A/N: Just wanted to let everyone know that yes, I am posting the start of a new story and NO it will not affect 'Once Upon A One Night Stand' I will be continuing with it as it is probably about half done. It was never my intention to be a long story, just one that got me back into the groove of writing since it had been so long.

This one just happen to also come to me and I was very excited about it so I wanted to knock off the first chapter, not intending to post it until I finished OUAONS. Then I thought hey, why not post it and at least see what people are thinking about it while I finish the other. I will still post to this one but not as often as I do OUAONS.

Thanks, and I hope you enjoy! ~Jacquie ETN

A/N: As always I do not own Twilight nor it's characters.

I'd had or been in more than my share of what some may call accidents, some even verging on near death experiences. I've gotten used to it though, it just seemed oddly inevitable now. Like I really was destined for disaster.

Since I was a young girl I have spent at least a night or two per month in my local hospital. I suffered through many different broken bones, broken arms, ankles, legs, wrists, even a few ribs from a tumble down the stairs. I've had more concussions, cuts, stitches, and bruises then a seasoned boxer.

You see, I am Isabella Marie Swan, known by most as simply Bella, klutz extraordinaire. It honestly goes beyond being a klutz, there is also a rather large helping of some very, very bad luck. So far I have only spoke of the physical side of things, but these 'disasters' as I like to refer to them as follow me through every aspect of my life.

Obviously it started with my clumsy little inconsequential accidents as a small child, to never feeling like I fit in or like I was burdening my mother with my mere existence in her life. She had gotten remarried to a pro ball player and couldn't travel with him because I was always in some situation and she needed to be with me. That is what had brought me here to Seattle living with my father Charlie. I moved here right after my 17th birthday which was eight years ago, So yes that makes me 25 years old.

Moving here was pretty much the beginning of the end for me. Don't get me wrong, I love my dad and he was good to me when I moved here and I made a few really good friends. Which is also what brought me to that one fateful night three years ago.

Alice, one of my best friends absolutely had to attend a keg party near the end of our final year at SWU. The reason she just had to attend this party? That would be her soul mate that she only ever referred to as Jazzy. One might wonder why as her best friend that I had never actually met the guy, right? Well that would be because she doesn't even know him, but still maintains that he is the one.

Alice and Bella~ previous conversation:

"I can feel it, he IS the ONE." Were her exact words. "And tonight is THE night, I have to be there, Bella. I can not miss this party and I can't just show up alone, you just have to come! He's my soul mate Bella, I know this beyond a shadow of a doubt. I felt it when he spoke to me."

"Alice, he spoke three words to you, THREE WORDS! How can you claim that a man you very literally ran into, and might I add have not seen him since is your future husband? It makes no sense." I argued.

"I have too seen him since, many times!" The annoying little pixie screeched.

"I'm not referring to one of the many times you have followed him around. Just for the record, your stalker tendencies are really starting to worry me where he is concerned, Alice." I was half kidding and she knew this but it still didn't mean that her actions recently have been what you might call normal.

"Bella please, please, please! This is it, I swear tonight is going to be monumental. It will happen, I'll approach him myself if I have to. I promise. Just say you'll come, please?"

"Oh thankyouthankyouthankyou, you will not regret this!" She squealed while jumping up and hugging me. She knew she had me the moment I had attempted to roll my eyes and huff out a deep breath.

End of conversation:

That party not only changed Alice's life, but mine also. She had been right as always, we had been there for almost two hours before Jazzy finally strolled in. It had been like a scene from a movie and I had to wonder how she did it, how she always knew. It was like he spotted her the moment he entered. Their eyes met and he walked straight up to her, their whole exchange was really something for the books.

"You've kept me waiting a long time, I thought you were never going to show up!" Alice spoke first.

He responds by extending his hand "I'm sorry darlin, I got here as soon as I could. I'm Jasper by the way"

"Alice" She had said smiling wide as she extended her own hand "Let's get a drink, we should talk."

That was it, I swear! He took her hand and led her away, she never said a word to me. Nothing, not I'll be back soon, or I won't be long, or did you just want to take off now, Bella. Since she already knew I didn't want to be there. I couldn't blame her though she knew this night was going to mean something big for her, and it did.

