Disclaimer : I own nothing other than the plot and the story.

A/N : This is my take on 'The Letter' that Kimberly sent Tommy and the reasons behind it. I believe it may be an original idea, but if not I'm sorry if I've stepped on a few toes, I didn't mean to take anyone else's idea. I've talked with Starry Nights about the idea and she liked it and also told me she'd never read anything else like it yet so hopefully no one else out there has either.

A/N : Oh, by the way, this first chapter will by from Kim's point of view, I don't know how I'll do the later chapters if they'll stay from her point of view or if I'll go with other's also. I guess we'll all just wait and see. Hope you enjoy the story, and as always R&R! Thanks!

A/N : Time range is somewhere around 10 years after Kim left. Ages are around 26 to 28, I may be off on this and if so I'm sorry but it's been a long time since I've watched PR's so that's my excuse. Just hang with me on this, please! Oh, and one last thing, (I think maybe)…Kim made it to the Pan Global Games, but she did poorly…no one asked her why and she never offered an explanation why. You'll find out later though.

THE POWER RANGERS IN :

THE HARDEST THING I EVER DID

Chapter 1

Home, after so long. I thought as I stared around the busy airport. It's been way to long…to long since I've faced any of them. What are they going to think? Tommy never asked anything about the letter during the Divatox mess, nor after. He had way too much on his mind at the time, then again so did I. The memories were starting to come back then, very slowly. There is still so much that I don't remember…

"Kimberly!" I heard someone shout out from the crowd. I looked up and met the eyes of my best friends, Trini and Jason. Though they knew something terrible had happened during that period of my life, they never pried, never asked me anything about the letter or what happened then…what had happened to turn me away from the man I loved once more than life itself.

I don't know if I'll ever be able to tell anyone what happened that one disastrous day so many years ago. It was a changing point in my life, and I haven't been the same since. I'll never be the same.

"Hi Kim, it's good to see you." Jason was just saying. I noticed the wedding band on his left hand and smiled. I'd missed their wedding, they weren't mad. They understood. "Are you going to be staying in Angel Grove long?"

"Actually, yeah I am." I said and looked from one set of midnight eyes to the other. Trini squealed in delight and rushed towards me for a hug. I flinched but didn't pull away.

"How long?" Trini was asking.

"I'm not sure," I answered. "Indefinitely." I smiled at her then Jason weakly. "I was kind of hoping you guys wouldn't mind me crashing with you till I can find a place."

Trini smiled even bigger, if that was at all possible. "Of coarse you can!" she exclaimed. "Indefinitely? Exactly how long are you planning on staying Kim?" she asked.

"Um," I tried not to show the trepidation that had suddenly besieged me. "I'm moving back."

"Really?" she looked at me confusedly. "Did something happen in Florida?"

A long time ago, I thought. "No, I just got bored with the scenery." I lied. I was being sent to a specialist here in Angel Grove.

"So you're moving back then?" Jason spoke up, I could see the unspoken question shining in his eyes. Have I talked to Tommy yet?

"Yes," I answered to his spoken question. I still don't have the guts to even look at Tommy let alone talk to him. He must think I'm a monster or something far worse. I just couldn't have him worrying about me in the middle of a battle. I would've died if that had happened and known I was the cause of it. I should've seen it coming…

"Have you talked to Tommy yet? Does he know?" Trini asked very softly.

I looked nervously up at both of them, the answer was there in my face, my eyes, the very way I was standing. "No," I said very softly. I can't face him, not just yet. I don't remember everything…maybe I never will, or so the doctor's tell me. Six months after it had happened the doctor's told me, if I didn't remember by then I'd probably never remember…A year passed, I went to Angel Grove to help with something there…then the Divatox mess. Some memories started to surge to the surface and it terrified me but I wouldn't let anyone know that. I wouldn't discuss it so they all stayed in the dark, I think Tommy knew something was up, but he never interfered. Jason never asked, I was so glad of that.

How can I explain something I don't really know the whole facts about myself? How can I tell them about what changed my life so dramatically? How can I possibly face Tommy after all these years? How can I even look at myself in the mirror every morning? Honestly I can't most of the time.

"Kim? Kim, are you ok?" Jason asked, breaking me out of my reverie. No, I wanted to scream, I haven't been ok since that fateful day so many years ago. I can't move away from the past, no matter how much I try. I can't forget, no actually I can't remember what happened that day. I wish I could, but I can't.

"Kim?" this time it was Trini, her hand placed on my shoulder as if trying to draw out what was bothering me.

I smiled weakly at her, what more could I do? "I'm fine, just trying to remember." I answered quietly.

"Are you becoming forgetful?" Jason laughed, "You almost sound like Tommy." The laughter died on his lips once he said that. "I'm sorry Kim."

I smiled at him, "It's alright Jase," I said. "No harm done. You don't have to walk around on eggshell with me. I'm a big girl. I'll deal with Tommy when the time comes." Just hopefully it won't come to soon. I still have to deal with my own inner demons…I sighed and they both looked at my pitifully. I don't need your pity, I wanted to scream. I don't need your pity but I need your understanding and patience while I try to work through this…If only I hadn't waited so long…If only I had confided in someone those long years ago…I can't change what is in the past but maybe I can help my future out. Maybe I can become friends with Tommy, I don't expect his forgiveness, I can't even forgive myself. I'll understand if he doesn't even want to talk to me, I'll understand everything even though it'll be extremely hard to live through…

I sighed once again and smiled wearily up at my two best friends. "I'm ready to go home if you are." I said tiredly.

"Ok, the car's out this way, shouldn't we get your bags?" Jase asked.

"Yeah, we should. I didn't bring much though." I didn't have much to bring besides.

Trini smiled at me but the smile didn't reach her eyes, I felt dread settle into my stomach. Something's wrong, but what? "Um Kim, maybe I should warn you…" she trailed off and I raised my eyebrows in wonder.

"Warn me about what?" I asked, "Does your house look like a disaster area or something?" I tried to joke but neither Trini or Jason cracked a smile. Time to worry now.

"The gang is coming over tonight."

"Oh…as in everyone?" I asked. That would mean Tommy then too.

"Yes," Trini answered. "Tommy included. One more thing Kim…" I looked at her, What else was she going to drop on my shoulders? "Since you haven't been in touch for such a long while and your letter that you were going to be dropping by kind of caught us all by surprise…well, there's something you need to know about Kat and Tommy."

I looked at her, I really don't like hearing those two names in the same sentence let alone associated with one another, but I was the one who had left him go, so if he found comfort in Kat, I should be happy. I was anything but happy.

Well, what do you think? Like it so far, let me know and I'll get the second chapter out a lot sooner. If not, well oh well, I'm still gonna work on the second chapter just don't mean I'm gonna post it for all to read. So you better R&R if you wanna read chapter 2. Thanks!