I don't own the Sons of Thunder or Walker Texas Ranger characters. They belong to CBS and the Norris brothers. This is just a fan fiction for those that enjoy reading them.

I look around the room at all the people that have gathered in my mom's home sharing their stories. I'm still having a hard time grasping that she is really gone. It had been a difficult two years. I go outside and sit on the porch swing. Flashback" I'm sorry Mrs. Malloy you have cancer. There is nothing we can do as it is too far advanced." Those words keep ringing in my ears until I see Carlos standing in front of me. He sits down beside me.

Tell me this is a dream.

Carlos: I wish I could.

This feels like a nightmare. It feels like it was just yesterday we found out she had cancer.

Carlos: we got lucky though. They didn't think they could do anything for her but those pills they started her on, gave her an extra 2 years we weren't suppose to have.

I know but I'm selfish. I want my mom here with me now. I need her

Carlos: I know you do. You will always have her with you no matter what happens.

I wipe the tears away

I just can't grasp why this had to happen. Why anyone has to suffer like that. It's not far. I'm just glad we got to be with her.

I put my head down on his shoulder.

I'm really glad she got to see us get married and Trent. I have so many regrets though. I wish I could do some things over again. I wouldn't have given her such a hard time.

Carlos: your mom always knew how much you loved her. You were with her every step of the way. You took her to appointments & you stayed with her and took care of her when she couldn't take care of herself. Not many people would do that or could do it.

Where else would I be? She needed me. I just wish we could have done more.

Trent: we did all we could to help her Ali.

I look up at him

I'm gonna miss her. I'm gonna miss calling her after watching a show and seeing what her opinion was, or spending the holidays with her where she always over does things.

Trent: it's not gonna be easy but we'll get through this. We can help each other.

I wouldn't change being there with her holding her hand when she died but I can't get that image out of my head. Her being in so much pain and not being able to do anything to help her. When I close my eyes at night that's all I see.

He sits down beside me

Trent: I can't either but we were there with her so she wouldn't be alone and that's all that matters. Everything else will take time but we will get over it.

Carlos: I'm glad we got to tell her she was gonna be a grandmother.

Me too. I just wish she was gonna be here to help me. I hope I'm half the mother she was.

Trent: come on. Let's go back inside.

Do we have too? I'm so tired of hearing I'm so sorry for your loss.

He smiles.

Yeah we have too.

Carlos gets up and takes my hand. As he leads me in my thoughts trail off to mom. All the wonderful times we had together and I smile.

Sorry it's so sad but this is actually based on what I went through in April with my mom. My mom died of cancer and it's one of the hardest things you ever face. She was a brave and strong woman. She amazed us all with her courage and will power to live. In Aug 2006 the doctors told her she would only have 3 months if she was lucky to live. My mom was very determined to beat the odds and she did. In October she started a treatment and it put the cancer in remission. She had an extra year and a half that I'll always be greatful for but I wish we could have more. I was with her when she passed away. The reason I wrote this story was so that others will see this and take strength from it and see they are not alone in the pain. Never give up and if they tell you there is no hope. There is new treatments being discovered every day. I hope you enjoyed this story and will give you hope for miracles. It had nothing to do with the other story I had put out.