I, on the other hand had not expected what it would mean for me. I woke the next morning naked and wrapped up in a sheet, in the arms of my very ex boyfriend, Mike Newton. Needless to say I was shocked, for more reasons then one.

First and foremost being I knew for a fact that I only had three drinks the night before, yet I couldn't remember a damn thing. Not to mention the fact that my head was pounding, cloudy and my vision felt a little off.

Next of course being that Mike had been a high school boyfriend, and we had broken up because I wouldn't put out. I'd like to say that I was saving myself for marriage but in reality I was just saving myself for THE ONE, as much like Alice, I did believe that he existed and I had just yet to meet him.

Mike wasn't him. So we had remained friends, and I do use the term lightly because we never hung out or anything but we were civil. Including when I would see him around campus as he also attended SWU. Which is how he came to be at the same party.

My eyes quickly scanned the room as I began to finally focus and felt less groggy, I knew right away due to the pain and stiffness in my body that we had had sex. On quick inspection I noted that there were no condom wrappers visible, so I jumped from the bed not even caring if I woke Mike. I checked everywhere including the garbage's and began to panic when I came up empty handed.

I hadn't been on the pill in close to a year and half. I didn't like putting stuff into my body that just wasn't needed and since I was not having sex, it was not needed. I would never have been concerned about something like this because I didn't DO THIS! This wasn't me, I hardly ever went to parties or anything like that, I rarely drank, never touched drugs and I didn't sleep around…period.

I had been with one man, and of course given my disastrously bad luck I had given my virginity to the wrong man. It had been my first year of university, we had shared some classes. I thought I loved him and him me, we spent all our time together for close to a year. He seemed to dote on me, and treated me really well. How was I supposed to know that I was just a distraction as the love of his life, the woman he claimed to be insanely drawn to from the moment he met her, Claire had been on the other side of the country attending school.

His name was Jacob Black, and he had broken my heart.

Mike had finally woke and I practically screamed at him wanting to know if he used protection, and how the hell this had happened. No protection had been used and it was now just a waiting game. Another few weeks and I would know. The days following the night of the party I would have flashes here and there of the events that had occurred. It became painfully obvious to me that I had been slipped something. Someone, whom I do not know had put something in my drink and that was it. I was gone, wasted and I totally blanked on the night.

Mike was good while we waited. He was patient, and hung around some. We even went for coffee a few times, it didn't change anything. I was not in any way interested him and was glad to not have any full memory of the night of debauchery.

I peed on three sticks and they all confirmed it. I, Isabella Swan was pregnant with Mike fucking Newton's baby. I'd like to say that I couldn't believe it, but really, who would I be kidding. It completely fits with the course my life seems to follow.

Mike spent the next five months convincing me that we could be together, do this together. I fought him tooth and nail at first but he was very persuasive and in truth I thought about the life I had lived barely knowing Charlie until I came to live with him. I didn't want that for my child.

That is how I came to find myself six months pregnant standing in front of a judge at the court house getting married. Alice had begged me not to, saying I just didn't have to do this. That I was only managing to throw the fates off for a while, and would resume my normal course in life eventually or some shit like that. She never attended the ceremony nor did anyone else, it was a very private event meaning only us, Charlie and Mike's parents.

It was only two weeks later that I was in a horrifying accident. A drunk driver had swerved into the lane of a transport truck successfully cutting him off and sending said truck head on into my car. I woke up in the hospital three days later no longer carrying my child, she had not survived.

Mike continued to dote on me, while I climbed deeper and deeper into my own little hole. I felt empty and lost, I spent weeks on end in bed doing nothing but crying. Mike never gave up and had even taken to telling me that he loved me and would take care of me. He really was great and for a while I had even convinced myself that everything would be ok with us. That it didn't matter that I would never love him, not that way.

It was six months before I finally felt like me again, I had avoided everyone and everything. I lost contact with all my friends including Alice, she had tried to contact me numerous times during those dark months. She wanted to be there for me, but I just wouldn't have it. Then we had moved, changed our numbers and I guess it was a lost cause at that point.

A couple of months after the move I had come across a wedding announcement in the paper. Alice was officially claiming her soul mate, I couldn't help but smile at the truth she spoke. She knew he was it for her before she even knew him, I wanted that. I want that still. I could have tried to contact her, reconnect but I didn't. I had a new life now, a different life and I was trying to leave it all behind. I didn't want to hurt anymore and foolishly I had thought that bringing her back in would bring everything back in and I just couldn't do it.

