A/N I do not own miraculous ladybug, i own nothing of this story besides the plot. All characters do not belong to me.

Marinette looked longingly out her window and imagined Paris as it once was, beautiful and safe but the picture of the wreckage before her quelled any mental picture she could conjure.

She thought back to a time before, a time when she and Chat Noir could protect their beloved city and repair any damages Hawk Moth created... before her lady bugs had stopped working. She didn't know why or how and Master Fu couldn't seem to figure it out either but Hawk Moth took full advantage.

Tears pricker her eyes as she thought about all that had happened the past year. Paris had been isolated by the rest of the country who feared Hawk Moths wrath, a large wall had been build around it with only one road leading in. None of the residents were allowed to leave and the only people allowed to enter were nutural parties dropping off supplies. Those were few and far between.

Even the City had been divided into camps. One side was for soldiers of Hawk Moth, he didn't even need akuma to get followers anymore he just promised them safety and powers and they went running toward the opportunity like moths to a flame... how fitting.

The other camp was the one Marinette was on, the resistance. The people who stood for good instead of evil and power, who refused to follow Gabriel Agreste. It still seemed surreal that Adrian's dad had been the one to cause so much pain, Adrian had been the one to take that blow the harshest. He was possibly one of the bravest people in the whole resistance to not only fight against evil, but to fight against his own parent.

Marinette missed her parents so much, she would never stop. Their deaths were two of the first to happen after the lady bugs had stopped repairing damage. They weren't even doing anything wrong just walking down the street... then they got in the way of a young girl and a bus that had been thrown. The girl lived, thanks to them... but they would never see the light of day again.

Tears fell onto the windowsill as Marinette thought about them, they were so brave and caring and now the light that use to be them had been snuffed out, just like that.

She was just grateful that she had her friends still, they all lived together now since they were all each other had. Alya and Nino had gotten their Miraculous permanently since the war had started... that's what this was, a war. No point sugar coating that fact.

Adrian was the only one who didn't know about them, although only Alya knew the true identity of Ladybug. It was good though, he never seemed to ask any questions and always seemed busy whenever they were so it worked out well so far.

They all fought in their own ways, Carapace and Rena Rouge were always on the front lines beside Lady Bug and Chat Noir but Marinette and Alya also volunteered at the hospital, too many people were injured and there was never enough staff to take care of them.

Most jobs were voluntary now, everybody who did there bit to take care of others got taken care of right back. For example Marinette and Alya had saved their landlords life when he was in the hospital, so he offered them a 3 bedroom apartment in exchange for them helping him with this health and checking up on him when needed.

In times of tragedy everyone comes together she supposed.

Life wasn't exactly good... but it could be worse. She had people she cared about, she was living with her two best friends and the love of her life even if he didn't realise it yet and they were slowly getting closer to defeating Hawkmoth.

With every "Soldier" they took down they got a step further through his defences. The strategy was always the same. Destroy, rest, rinse, repeat. Somethings there were casualties but that's what happened in war and Marinette was numb to it at this point.

She looked at the clock, it was 12:01am

Well, happy 17th birthday to me.

She turned off her light and hopped into bed knowing that nightmares would plague her. She rarely slept anymore, and the sleep insomnia carved itself into her face. She was tired but she would keep fighting for a better world.

Who knew what the world would turn into if the most evil man in Paris could make a wish.

Marinette would die before she let that happen and with the dangers surrounding her every day life... she just might.

She fell asleep picturing what the world would be like if they won, a world where she could marry Adrian and have children without fear of death or destruction. A world where Alya and Nino could finally get married like they had planned when this first started.

A world without "safe camps" and "hideouts" and "danger zones" and death. She just wanted a normal life, normalcy was severely underrated.

She could hear Tiki snoring on the pillow beside her, her precious kwami. She knew this was hard on her too. Especially since Master Fu had gone into hiding, only contacting them in the most dire circumstances. She wishes he didn't but since giving his miraculous to Nino for the protection of Paris she knew he was safer this way.

Everything was a mess and Ladybug didn't know how to clean it up anymore. She wished she could but some evils just couldn't be undone.

And their enemy was the most evil of all.

Marinette was woken by the sound of Alya banging frantically on her door shouting.

"Marinette! We are needed at hospital now! Quick!"

"Coming".

The bluenette quickly hoped off her bed and got dressed before running out of her room to see Alya waiting for her.

"What's wrong?".

"Ill explain on the way, lets go".

As the two girls ran to the car Marinette had a worried feeling in her stomach, a feeling she was quickly getting use to.

"One of Hawk Moths "soldiers" attacked a set an entire complex on fire. The hospital is over run with burn victims". Alya spat the word "soldiers" like it was a dirty word. The young girl was clearly already thinking about how best to retaliate to the situation.

"How many casualties?".

"Just two from what I've been told but there could be more".

Marinette said a silent prayer for whoever had passed. She didn't know if anyone could hear her prayer but she had to keep hoping that whoever died went to a better place. Especially with so many dying lately.

The smell of burned flesh hit her nostrils as soon as she entered the hospital. She felt like she was going to throw up, how could Hawk Moth be so cruel? How could he do this? How could anyone?

"Lets get to work, then tomorrow we get to the better work". Alya spoke and Marinette knew she had a plan to get back at whatever soldier had done this. She just nodded at her friend and made herself busy to distract herself from the smell.

Five hours later she had worked herself into a routine of checking on patients, changing their wrappings and administering painkillers. Most of them were unconscious but a few had drifted in and out. She was about to check in on her next patient when she heard the someone screaming. The sound was inhuman and gravely but also unmistakable, it was the scream of someone who just found out a loved one had died.

Marinette was dead on her feet but still found the energy to run into the room that the broken screams had came from. A young girl not much older then herself was sitting on the bed with tears pouring down her face.

"Hey, it'll be okay talk to me. No stop trying to remove your bandages, you will hurt yourself". Alya spoke in a soothing voice.

"I got this one, it's alright" Marinette said to her friend, patients rarely calmed down for the person who gave them the news and Alya always seemed to find these situations hard.

The red haired girl nodded toward the bluenette before walking out and going to tend to more of the wounded.

"Hey, my name is Marinette whats your name?". She tried to make her voice soft and soothing.

"My husband... my husband is dead... my future, my love" the young girl wailed and Marinette sat down in the chair beside the bed. She would let the young girl cry it out and then try to console her.

Half an hour had passed before the girls screams turned into broken sobs. Marinette jumped when she spoke.

"Have you ever lost the person you love the most... the one who you would live or die for... who you want to spend your future with?".

Marinettes mind flickered to images of a man with blond hair and green eyes. Adrian, the man she had loved for years and who didn't even know how she felt.

"No, I haven't, but I've lost friends and family". She tried to sound calm but how could she even imagine what this girl was going through? How could she even try?

"But not your soul mate? I hope you don't... I hope nobody else ever has to feel this way. My heart feels like it has been ripped from my chest and my soul has been ripped in half. I wish I died with him. That would be better then this".

Marinette didn't know what to say so she said nothing, instead she sat silently contemplating the heartbroken words from a girl she never knew.

She died later that night, the doctor said it must have been a mixture of the burns, shock and smoke inhalation. Marinette believed it was from giving up completely. Her body didn't want to live any more so it stopped.

"Perhaps a broken heart can kill after all". She said sadly for nobody to hear but herself.