Breaking the Habit
"AHHHHHHHHHH!" Light woke up screaming.
"Light-kun, what's wrong?" L asked from the floor.
"L, w-why are you on the floor?" The teen asked dazed.
"Well, Light-kun's abrupt screaming scared me and I fell out of bed," the detective explained, the chain connecting them rattled as he climbed onto the mattress, "Now, you still have yet to answer my question, why were you screaming?"
"Oh," Light said remembering what had frightened him so much, "I had a bad dream…"
"Light-kun, you've had a bad dream like this very night this week, you can tell me what's wrong."
'Oh how I wish I could, I wish I could tell you "L, I'm Kira, but I don't want to be anymore because I-'
Light was cut off from his thoughts as L said, "Light-kun was sleeping just fine every night until last week, the night Higuchi died, you don't find this in the least bit strange?"
"I guess I'm just a little worked up after seeing that shinigami and watching Higuchi die…" Light lied easily, "I'm fine, lets just go back to sleep." Light knew L wasn't asleep, L never slept, but he just wanted to end the conversation and go back to sleep.
L gave Light a concerned look but decided it would be best to let the teen sleep. "Sweet dreams Light-kun, I don't think I can handle anymore of your nightmares."
"While I still find there to be a three percent chance of you being Kira, I'm going to remove the handcuffs, but I still request you stay in the building."
Light nodded, 'What's he up to? This has to be some kind of trick!' he thought as he felt the familiar weight of the handcuffs being removed from his wrist.
As soon as Light got into his room he got on the phone and had a coded conversation with Misa telling her to start killing as Kira again.
"Good morning Light-kun, there have been 20 more Kira killings since yesterday." L explained as the teen walked down the stairs from his room.
That night during the few hours Light and L had alone from when the investigators went home to when the teen went to sleep, Light decided to approach the detective, "Well, you were awfully quiet today."
"Light-kun, in case you didn't notice, I'm quiet everyday." L said, not looking up from his work.
"Still, you haven't said anything since this morning…you didn't even yell at Matsuda when he spilt his coffee all over his computer."
"Well, I suppose I have been a bit distracted lately…" L sighed.
"I didn't know the world famous L could get distracted." Light said playfully.
"I would think Kira would be pleased by the fact I can't focus on my work." L said, looking accusingly at Light.
"Fuck you L!" Light screamed, "How many times do I have to tell you, I'm. Not. Kira!" The teen couldn't take L's constant (but completely justified) accusations.
"Light-kun, I was only joking…"
"Just leave me alone L!" The teen yelled, his voice dripping with venom as he stormed out of the room.
L sat in his usual crouched position, shocked by the teen's reaction, Light would usually go off in a huff (or at least as far away as the chain would allow and ignore the detective) but he never got so angry with L. 'maybe I should go apologize to light-kun…"
Light slammed the door to his room and fell onto his bed, he couldn't remember the last time he cried, but the tears just wouldn't stop. After twenty minutes Light was about to fall asleep when he heard someone knocking at his door.
"What do you want L?" Light whined.
"Light-kun, open the door and let me talk to you."
"Why should I? So you can accuse me of being Kira again? Just go away, I don't want to talk to you!"
"Light-kun," L's voice was much more gentle now, "Light-kun, I wanted to tell you I'm sorry, I know it must be hard for you right now and I'm not making it any easier by accusing you of being Kira after I told you, you were almost cleared…" L was just about to leave and drown his guilt in some strawberry cheesecake when he heard the door to Light's room open, "Light-kun, I-" The detective was cut off as he was pulled into Light's room.
Light locked the door once again before his lips descended onto the detective's in a needy, passionate kiss.
L's eyes went wide in shock before he melted into the kiss, deepening it.
Both men cursed the need for air as they broke apart, their cheeks lightly stained pink.
"L, I-I'm sorry…" The teen began, unable to look the detective in the eyes.
"It's alright Light, I liked it, really."
The teen noticed the lack of honorific, which did nothing to help his blushing.
