Chapter 1: Confessions and Changes

Cookie: Hello and welcome to my first Loveless fan fiction! *Throws confetti* Yay!

Ritsuka: Nani? A fan fiction about me and Soubi?

Cookie: Yes, your such a cute couple! *Fangirl screams*

Ritsuka: Ah! Stop yelling! Wait, COUPLE? I'm not with Soubi!

Cookie: Oh, yes you are! My fan fiction and you have to deal with it! Besides, you love Soubi anyway, admit it!

Ritsuka: I-I... Shut up!

Cookie: I don't hear a no...

Soubi: I love you Ritsuka.

Ritsuka: Will you stop saying that already? *Looks at Cookie* Look what you've done...

Cookie: Haha, Don't act like you don't like it... Soubi, please do the disclaimer.

Soubi: Cookie does not own the Loveless manga, anime, or its characters. Only Ritsuka owns me.

Ritsuka: Stop it already! *Blushes*

Cookie: On to the story!

So this is what it feels like to love. To be loved. My life after my brother died as been pure Hell. I have had no one to protect me from my Mother's beatings. I had no one to talk to, no ones shoulder to cry on. I was alone in what seemed like an endless world of Hell...

That is, until he came along. When I met Soubi, I didn't really want anything to do with him. But as the years have passed, I know now how in love with him I am. Wow, I sounded so cliche! As cheesy as it sounded, you get the picture...

I met him at 12 years old. Now 6 years have passed and I'm 18. He has said from the very beginning that he loved me. At first it made me angry. He loved my brother, who never felt the same and only used him. I thought he was trying to replace me. I was sure he couldn't love me as much as he loved Seimei. Well, I was wrong. He did love me, I know that now. For the past 4 years I've known he truely loves me. I've also known for those same 4 years that I have loved him. Now all I think about is him. My personality has completely changed from the brat at 12 to the more mature 18 year old. I think about so many things we can do together, things I want to do with him. Things I know he wants to do with me.

I've decided I was going to tell him my feelings today. I had just graduated so I have a lot of time on my hands this summer. I was building up with so many emotions. I was scared, excited, nervous, and happy, all in one! I never feel this way... Even when I'm around Soubi all day I don't feel this way.

I was in his apartment, we were watching a movie. It was romance and I was getting edgy from watching it. How cliche... I looked over to him. I watched as he enjoyed the movie, popping pop corn into his mouth. I watched him chew, watching his jaw move, watching his beautiful lips. I wanted to kiss him right now. I wanted to reach over and-

"Ritsuka, is something the matter?" Soubi asked me. I guess I had been staring at him... oops...

Yes something is the matter! I'm in love with you! I love you, Soubi! I wanted to scream but I knew that would be what the call 'coming off too strong'. "No... It's just..."

"Whats wrong, Ritsuka? You can tell me," Soubi was getting on my nerves now. Yeah I love him but when he is concerned for me, he gets clingy. He now is petting me behind my ear.

Yeah keep mocking my ears! I don't plan to have them much longer... "It's just... just... I-I... I..." Why can't I say it. It's 3 words, "I love you!" Had I just spoken out loud? Baka baka baka!

"Nani?" He was suprised.

"Ano... I... I... love you..." I blushed deep red, I could tell because I suddenly felt hot in my face and neck.

"I... love you too..." As many times as he says I love you, he is just too suprised by my confession to be his usual self.

"A-are you okay, Soubi?" I asked in a cute tone, I have no idea if I was doing it right because I have absolutely no experience in this sort of thing...

Soubi smiled. "Yes and that was adorable!" Guess it worked... "I was just... suprised is all..."

I smiled up at him, trying to continue being cute. I guess I was better at playing cute than I thought. In fact, it seemd to come all too natrual. "Why were you so suprised?" I asked, bringing a finger to my bottom lip in a sweet and innocent way.

Soubi blushed slightly. "A-ano... You said I love you out of the blue like that. I had no idea you felt that way..."

I giggled. Wait, I giggled? What the heck is wrong with me? "I've felt this way for a long time. I've wanted to tell you but I was too scared... Are you mad?" I looked down, still playing the cute card. I couldn't tell if I was over doing it yet, I was just gonna keep going until it got old.

"Of course I'm not mad. I wish you would have told me before now, but I would never be mad at you, Ritsuka, never ever!" He was totally falling for my cuteness. My plan was working!

"Oh, so you wouldn't be mad if I asked you to take my ears?" I asked, grabbing my ears sweetly.

