This is both my first song-fic, and my first venture into the SVU realm. I absolutely love the show, and just recently seem to be obsessed with Zebras (the animal, for obvious reasons). And well, this song was stuck in my head during my exam today and I realized it fit wonderfully with Olivia's character. (At least I think so).
Tell me what you guys think, please!
(And if any of you have read my other stories...please don't kill me. I have writers block, okay! Minus this story, it has been bad.)
((DISCLAIMER: I do not own any characters from SVU. Those are owned by Dick Wolf. I also do not own the song from Hercules. If I owned Hercules, I would be changing the entire plot so that all of the Mythology was correct and not so completely WRONG))
From: "I Won't Say I'm in Love": Disney's Hercules
If there's a prize for rotten judgment
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!
She had run away. From her job. Her home. From her family. From Him. Every time things got to complicated, she fled. Every time the truth of their relationship was about to come out, she left. Half the time she did not even know why she had fled. She didn't recognize the feelings then, she still does not now. She has been feeling them for so long that she doesn't remember what it feels like to be without them.
Does he feel the same? No. He has a wife and kids, priorities; a life where she is not included. She can't be around him anymore. She has to leave and go far, far away; somewhere where she would never have to think his name again. It would save them both so much trouble, and her so much pain.
Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of
She couldn't just get up and flee again. Cragen would have her ass. They needed her on the team. She had a duty: to serve and protect. But she can't stand to be around Him.
She couldn't stand to be without him either.
John had caught her staring the other day, at Him. She pretended to be staring at the wall, but the smirk told her he knew. He knew. They all knew. But how could they know if she didn't even know what she was feeling?
What was she feeling?
Love?
No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh
It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love
No. She couldn't be. They were partners. Friends. It ended there.
Partners with a job to do. Partners don't become lovers. Partners can't become lovers.
I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
After his divorce, they had become closer. Too close. She had liked it. Perhaps if she had realized what she was feeling earlier, he wouldn't have gone back. He wouldn't have gone back and destroyed her hopes.
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad
She tried to suppress the emotion, but it wouldn't go away. It wouldn't go away, and still she tried to ignore it. But it would not disappear. Her love for Him would not disappear.
WRONG: No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no
Her love for Him? Where did that come from? She cares about Him, yes, but love? No. Never. It can't be.
Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love
This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love
You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love
His warm ice eyes drew her in. She could tell his every thought just by looking into those depths. Except for one. If only she could read that one emotion, she would know how He felt. If He felt the same about her as she about Him.
Her heart skipped a beat.
What if He did?
Another missed beat.
Would He tell her?
Would she tell Him?
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it
No. He doesn't love her. She doesn't love Him. It is impossible. Unreal. Forbidden. Wrong.
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love
She has never loved someone before, so how could she possibly know if she does now? She has nothing to compare it to. She would have no one to go to. Everyone she knows is connected to her job. Her life is her job. Her life cannot deal with love. Her job cannot be connected to love.
But He is her job. Her life. Her love.
Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love
She loves Him. He doesn't know it, but she loves Him.
Someday He will know.
Someday.
And when He does know…she won't run away.
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Please R&R. Many thanks!