So here I am almost another two years later, 25 years old. Stuck in a loveless marriage, with no one to confide in. I still do not talk to any of my former friends, I see my father maybe twice a year with the exception of holidays and no coworkers either as I am a published author that works from home. I had buried myself in my writing during my down time and it had paid off for me in the end.

So here I sit waiting for Mike to come home from work wanting to have one last conversation regarding what we are about to do tomorrow evening. We have not been intimate in close to four months and I think he thought that spicing things up might help.

I admit when he first came home asking me about attending this party with him, I was more then a little intrigued. Now I am still intrigued but extremely nervous as well. It turns out that this is a swingers party and each man is to drop their keys in a dish at the door. A colour coded tag is given to them as well as a matching one attached to each key ring, then each woman picks a key from the dish and finds the room with the matching colour on the door. At which time you return the key to the rightful owner and spend the evening together.

Mike is currently working on an important job for the Architecture Firm he is with, he has worked with this big client quite a few times and has become somewhat friendly with him. It was this client that had given Mike the invite to this exclusive party that is being held at the guys private home, which is supposed to be some ridiculously huge mansion just out side of town. You can enter by invite only, as all invited guests also had to submit to testing for STD's . It is completely anonymous, there is no sharing of personal information of any kind aside from the first name only rule.

Mike had called to say he was going to be late getting home as he was picking up a surprise for me after work. My surprise turned out to be some new lingerie for the party, he had gone with something pretty basic. It was a black, silk matching bra and thong with a pair of thigh high stockings. I'm not one to normally go with a thong, but one thing I do know is that I have a killer ass that will totally sell those panties.

"I take it since you went out of your way to pick these up that your not having any second thoughts?" I asked.

"No, of course not. Your not are you?"

"I wouldn't say second thoughts, just nervous about it I think."

"There's nothing to be nervous about Bella, why don't you run your self a nice hot bath and relax. I'll order dinner and we'll make it an early night, ok?"

"Sure, Mike. Just order whatever you want, I don't really care what we have."

Mike had ordered Chinese and was dishing it out when I returned from my bath. I ate in silence and Mike sent me off to bed saying that he would clean up the dinner mess. I pulled my copy of Pride and Prejudice off the shelf at the side of my bed and settled in to read for a while. I only made it through a couple of chapters before I felt my eyes dropping slowly.

I didn't wake until after ten in the morning and Mike was not in bed, not that it was too surprising as he had taken to just crashing on the couch a few times a week. I felt great considering I had slept for at least twelve hours.

I spent the morning deciding what to wear and had decided on what I felt was a sexy little Versace dress. It too was black and silky with a form fitting bodice with a sweet heart neckline and a thick high waist. The dress flowed out slightly as it dropped below the waist, there was a slit that went up my left side stopping just below my hip. The slit was only visible as you walked and the skirt gently swayed against you and the fabric felt wonderful on my skin.

I had been correct about how great the thong looked on and the bra also looked wonderful. I was slightly surprised at how good I thought I looked, I hadn't felt this sexy in years. I guess Mike had the same thought as he tried to turn our normally chaste kiss into something deeper.

I pulled back breaking our kiss and that had me wondering how my evening would go. I mean if I can't even kiss my husband much less sleep with him, how was I going to do in the company of a stranger.

We had another quiet dinner and then headed for the party. The drive took close to 45 minutes and I couldn't help the gasp that escaped my lips as the house came into view. It was gorgeous and I had to wonder what on earth a person needs a house this size for. Mike parked the car and we made our way to the door, invitation in hand.

"God, Mike. My stomach is flipping. I'm so nervous." I whispered.

"Don't be Bella. You're a beautiful woman, what man wouldn't be happy to have you. Just be yourself and have fun."

"Gee, thanks Mike. Don't know what I'd do without your words of wisdom."

As we entered the house we were escorted down a long hallway to a large room that was filled with large overstuffed furniture and beautiful artwork. The far wall had a bar that ran the length of it and the walls were a deep coppery brown making the room feel quite cozy. I made my way over to the bar and pretty much gulped back a full glass of champagne and moved on the next, taking my time with this one. I glanced in Mike's direction and he was waving me over.

