A/N: I know I posted Chapter 1 before the prologue… Morgana just didn't seem as desperate as I wanted her to seem. It seems like the writer's on the show seem to have the same problem. She keeps getting worse, but nothing ever changes. Anyways, here it is….
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She wakes up screaming, alone every night: terrified and alone, even when she's not. It doesn't matter whose there with her, the isolation after the dreams is chilling.
They are long past the point of Gwen staying in the castle; it changes nothing. The only thing it accomplishes is neither of them getting much rest. Gwen still tries, every evening. She can see what the strain is doing to Morgana. However, she gives in every night.
She knows that Morgana's nerves are on edge and she snaps at everyone as of late. It's not that Gwen minds Morgana's temper, but she hates to see the guilt wash over Morgana afterwards. She cannot bear to see her begging for her forgiveness, especially when she is done so much better than most would in her situation.
Morgana's nights are spent wide-eyed and trembling, while her days go by in a sleepy haze. She is neither awake nor asleep. Morgana has reached her breaking point and she wonders why sanity has not left her yet. The cruel irony of her life is not missed upon her. Uther will soon realize her troubles and a sleepless induced insanity will not aid her. She is as sound of mind as ever.
That is why during the day she stays focused. She focuses on her breathing, making sure each exchange of air is even. She focuses on her body, reminding herself not to jump every time the word magic is uttered. She focuses on the details, making sure that she appeared normal to all around her. She cannot afford to lose that focus.
The nightmares are worse now. They leave her terrified and breathless. When she wakes up, she no longer realizes what is reality and what are the residual effects of her dreams. Night Terrors Gaius has begun to call them. The new name doesn't change the fact that he has no solution, no solution and no hope. This is the fate that has befallen her and unless something changes, those around her fear Morgana might do something desperate.