. Bella felt no fear as the pressure on her neck increased. I hesitated, still trying hard to resist my thirst, and then my teeth sank. I heard her skin tear under my bite. It took her a minuet to realize the pain, but even then she was still and cautious. The sweet blood hit my tongue and I lost every bit of control I had. My hand reached around to hold her face and secure her neck to my mouth. I sat up, cradling her in my arm as I gluttonously drained my dear Bella of her blood.

"Ed-Edward" she weakly whispered. Her soft voice shook my out of my crave. I released her body abruptly, disgusted with myself. Her body sprawled across my leg, her neck bleeding profusely from the deep teeth marks I had given her. I panicked. I stood there motionless as Bella quietly whimpered, hesitantly touching her neck to reassure herself of what just happened. I tried hard to gather my thoughts, not to panic, and to convince myself that maybe I could be, from some strange miracle, be dreaming. No. No one gave miracles to monsters like me. Bella trembled violently as she curled up, rolling to her side. Screams, beautiful, frightening, loud scream escaped Bella lips as she frantically grabbed at her neck in terror. I stood there motionless, terrified as I watched Bella suffer her transformation.

Suck out the venom. That was my first thought, but I knew I couldn't do it. Her blood on my lips would push me to kill her. I was fortunate to have stopped when I did. I debated killing her. For some instance I convinced myself that death would be better than I the life I had just cursed her with. I knew I couldn't live with myself if I had done that.

"Edward, please." She cried out. Her eyes finally meeting mine, both of our filled with tear and terror. "It hurts so bad" I instantly scooped Bella in my arms and set off, running full pace through the wood to home. Her weak little hands wrapped around my neck, tugging on my shirt every now and then as flashes of pain surged through her transforming body.