"Aro, I'd like to introduce you to my lovely wife, Bella. Bella, this Aro." Mike introduced me to his client that was currently hosting this shindig.

"It's nice to meet you" I stated extending my hand to shake his. He didn't bother shaking it though as he opted to bring my hand to his lips placing a soft kiss on my knuckles.

"Bella, darling. Your name does you no justice, you are far more then just beautiful." I could feel the heat of my blush as Aro continued. " I find myself wishing I could cheat just a little and make sure you have my keys. You outshine any woman here by far."

I heard a nasally sort of snort come from my left and looked up in time to see a woman with long strawberry blond hair sneering at me. She obviously did not like Aro's compliment. I ignored her and went on to thank him for the compliment. The 'meeting' of sorts was called to order as we were all asked to listen carefully.

I found my eyes were searching the faces in the crowd wondering who I would come face to face with. Almost everyone was attractive in their own way, it had me thinking that it must be something they look for when choosing to invite you. My eyes stilled quickly as they came across the most sensual emerald green orbs I had ever seen, and he was gazing back at me. I cursed myself again for the blush that I was certain was now creeping down my body, as the most gorgeous crooked smile appeared on his face.

Just as I tore my own gaze away to continue listening to Aro explain things I noticed the strawberry blond from earlier run her hand through his hair and felt the urge to slap it away. I grimaced and shook off the thought turning back to Aro.

"Ok so most of you know all the rules but just to be sure we're all on the same page. Remember, everything we do here is about respect, any form of play is acceptable as long it is consensual and does not do any permanent damage to my home. For the lovely ladies, keep in mind that when you enter your room that the gesture alone when you return his key is the green light to start the evening."

He cleared his throat before moving on. "Also, remember everything is strictly confidential. First names or pet names only and if you happen to know or learn anything about anyone here, it is to stay that way. Lastly, everyone enjoy yourselves and remember you can leave at any time but have to be gone by 5am."

It was now time for the men to make their way to their rooms so the women could begin the process of drawing their keys. He said to be fair he was calling people up according to their arrival from first to last.

When it was finally my turn my hand was shaking as I pulled the keys from the dish, black. My colour was black, I briefly wondered if it was a sign of sorts considering everything I wore this evening was black. I quickly gulped back another glass of champagne before making my way back to the foyer, where a diagram was posted for people to locate the area of the house that their room was in.

I found the room I would be sharing with a complete stranger faster then I would have liked and found myself standing outside the door not knowing how to enter. Should I knock and let him invite me in? Should I just turn the knob and walk in? And what happens when I'm finally in the room? Do we talk? Do we get right down to business?

I slumped against the door beginning to think that maybe I should just leave. I knew I was working myself up, driving myself crazy! I don't know how much time had passed but suddenly the door was opening and everything seemed to be happening in slow motion.

I knew what was about to happen and yet could not get my body to react fast enough. I was slowly falling backwards into the room and was expecting nothing more then the thud that should follow as I humiliatingly fell back on my ass. Surprisingly enough it didn't happen as I fell back against something softer then the floor yet harder then a rock.

I can not even explain the feeling that coursed through my body as his arms wrapped around me, where our skin met there was a strange almost electric current that ran from where his hands held me by the arms to steady me right down to my clit that was now pulsing from his simple touch.

"Oh shit" I whispered as he pulled me back against his chest.

"Your not hiding from me, are you?" He murmured while chuckling lightly.

Oh. My. God. What little material actually existed of my panties were now sopping wet, the affect that his smooth, velvety voice was having on my lady parts was insane. Even my breasts had decided to stand at full alert, I could feel my nipples as they tightened forming pebbled peaks within my bra.

"I must admit I was hoping you would pick my keys."

God was he still talking? Crap, my mind was mush absolute mush. 'Pull yourself together. Bella' I was silently chanting to myself. "oohhh god" I moaned as I felt his lips gently trace a line down my neck to my shoulder. I hadn't realized that the sound had actually left my lips until he pulled me tighter, flush against his body.

"The sounds you make are almost as beautiful and erotic as you." I inhaled deeply and was finally able to pull myself away. I needed to turn around and actually see the man behind this god like voice.

