Goodbye, a vampire knight fanfic

Disclaimer: The song lyrics do not belong to me but to Secondhand Serenade; and so does the anime and characters. Please don't sue me for this!

Warnings: I stared blankly into the space the whole time while I was writing this and also after writing this, so whether if you cry or stare blankly into space too then it is in your discretion. You may laugh if you want, or curse or anything. I don't care. (I think this looks more like a warning to myself rather than to you guys.)

To understand this story better I think you should watch Vampire Knight first. It will be stupid to just try guessing the story by basing it on this fan fiction, since this is written in the perspective of a fujoshi.

It's a shame

That it had to be this way

It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Zero

Ichiru and I are the cursed twins. But why does it need to be like that? Now, as I walk upstairs this winding and endless staircase I'm wishing that Ichiru will be alive once more after I settled everything. And then we could live as family after that. With no more grudges and obligations and ancient curses rested on our shoulders.

But, I know that it won't come true, for twins born under vampire hunter parents are doomed not to exist. They will eventually end up finishing each other.

Maybe I'm to blame

Or maybe we're the same

But either way I can't breathe

Either way I can't breathe

Ichiru

At a young age I know that I won't ever last for long. But I had accepted it gratefully, because I have a loving twin that is always looking out for me. I know that he loves me, even though he won't say it personally. Though I'm only picturing it in my mind, I do like how he gets flustered over simple matters so easily~

But then, why did I have to hear that? If only I hadn't gone to the bathroom way past my bedtime, I wouldn't have done this foolish thing. I wouldn't have fallen in love with a vampire.

All I

Had to say is goodbye

We're better off this way

Zero

Everything changed that night when the sky was crying pure white snow. It was winter, but when she came the night wind brought in sakura petals. Then I noticed Ichiru missing. Where can he might be? He shouldn't wander at a time like this, especially with a vampire in the house! But then it was all too late, I was already bitten and turned to a vampire. Before I blocked out I saw Ichiru standing behind that monster.

Run away Ichiru! Was what I managed to say before I blocked out. When I woke up I saw Kaien-richijo, and then I was brought to their house, until now.

After many years I saw Ichiru again, but this time it was different. He had worked all this years under the very same vampire that turned me into the monster that I am now. So I guess I hate him. But then, why does it feel so wrong?

I'm alive

But I'm losing all my drive

'Cause everything we've been through

And everything about you

Zero

My body feels different after drinking up all of Ichiru's blood. I feel stronger, though there's a feeling in my heart that I still can't place. Was this guilt? I can't shrug all of these feelings from my heart.

Does it really need to be this hard to let go of everything?

Seemed to be a lie

A guiltless, twisted lie

It made me learn to hate you

Or hate myself for letting it pass by

Ichiru

Someone killed Shizuka-sama. I know that it is not Zero, but it's natural for me to put the blame on him. After all, he was the one who first wounded Shizuka-sama. But then, why? Why does it feel so wrong? Like I'm being completely unreasonable? Though I should have lost all feelings of guilt against Zero long ago, bits still linger.

What was the reason for all of this?

All I

Had to say is goodbye

We're better off this way

Ichiru

I am now standing in front of you. Though I won't let you know that I'm about to die. I still want to jeer at how you've become a loser. Truly your name befits you; Zero, one that has nothing and nothing to get. Though, I still want to end up in your arms.

You don't really know how much I missed being hugged by you on the nights we slept together. The guilty look you'd shot at me every time you thought you did something wrong. That embarrassed look of yours whenever your feelings show through.

You always wear a fake mask of toughness, when truly, underneath that is someone who is extremely fragile. I guess; I'm tougher than you, right?

And all I

Had to say is goodbye

We're better off this way

Zero

Why do I have to lie even to myself when the truth was that I truly hate Ichiru? I truly hate him, for he was the reason why I was suffering like this now.

But why does this feels like the biggest lie that I ever said?

And every, everything isn't only

What it seems so hold these

Words that you never told me

Zero

Deep down in my heart I had longed for him, though I think I never liked to acknowledge that. So is that the reason why I don't know of these feelings?

And now, as he lay dying in my arms, all that I'm wishing for is more time for us to be with each other. I don't want to end everything on such a sad note.

It's time to say goodbye

Goodbye

Bye

Ichiru

Even at a time like this. Do you need to be such a crybaby? I'm freaking dying already, don't you see?

But then, your warm teardrops on my shoulder make me not regret that I had given up my life or you. That in such a short time I was able to be with you. That in my last seconds I am tightly in your arms. You love me too, right?

Take my pain away

Tear it out

Tell me I was wrong

Ichiru

Forget about the name of the one that had been the cause for all your misery. Take my life, and make me yours. After all, we are not supposed to be born apart right?

You are really too kind, even before birth, to let me take some of your strength to be able to have a brief glimpse on this beautiful yet cruel world.

And now I'm giving it back to you, so that I'll be with you forever. Why aren't you scolding me now? Isn't it just right for an older brother to reprimand the younger one? Why won't you hate me now?

Take my pain away

Tear it out

Tell me I was wrong

Zero

That's impossible; I cannot simply hate you, because you are important to me.

Author's Note: My heart broke when I reread this. I never thought that I'm going to write a story that will make my own heart break! Or maybe it was just because of the lyrics? Well, maybe it was the effect of the lyrics. The emotions in here were not completely distinguished from one another right?

What do you think? Was it worth reading? Then, if you do or do not think so, then please review~! Well, tell me if I have to rewrite this. I don't like fake praises.

"A goodbye does not mean that everything ended at that spot. It just means that a new thing is about to start."

My mood's a bit rocky today so I guess I'm too emotionless. Anyway, 'til the next.