The look on Soubi's face was priceless. His mouth dropped open and his eyes turned huge, while his eybrows shot up so far I couldn't see the anymore. It took him about a minute or two to snap back. "N-nani? What did you just... ask?"

"Please... I need you, Soubi... I need you, please... Take my ears!" My voice suddenly turned from sweet and cute to sexy and seductive.

My plan was working all too well! "R-r...Ritsuka, are you sure? I mean, I don't want you to regret it, you can't take this sort of thing back. Once its done, its done..."

"I know, Soubi... Please, I can't wait for you anymore!" I practically pounced on him. "You know you want to..."

"O-of course I do, I have for a long time... B-but... I just need to know your sure," Soubi was looking really turned on right now.

I looked down at him from my postion above. "Sou-san, please," I was begging him now in the cutest way I could manage.

"S-sou-san?" He was confused because I never call him anything but Soubi. "Is that an order?" He asked. I nodded.

Soubi leaned up and kissed me for the first time. This was my first kiss and I was excited. It was sweet and tender yet powerful and hungry. As we continued kissing, I felt his tongue on my lip. I jumped and made a suprised squeek but then opened my mouth, granting him the entrance he wanted. Leter into the kiss, I moved my hands downward and my fingers slid under his shirt and slowly lifted. I was slightly shaky but luckily he didn't notice as I lifted his shirt up until I had to break the kiss to lift it over his head. I threw the shirt to the floor and looked at his chest. I had never seen him shirtless before... It was wonderful!

As I was distracted by Soubi's chest, he fipped us so he was on top, taking my shirt off. I blushed as he looked at my chest. He was so much more muscular than I was and I was a bit self-concious... He leaned down to kiss me again and we continued...

I woke up in a room that wasn't my own. It was just getting light out and I could see the room almost clearly. I quickly realized where I was. I was in Soubi's room, on his bed. I looked over to my side and saw Soubi asleep with his arm trown over my waist. I turned off my stomach onto my side to face him. He shifted in his sleep and started to stir. After a few seconds his eyes fluttered open and looked at me sleepily.

I smiled at him. "Good morning."

He smiled to me as well. "Good morning, Ritsuka." He hugged me closer to him and kissed me on the forehead.

I giggled. "You know my Mother will kill me when I get home?"

"No she won't."

"Oh? And why is that?"

"Because you will never go back!" He said playfully and hugged me closer and kissed and nibbled at my neck while he tickled my stomach.

"AH! No- NO! S-stop! That- AH!- tickles!" I yelled at him, giggling again. What, have I turned into a girl now?

Soubi stopped and kissed me lightly on the lips. "And I'm rather liking the cuteness."

"Nani?" I asked.

"You were- are- playing cute. I like it. Its so kawaii!" He kissed me again.

"OH! I forgot about that. I guess once I started I was in the zone or something..." I lied. I knew I was still playing cute. I knew all too well. But I liked it too much to stop...

"Well I like it..." Soubi smiled. So I was thinking... You've graduated and we're together now, right?"

I hadn't thought about what would happen next but I wanted to be his boyfriend and him mine. "Yes..."

"Well, I was thinking... You should move in. Or at least try for awhile and see how you like it..." I could tell he was nervous.

"Of course! I'd love to move in with you!" I squeeled and hugged him close.

I leaned back to see him smiling. He leaned down and captured my lips with a kiss. "Thats great, Ritsuka!"

"When did you want me to move in?" I asked. Like I want to live with an abussive mother for the rest of my life...Pff!

"Whenever you like. I wish you didn't have to leave..." He answered.

"Well I better get my stuff while my Mother is still at work. I'll leave a note, I don't want to say goodbye, she'll only hit me more..." I said.

"Is your Mother at work now?" Soubi asked.

"Well yeah, its 7 and she went to work at around 6 so we could go today if you want." I didn't know if he wanted to come with me to get my stuff or not but it was nice to offer, right?

"Alright, we'll go after breakfast," he said with a smile. God, I loved his smile!

"What did you want to eat?" I asked, starting to get up.

Soubi grabbed my wrist and I looked back at him. "You," he said simply. I blushed and he pulled he back.

"A-alright..." I stuttered out.

We finished packing up my belongings around 2 in the afternoon. I expected it to take longer but I didn't think about what I was really taking. I was only taking clothes, my bathroom items, my music, my computer, and my books.

I wiped some sweat from my forehead onto the sleeve of my jacket. "Done..." I turned to Soubi who was standing next to 2 medium sized boxes.