I couldn't believe my luck as I turned around and saw what was standing before me. It was him, and he was still wearing that crooked grin. I have no idea how I had missed that hair when I first saw him. It was reddish brown, almost a bronze colour and a complete and total disarray like he had just been thoroughly fucked, but it suited him.

It was silent for a few moments as we both eyed each other from top to bottom and back up again. Our eyes connected once again and there was something there, definitely lust. The want was certainly there just as much as I am certain it was in mine. My heart was pounding as I realized that this beautiful god could want to be with me too, albeit for just one night but still he wanted me.

His eyes watched me as I walked across the room, I stopped at a long mahogany dresser and dangled his keys in my hand then placed them on top of it. He simply nodded stating that he understood the gesture. I was feeling pretty good by now, the champagne I had consumed was starting to take affect and I wasn't nearly as nervous as I had been on the other side of that door.

He walked to the desk and poured us both a drink. "Drink up, Bella." I was more then a little surprised by his use of my name.

"Well it seems you are more in the know than I am…" I had raised my eyebrows and let my sentence trail off as I grasped my glass and waited for him to introduce himself.

"Edward, my name is Edward. And in case your wondering I overheard you being introduced to Aro earlier."

I just nodded and sipped on my drink. We had been standing there staring at one another when he walked over and gently removed my drink from my hand and placed it along with his own down on the table.

He was too close now and I had to look away, I tried to pretend that I was having a look around the room when I felt the tips of his fingers on my chin raising my eyes to his. "May I kiss you?" He asked in that all too seductively smooth voice.

Again, I simply nodded. To say I was surprised at the reaction my body seemed to have to his kiss would be an understatement. His lips were gentle for a moment as they slid across mine, but when he pressed his body against mine the kiss intensified tenfold. My hips immediately sought out the friction being offered and I could feel what was very obviously an impressive erection making contact with me as our kiss quickly became lustful and animalistic.

I surprised even myself by being the first to reach for the buttons of his shirt and making quick work of tossing it to the floor, his body was gorgeous. Tight firm chest, which I ran my hands across followed by his glorious abdominals leading down to the perfect V with it's light sprinkling of dark hair leading down to his package. I wanted, no I needed to see more and had the button of his slacks undone allowing them to slide down resting on his beautiful hips.

He quickly spun me around brushing my hair off of my shoulder he began placing soft kisses down my neck as his hands roamed my body. His hand stilled on my zipper briefly before he pulled the zipper down and slid the straps off of my shoulders, causing it to slide down my body until it lay on the floor encircling my feet.

I felt the loss of his body as he stepped back raising my arms above my head and then grazing my skin, oh so softly as he ran his hands down the outsides of my arms, caressing the very edges of my breasts with his finger tips and continuing down my sides to my hips where he squeezed gently mumbling 'fucking beautiful' before softly dragging his hand across my bare ass. I had never been so happy to be wearing a thong in my life!

He started guiding me towards the huge canopy bed in the center of the room and turned me to face him again. I thought I was going to have an orgasm right then and there as he dropped to his knees in front of me and his hands ghosted down over my stomach as he stroked and teased me. His mouth followed the same route down my body until he reached my hot, pulsating wetness and his tongue flicked out, my body arched involuntarily trying to bring him closer.

It was as though I were having an out of body experience as I took in the breathy sighs and moans that were escaping my mouth. This person wasn't me, it couldn't be was all I kept thinking. I knew I had never experienced such pure pleasure from anything in my life and yet neither one of us had even fully exposed ourselves, with him in his pants and I still in my lingerie.

"Mmmm…Edward." I moaned as I heard him breath deeply and whisper "I want to taste you, I bet your taste is as wonderful and alluring as your scent." At this he pressed his lips to my panties and lightly nipped at my clit as his hands ran up and down my thighs. He reached behind me and cupped my ass pulling me to him.

"Fuck, Bella. I need to taste you, may I taste you please?" He pleaded with me. I looked down at his face and his eyes were so dark with lust, and want I couldn't say no. I ran my fingers through his hair and smiled as I nodded my permission.

His fingers slid under the edges of my panties and slowly pulled them down, lifting each leg for me to step out. He flung them over his shoulder and preceded to lift one of my stocking clad legs over his shoulder kissing my ankle. He seemed to like that I was still wearing my heels as well.

