What to live for
Danny was sat at the side of the stage, gazing towards the lights. How could he have lost both of them? Neither of them wanted him. Lauren had said that he hurt her too much over the last year, so when he went for Claudine she had slapped him! All he wanted was to get a girl who he could be with. Things were going fine with Lauren until Claudine came and tricked him into loving her. His feelings for Lauren became irrelevant because Claudine was something new.
He stared at the only place he wanted to be: on stage. It made him so happy to see audiences happy. He remembered the time he found out he had dyslexia. Lauren was his light, his strength. She was the one he truly wanted, but she didn't want him. How could he see her everyday without wanting to kiss her, hold her, and love her?
The silent tears cascaded down his face. The holidays were over and he was back at Britannia High. The holidays were hard, he missed her. Coming back though, would be harder. He buried his face in his hands thinking about his living situation. The whole gang were living there now. He hadn't got there yet. He had come straight to school. He furiously wiped at his eyes, trying to pull himself together. He grabbed his bags and headed towards the door.
When he got outside it was pouring with rain. He walked all the way, the rain whipping at his skin. It hid his tears at least. When he arrived he knew that everyone else was there. It was 8 o'clock. He trudged towards the door, dreading seeing her.
On his way he tripped over. He managed to tear his jeans and cut his leg and head quite badly. Danny could barely see, because of the blood and the rain. He pounded his fist on the door, a final sob escaping his lips. A shadow came into view, it was Jez.
"Are you alright?" he asked. Danny stared at the ground, not looking up.
"Guys! Danny's here!" The gang came rushing out. Claudine heaved him into the front room. He was still shaking when he sat down. His eyes had never opened in fear of seeing her. If he saw her he would finally have to admit that she had moved on and it was over. When he was sure she wasn't in the room he opened his eyes. He saw four worried faces gazing at him.
"What the hell happened to you?" asked BB pointing to the open wound on his forehead.
"Were you mugged?" asked a very worried Lola. He managed to stifle a laugh.
"No Lola. I just fell that's all." said Danny blatantly.
"Then why are you so late?" enquired Claudine.
"I stopped off at school first, now I'm going upstairs to go to bed," said Danny, getting up quickly. Desperate to get to the comfort of his bedroom.
"No. That cut will need stitches; we'll have to go to the hospital. I'll write a letter to Lauren telling her where we are. She was at the school too, did you see her?" said Jez.
"No. I didn't see her," said Danny. The thought of her being so close to him caused another crack in his heart.
Lola scribbled something down and then grabbed Danny roughly by the shoulders and dragged him towards the door. BB drove them to the hospital. It turned out Danny needed 6 stitches on his head and 4 on his knee. He sat in a daze as the doctors rushed around him. How much longer until he had to see her and his heart shattered.
When he emerged from the hospital he was met from the words he didn't want to hear.
"Lauren called. She's really worried. She is waiting up for us," rushed BB. Danny sighed; he couldn't exactly stay away from her forever. Maybe he could say he was really tired and get out of it for another night, though that would look really suspicious. He closed his eyes and tried to think about anything but her. His head was pounding, but he couldn't feel the pain.
He saw the house come into view. Claudine grabbed him and pulled him out. They all thought he was concust from his fall. He was led into the house behind everyone else. He could hear her voice.
"What happened? Is he alright…" He wandered straight into the living room. His heart broke as he saw her beautiful face swim into focus. A lone tear slid down his face. She ran towards him, her arms open for an embrace. He had a stroke of genius and pretended to faint just before she reached him. He hit the floor with a lo0ud thump and tried to stay as still as possible. If he hugged her he would never be able to let go.
"Danny!" Lauren jumped to the ground and pulled his head onto her lap. She gently stroked his face, careful to avoid his scar. She still had no idea what happened to him.
He waited until Lola had taken over and then he pretended to wake up.
"Danny are you alright, do you need to go back to the hospital?" Lola panicked. Danny stood up abruptly, causing a searing pain to shoot through his head. He winced, but went running up to his room.
After he had slammed the door he broke down. His life felt empty. Only a mere year ago he had met her for the first time, and fallen completely and unconditionally in love with her. Claudine had blinded him and it was the biggest mistake he had ever made and it was haunting him. She would never forgive him and he would never forgive himself. She must hate him, he had caused her so much pain, how could she not? He cried himself to sleep that night.