"It's not that…" Light sighed, "L, please let me tell you everything and give me a chance to explain before you say anything…"
The detective simply nodded, looking at the teen with confusion.
Light took a deep breath before saying, "L, I…I'm Kira…"
The detective didn't push the teen away, nor did his gaze harden as the teen had expected, he instead kept his promise and waited for the teen to continue. "I thought I was doing the right thing, getting rid of all the world's criminals, then after I was put in the cell, I gave up all my memories of the death note, after we caught Higuchi, I got them back, but I don't want to be Kira anymore because…because I love you L." Light finished, once again unable to look in the detective's eyes.
"Light…I…I don't know what to say, I love you too, but Kira has killed so many people…" L stammered, he really want sure what to do in this situation.
Light had already figured that L wouldn't be able to accept his love, and the teen didn't really blame him, but he had thought of a plan to help the detective. L was so busy thinking about what to do; he didn't notice Light grab a small piece of paper from his wallet.
"L, I'm so sorry about all of this, but this should make things easier for you…" the teen said as he began to write his name down on the piece of paper.
Light Ya-
"No!" L screamed as he lunged at the teen and pinned him to the floor.
"L, what are you doing?"
"Why would you just leave me like that, you said you love me!"
Light was shocked by L's words, "of course I love you, that's why I have to do this! If I don't write my name down, you'll have to arrest me and send me away yourself! I know this is going to hurt at first but it'll be easier than having to send me of yourself…" The teen explained, tears once again staining his cheeks. "L, I don't want to do this-"
"Than don't! Stay here, please don't leave Light!" L cried clinging to the teen, "You said you gave up your memories of the death note before, can't you do it again?"
Light didn't think that L would ever want to see him again once he knew Light was Kira, he was speechless by the fact that L would want to be with him. "Are you sure that's what you want? Remember, I'm Kira…"
"I don't care! I just want you to stay here with me Light!"
"Alright, I'll stay, I love you L…Ryuk!"
The shinigami passed through the wall to Light's bedroom to see the teen being pinned down by a crying L, "Uh…am I interrupting something? I can come back later…"
Light simply went on to explain what happened to Ryuk, "and so, I'm going to give up the death note so I can be with L. But first, I have to talk to L…" He turned his attention to the detective, "L, Misa is the second Kira, but her shinigami, Rem, will kill you if you arrest her, but I'm going to call Misa and tell her to give up ownership of her death note, the Kira killings will completely stop, forever." Light explained before he went off to make the call to Misa, leaving the detective and the shinigmi in the room together.
"So…do you have any apples?" Ryuk asked trying to break the awkward silence in the room.
L just chuckled, "so, Light was serious when he said that shinigami love apples? Well, we don't have any apples…but I'm pretty sure there is an apple pie in the kitchen…"
Finally, after everything was done, Light said his goodbye to Ryuk before he gave up ownership of his death note, "so that's it? Well see ya around kid…actually, no I guess I wont" Ryuk said with a laugh before he passed through the wall with Light's death note.
Light blinked a few times in confusion, "L? L what's going on?"
"Nothing Light-kun, you just woke up from a nap, maybe you should go back to sleep koibito." L said stroking Light's hair
'At least this isn't a dream' Light thought with a smile snuggling up to L.
~FIN~
A/N ok, I finally finished it! My first death note fanfiction ^^ actually, I finished it a while ago, I was just to lazy to type it up XDDD
Light: meh…it could have been better…
Me: n
L: don't be mean Light!
Me: ya, I worked hard on this!
Either way please please please review! ^^ if you do I'l give you a lifetime supply of imaginary sweets ^^
L:…HEY! Those are MY imaginary sweets!
Me: ^^; uhhhh…well, gotta go! ^^ *runs from L*
L: GIVE EM BACK!
Me: NO! THEY"RE MINE NOW!
Love it? Hate it? I really want to know! Please review, this is my first fanfiction, I really want to know how I can improve ^^