His fingers stroked my folds quickly before his tongue again followed the same route. "God, Bella. Mmmm…you taste exquisite." He moaned into my folds as his fingers began to rub and pull, opening my center and I felt his tongue enter me somehow strong and stiff, pumping in and out of me. I could feel the tightening starting as my fluids were slowly running down my thigh.

I swear I seen flashes of white in front of my eyes as my body began to shake and my knees weakened. Edward pinched my clit between his fingers as he continued to pump his tongue in and out of me.

"Oh fuck! Edward! I'm going to…oh god! Please don't stop!" I was getting loud, much louder then I have ever been and I couldn't find it in me to be embarrassed by it. I was pulling his mouth closer by yanking on his hair almost angrily.

"mmm…yes Bella, cum for me! Fill my mouth with your delectable juices!" He was murmuring while still attempting to fuck me senseless with that beautiful tongue of his. My leg began to wobble slightly as I could feel my orgasm about to take over I grabbed onto his shoulders digging my nails in as I squeezed.

"Oh God! Eddwaarrrd!! I screamed as I reached my climax and he continued to hungrily lap up my juices. He carefully lifted my leg off his shoulder, keeping a firm grasp on my ass with the other. His eyes were even darker and hungrier if it were even possible when our eyes met again while he slowly stood to his full height. I only just now noticed how he towered over me even in my heels.

He gently laid me down on the bed grasping my hips to pull me forward. "Your so fucking sexy." He muttered as he removed one heel then slid his hands up my legs to where my stockings ended and gently rolled it down and off my leg, he continued on to do the same with the other. I know it was probably wrong but for a fleeting second my thoughts went to Mike and I couldn't help the giggle that escaped my lips at the thought 'Oh god, thank you so much for the gifts Mike!'

Edward didn't even flinch although I am sure he wondered what I found so funny in this moment. I really would not have wanted to explain that I had been silently thanking my husband for the gifts that allowed me to watch the sight before my eyes as Edward peeled my stockings off.

As he began to climb his way up the bed and over my body I noticed that somehow I had missed when he had removed the remainder of his clothing, I was inching myself towards the top of the bed by my elbows. He kissed and nibbled at my neck and breasts as he removed the last article of clothing separating us, my bra. While I reached down and finally got my first feel of his huge member, gently stroking him as I spread the pre-cum around the head of his penis he released a guttural moan and his fingers dove between my folds again.

His voice was raspy as he spoke "Your so wet for me. Tell me what you want, Bella." he ordered while my stroking of his cock and his fingers pumping in and out of me were becoming frantic.

"Oh god, Edward. You, I want you….Please." I moaned as I felt his cock pulsating in my hand. I knew he was just as far gone as I was and the gentle, erotic pace he'd been keeping was no longer going to be maintained.

"Where do you want me Bella? Do you want me to fuck you, is that what you are begging me to do?" Holy fuck! I want this man!! "Do you want my cock right here?" He hissed as his hand cupped my sex, massaging and rubbing against it.

"Yes, fuck, yes!" I moaned "I want, no I need your cock in me now, Edward!" Nothing more needed said as he adjusted himself at my entrance and thrust into me. He licked, nipped, and pinched at my nipples while driving into me. I quickly wrapped my legs around his waist successfully pulling him deeper into me. We were both moaning and incoherently murmuring and panting into each others ears. I violently tugged on his hair until our lips crashed together again, I could still taste myself on him and I couldn't believe how much it turned me on.

It was like a marathon of hot crazy sex between us, I have no idea how he maintained his stamina or his erection but we went at it for hours before we finally dropped along side each other in a sweaty, sex induced heap. I don't think there was a position that he didn't take me in tonight, and all I could say was that it wasn't enough. I wanted more!

He pulled me against him and I snuggled into his chest, taking in his scent. It was like nothing I'd ever smelled before and I would always remember it. All too soon I had to break away as I wanted to get cleaned up.

I had stumbled on my way to the bathroom and Edward chuckled as I thankfully managed to right myself before any further embarrassment could occur.

"Hey, this is nothing" I laughed. "I'm such a klutz, I spend more time in hospitals then I do eating. I swear."

"Well lucky for you I am a doctor then, isn't it Bella." I loved the sound of my name on his lips, Mike saying it didn't even compare at all. Wait, Did he say doctor? Of course he did, the man is perfect. Everything about him seems so perfect.

