AN: So I haven't really updated anything in a while. Actually I have only one story going, haha, anyways I was kind of stumped on it but I wanted to post something so I came up with this one-shot! It's short and random but I think it's kind of sweet. Of course it would be better if I actually wrote out the whole story, which actually I had thought about doing but then decided against it because I already have a story out that I'm completely stumped on. Oh well, I hope it's not too confusing, I'm not all that great at writing one-shot's since there's no time to really develop the characters so I hope you all enjoy! :3
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto
Dear Naruto,
I think its weird how one person can change your life forever. And I mean literally turn your whole world upside down, it's insane. I know we don't talk anymore and I don't even know if you remember me, but I remember you, a lot. And I guess maybe I'm feeling lonely right now, but I just thought I should thank you.
I can remember the exact moment I laid my eyes on you, kind of cheesy, I know, but it's true. I was sitting in biology class, bored out of my mind. The teacher was going on about something I wasn't entirely paying attention to, and my mid was so far off I hadn't even noticed you walked into the room. You bumped by desk snapping me out of trance and whispering a quick apology. You were the new student.
I looked at you curiously. You were tall with bright yellow hair that stuck out in every which way. Honestly, you looked like a complete outcast. Even so, there was something about you that attracted me to you. Of course, I thought this was nothing serious, I assumed I was just bored and curious, you know? Besides that, I was a guy as well, so nothing romantic could have possibly come out of it.
That was the first moment I set eyes on you. And after that, things just clicked, you know? I remember the days where we flirted twenty-four seven. At the time, I didn't know I was flirting. I didn't even believe that was possible, to be flirting with a guy, the thought so absurd that I just dismissed it as my being friendly with you. After months, possibly even years, (the time to me is so relevant) you approached me.
It was a normal autumn day, we were outside enjoying our Lunch like we always did, cracking jokes and just enjoying one another's company. You had gotten quiet after a while, and I the silent air was creeping up on me and I felt awkward, which was odd since I never felt weird around you. You were my best friend, after all. You turned your head ever so slowly and smiled nervously, like a child staring at someone for the first time. By this point you had me utterly confused.
You looked at me straight in the eye and whispered, "I have a confession." It was as if a chill ran up my spine. I knew, whatever you were about to say, was going to change everything. A part of wanted to run away, make a mad dash away from you but another part of me wanted to stay, to find out what you wanted.
I chose the latter. I nodded my head urging for you to continue. Oddly enough, I remember your exact words, no matter how long ago they were. "I love you. I know I'm a boy and you're a boy, and I don't really think I'm gay. But it's you; I've loved you since I first saw you and I don't even know why."
My instincts told me to run. To get out of there, fast, and to never look back. But what I did next still boggles my mind today. I smiled and kissed you. Not a full out make out, no, but a light kiss on the lips, telling you it was okay. I looked at you, held out my hand, and whispered, "Prove it, dobe."
I'm glad I took the chance I did. Although our relationship had many up's and down's I can't say I regret it. We were like polar opposites but yet the very same. You were the first person to accept me, to truly accept all of me. You loved me for strengths and also my weakness. For what I lacked you had, and for what you lacked I had. It was like we were made for each other, like we completed each other.
We stayed together for two years. Two years of pure bliss. I can't say that we were perfect, that we didn't have flaws, because nobody is perfect and everyone has flaws. But even so, I felt perfect, with you. Even though it was clearly so that we weren't perfect, it felt like I was. I felt alive! For the first time in my life, I felt that I belonged.
So when it came to an end I was more than a little sad. I was out right depressed, and for a long time, I blamed you. I can't say that I've fully healed now either, because I think you hurt me more than you even know. But at the same time, I can't hate you. Trust me; I've tried to make every fiber of my being hate your very existence.
But in the end, I couldn't do it. You gave me too many good memories. You gave me love, happiness, and most of all, you gave me you. I know that sounds stupid, but it's true. As I was growing up, I felt as though the world hated me. My parents had died shortly after I was born and for some reason, everyone around me resented me for it. Everyone blamed me for their death, even though it wasn't my fault at all.
You came, that faithful day and you showed me, that I was worth it. You showed me that there are people out there who can love me for me, no matter how hopeless it all may seem. You were there for me when I needed someone the most. You were my first love.
And even in our finally moments together, you were thinking about me through the very end. You knew that we couldn't be together because it would mean giving up all our hopes and dreams. You knew that if we stayed together I wouldn't get into my dream college in England and you wouldn't get into your dream college in our own home Japan.
Although I initially hated you for breaking up with me and forcing me onto the first plane out of there, I've come to realize, it was for the best. You showed me how to love and how to care, and I promise, Naruto, I will cherish our moments together forever.
So on our anniversary day, December 1st, I thought I'd send you a letter. I think I'll never be able to truly get to tell you my appreciation for you being there for me when no one else was. You were my first love, and I wish, more than anything that you were my only love. But that's not what happened, and I don't think it's even possible after we've grown so far apart. But I just wanted you to know how much I love you. I'm really glad to have met you.
On that day that you confessed to me, I'm glad I stayed, I'm glad I hadn't run, because if I did, we wouldn't have all those wonderful moments together. I honestly think, without you, my life would be horrible, just the same as it was before. So, you are the one that changed my life, and showed me a different meaning to the world, that's it's not all about revenge. That sometimes, I just need to slow down and enjoy life. So thank you, Naruto.
Yours Truly,
Sasuke