"Make sure you leave a note," Soubi reminded me.

"Oh, right..." I went to the kitchen and took out a notepad and pen from a drawr.

Mom,

You know I love you very much, but I've decided that it was time for me to move out... I've decided to move in with my boyfriend Soubi, which youu haven't met before. Don't freak out! We've known eachother since I was 12 and I know him very well, so please do not worry about me.

I know it will be difficult for you but just think about it for a second. I want to be happy and live with the one I love so badly it hurts. He asked me to move in with him this morning and I said yes so we did this as soon as possible.

I'm sorry I didn't talk to you first about this. I love you, Mom.

-With love, Ritsuka

I left the note on the table where she would find it when she got home. I shed a tear but hid it before I went back to the door where Soubi waited.

"Did you leave the note?" Soubi asked.

I smiled at him. "Mm-hm!"

He scratched where my ears once were. I had forgotten completely that they were gone until he touched where they used to be. "Alright, are you ready?"

"Yes, lets go."

We carried the boxes of belongings to his apartment. He carried the heavier one with my computer, music, and books, while I carried my clothes. When we reached his apartment, I felt weird. Not bad weird, just weird. I was going to live here now...

"Where do you want the boxes?" Soubi asked, closing the door behind us with his foot.

"Uhh... well this box can go in your room, so I'll take it there. That box... Wherever you have room for a computer, books and CDs." I told him, walking towards his room.

"Alright, I'll put it here and we can unpack it after some lunch," he said.

I came back into the room and we ate lunch before unpacking. We started with my clothes and bathroom items. I put my clothes along with his in his dresser and closet. After that we took my bathroom items to put away. My toothbrush went with his, my shampoo and conditioner(Yes, I use conditioner!), body wash, etc.

"Okay now that done. Lets start on this box," I said, opening the second box. There was a bookshelf where I could put my books and CDs. I put them up and looked for a spot for my computer... There! I would put it on the desk by the window. Luckily there was an outlet for it there and I set it up. "Done!"

"How about some dinner?" I heard Soubi ask from the kitchen. I looked at the clock. Holy crap! It's 7 already...

"Yeah... Time sure went by fast today, huh?" I asked him as I sat down at the counter on a high stool.

Soubi looked up from the miso soup he was making. "Yes, it did. It was because we were packing and unpacking your things all day. Now we can just relax for the rest of the night... Or we can do something else..." He looked over at me with a seductive smile on his face.

I blushed. "N-nani? I-I... I..." I stuttered and my words didn't come out right. I was nervous but didn't know why. I wasn't this nervous last night...

He laughed and came over to me where I sat the stool and wrapped his arms around my waist. "You are so kawaii when you're nervous..." he whispered into my ear, making me shiver from a spark that ran through my body.

"I-I am?" I asked in a quiet tone.

"Yes, you are..." Soubi trailed kisses from my ear to my neck.

"D-don't you need to stir that?" I asked.

Soubi laughed. "Yes, I do. It can wait..." He continued the kisses.

"S-stop..." I said.

He stopped at that. "Is that an order?" He looked disappointed.

"Ano..." I didn't know what to say when I looked at his face like that. "Y-yes but just for right now. We can continue after dinner."

He smiled at me and went back to stirring the miso soup and turned the stove off. He finished and put it in two bowls and set them on the table. We ate and then settled on the couch to watch some TV.

After about 20 minutes of TV, Soubi started kissing me. I looked up and his kisses moved from my neck up to my face and found my lips. I kissed him back with the same force as he had. I moaned when he bit my lip for entrance and I opened my mouth. After about 10 minutes of our make-out session, he leaned back. I whined at him and frowned.

He laughed at my reaction. "Did you want to take this to the bedroom?" he aske. I smiled and nodded eagerly. He picked me up bridal style and carried me off to his-our- bedroom.

Cookie: So how'd you like it? I promise it will get better... What do you guys think?

Ritsuka: ...

Cookie: What does that mean?

Soubi: He's embarrassed right now... I thought it was wonderful!

Cookie: Aww, thank you, Soubi!

Ritsuka: *Mumbles* Why did I have to be uke?

Cookie: What was that?

Ritsuka: Nothing...

Cookie: Really? It sounded like you asked why you were uke. Thats because... Well, I don't know. I like it better when your uke...

Soubi: I loved it, Cookie!

Ritsuka: Of course you did, you were seme...

Cookie: Oh, just deal with it!

Soubi: Please review if you want more!