"Hmm…a little too much personal info, don't you think, doctor?" I had responded as I flopped face first back down on the bed. I was exhausted.

"Oh, yeah. I guess it was, I don't know I've only been to these parties a few times and…and honestly I never wanted to hang around and talk after. Not like I do with you." He had trailed off quietly at the end, While he slowly ran his fingers down my bare back.

"Whose idea was it? I mean for you to do this, if you don't mind me asking." I found myself saying.

He seemed to release a heavy sigh and raked his hand through his hair before responding. All the while continuing his soft stokes up and down my back. "I…well it wasn't me, if that's what you think." He chuckled again "Tanya, my uh…girlfriend and I have been on and off for more years then I care remember right now. She always talks about something more…um like getting married."

His fingers were now tracing small circles across my lower back causing a wetness to pool between my thighs as they would slide down my ass gently and back up again.

"I don't see it, not with her anyway. I think she thought that this sort of thing would make me want to be with her in that way." He whispered as his lips caressed my shoulder.

"How? That makes no sense. How would sharing you with…ah um other women make you want to marry?" I would never share this man, fuck that! He is sexy, gorgeous, a freaking god in the sack and a doctor to boot.

"I won't lie Bella, I've been with my fair share of women. She knows that. She also knows that I like to be…active, I guess you could say. So I guess she thinks that if I liked this sort of thing and get to experience other women while still with her, why wouldn't I want to marry her? Don't get me wrong though, I've never been unfaithful to anyone if I'm with you, then I am with you. I think she just assumes that I won't take that leap because I want a variety but that's not why."

"Her logic is just so wrong, Edward. I mean If I was supposed to love someone I would never share him." I was so glad that my head was turned toward the opposite wall and he couldn't see my face. I was so embarrassed when I realized what I had just insinuated about my own marriage.

"Exactly, which is how I know that she is not the one." My heart raced at his words remembering a time when they meant something to me too. I was also happy that he hadn't questioned me on my comment. "Not that I didn't already know it." He added almost as an after thought.

"What about you Bella? How did you end up here?"

"Honestly, I don't really know. It happened pretty quickly, Aro is a business associate of Mike's and thought he'd like this….scene. So he gave him an invite last week, he asked me, I said yes. Simple as that." It was quiet for a moment before I spoke again. "Like Tanya, I think he is hoping to fix a few problems with this whole thing.

"So, you've never done this before?"

"God no." I was quick to respond. "This is all new to me…I almost walked away before you opened the damn door on me." I laughed.

"Mmm…I am so glad that you didn't." He murmured just as I felt his fingers slide over my ass and slip down between my legs. He gently rubbed his fingers along my folds before sliding one inside of me.

"Edward mmm…god Edward." I moaned as he slid a second finger in me and I immediately felt my inner walls surrounding his fingers tighten. Fuck, how does he do this, already he owns my body.

It was suddenly killing me to think I will never feel his body against mine again after tonight, I will never see him again. I will never see him again! My mind was shrieking at me.

He flipped me over settling himself over me and between my legs. His eyes never left mine as he entered me again, I'd never felt this wonderful before. The spark between us was so strong, my body was on fire at his touch. When we connected this time, it was more intimate. Soft and sensual as opposed to the frenzied, almost animalistic sex from earlier.

He dropped his head to my neck and whispered 'Fuck, Bella. Your so wet and tight.' He never increased the pace just kept it calm and slow, yet we both still fell over the edge together moments later. He raised his head and ran his fingers across my cheek.

"Your beautiful, both inside and out. You know that right?"

I smiled and nodded as he gently removed himself from me, rolling to his side and pulling me with him. I must have nodded off in his arms as I woke to him gently stroking my arm and calling my name.

"Bella, Bella honey. You've got to get up, it's almost five and I don't want to see how they remove their guests that are not gone on time." He said laughing as he spoke.

"Shit, I can't believe I fell asleep." I mumbled rubbing my eyes with the balls of my hands.

"It wasn't for long, it was after three when you fell asleep." He answered swiftly swatting my ass as I rose from the bed. It felt so casual, so normal like we hadn't been complete strangers before last night.

We both dressed as quickly as possible but I didn't miss Edward as he seemed to watch every move I made from stepping into my panties, putting my bra back on and then sliding my thigh high stockings back up my legs as I sat on the edge of the bed.

I heard a guttural groan escape his lips as he slowly stood from the chair in the corner. He stalked towards me and pulled me from the bed, our lips met and everything else faded. It was just him and I, no Tanya, no Mike, no swingers party.

His lips left mine and we both groaned at the loss. "I don't want this evening to end." He panted still trying to catch his breath from the kiss we shared. I pulled away not sure what to say and reached for my dress.

"Let me help you with that, beautiful." I stepped into my dress and he slid it over my hips, caressing my body as he went gently pulling the zipper up the side of my dress. "This dress is exquisite on you."

"Thank you." Was all I could manage.

"Well, I guess it's time." He said.

"Yes, I almost feel like I'm about to do my walk of shame." A nervous laugh escaped my lips. He followed suit and laughed as well. Then leaned down to kiss my temple.

"You ready?" He asked.

"Oh, um no, you go ahead I'll follow in a minute." I blushed and I swear he knew that I just didn't want to leave the room with him. He probably assumed it was from embarrassment but really I just don't think I could face both him and Mike if we ran into him on the way out.

"Um, ok. I, well I guess I'll just go now." I could tell he was reluctant to go, and I quite honestly was as well. He embraced me one last time, picked up his suit jacket and walked out the door. There was no see you later, no good bye. Nothing.

I was literally weak in the knees and if I hadn't been standing so close to the dresser I know I would have hit the floor, I leaned over clutching the edge of said dresser. I couldn't understand the sense of loss I felt at his leaving. Yes, we had had some sort of surreal connection, there was a spark, one like I had never felt in my life. It brought Alice back to mind, and I had to wonder 'Is this what she meant, how she felt when she had met her husband, THE ONE'

I was surprised by the sudden appearance of silent tears as they ran down my face. I straightened my back, stood tall, cleared the tears from my eyes and left the room. Leaving everything, the connection, the feelings, the incredible sex, and him…

As I stepped off the final stair I caught sight of Edward as the front door was closing behind him. His hand had been placed at the base of HER back guiding her, I couldn't stop the shudder my body released at the affectionate gesture.

I entered the room that we had started out in last night and spotted Mike sitting in a chair on his own with an aggravated look.

"Well, I guess you enjoyed yourself, Bella." I knew I was not imagining the edge to his voice. "I've been waiting here for over four fucking hours!" He bit out through clenched teeth.

"Don't give me that shit, Mike. This was your idea." I tried to quickly think of something to appease him for now, I really didn't want to argue. "If you must know, embarrassingly enough I fell asleep after."

That seemed to do the trick a little as he let a small smile escape his lips. "That's typical Bella behaviour, I guess I shouldn't be surprised." I laughed at his comment, but I know it never reached my eyes as the only image I saw when I thought of sleeping was being in Edwards arms.

The next couple of weeks flew by, it was the fastest time had passed in I don't know how long. Mike had brought up a few times if I would be interested in going to next months party and was still not happy or accepting of the fact that I said no. I just couldn't imagine being with someone else. I have no idea how I managed the first time, but I am glad I did or I never would have met Edward. After having him though, I couldn't be with anyone else. Christ I still couldn't bring myself to even consider being with Mike, my own husband.

I knew Mike could see the change in me, and kept asking if everything was ok.

"I'm worried about you Bella, it's been a long time since you have had that…sad look on your face. Please tell me what's wrong?"

"Mike, I'm fine really. I swear."

"I wouldn't be able to stand watching you disappear within yourself again." He whispered.

"Jesus Mike. I'm not, I have a lot going on. I am stuck in the middle of my book and can't seem to move forward with it and it doesn't help that you keep asking me to go fuck other men with you." I was angry now, how dare he bring up a time in my life that I work hard at putting behind me.

"Your right, I'm sorry. I didn't realize that it bothered you so much. I won't ask again." He stated then kissed my forehead and left for work. It was in that moment when I heard the door close behind my husband…I knew that it was time for a change, a big change. It was time that I reclaimed my life…

A/N: So what do you think…is it a story worth pursuing? Just in case some need reminding, it is an Edward/Bella story, not Mike/Bella. If I continue the next chapter will begin to shed more light on that!

Thanks ~Jacquie ETN