Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation. The wonderful Murakami-sama does! I do own Sam Alexson, Ty Ikari, and Caleb Davis.
The lyrics are written by POD (Payable on Death). The song is "Goodbye for Now" from their latest record "Testify".
Warning Utter cliché plot but with a new twist. Yaoi, language, and sometimes short chapters.
Summary: Yet another Shuichi runs away fic. Utterly cliché except for the original characters that hook Shuichi and Eiri back up in a very interesting, original, and creative way.
Author's Note: Not beta-ed. My beta reader had to quit so I'm looking for a new one.
Goodbye For Now
Chapter Zero: Departure
Once again, things were going bad for Shindou Shuichi. It was his first day off in a long time and Eiri was ignoring him. Again. This annoyed the singer to no end. 'Why does he always lock himself in that office?' Shuichi thought as he pouted on the couch. 'His deadline isn't for another seven months! Why can't he take a break when I actually have a day off.'
He trudged over to his own laptop (the one he bought after Eiri got mad when he used the writer's) and logged onto his email. Smiling, Shuichi clicked on a continuing thread of emails between him and his online friend Trey, who was trying to help Shuichi sort out his feelings for one Yuki Eiri.
To: "Shu" badluck1 "Trey" a'trey'u what you've told me, your boy friend is a cold-hearted bastard of a recluse. You definitely should break up with him. He ignores you all the time, even when you have a day of, and never says that he loves you. That's crazy considering you two have been living together for two years
Heck, I care about my neighbor just as much as the next guy and I might show that indirectly. But that doesn't mean I love them. You definitely need to move out. Move to another part of town. Heck! Move out of the city! The country! To America if you have to. He's using you as a toy.
Good luck with all of this. Keep me posted.
Trey
Shuichi sat thinking about what Try had said. 'Maybe Yuki is using me… Maybe I should leave.' He sat there for a long while pondering the situation. Eventually he came to a conclusion. He didn't want to be used and definitely couldn't ask Eiri if that was the case. The only thing to do would be to leave.
Quickly turning back to his computer, Shuichi hastily typed a reply to Trey.
To: "Trey" a'trey'u "Shu" badluck1 right. I'm going to leave. I'm actually buying a plane ticket to America right now.
Thanks for the help. I'll keep you posted.
Shu
When that was finished and sent, Shuichi bought airline tickets under one of his aliases. He had two, one provided by K and the other provided by an old friend. The second was the one he was using. No one at NG studio knew about it, not even Hiro. Shuichi had figured that he might need one someday and now the time had come.
After packing up all of his stuff, Shuichi wrote two letters, one to Eiri and the other to Hiro and Suguru. He planned on putting them in the mail when he left. Then they would be received the next day. That was just enough time for Shuichi to get out of the country.
He knocked on Eiri's office door. "I'm going to Hiro's." he called. Silence. That wasn't unusual but it still hurt Shuichi. 'Oh well, all the more reason for me to leave. He won't care.' Shuichi thought as he grabbed his bags and carried them down to the taxi he had called earlier.
Hours later, Shuichi sat in a hotel in Boston, Massachusetts. He figured that this would be the last place anyone would look for him. Standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom, the singer fingered his newly dyed hair. A cranberry red headed Shindou Shuichi stared back at him.
Meanwhile, a whole continent and an ocean away, Yuki Eiri was getting his mail and wondering where Shuichi was. An envelope addressed in Shuichi's messy kanji. Puzzled, Eiri opened it.
Yuki,
I'm gone. Don't bother looking for me because you won't find me.
Shuichi
Tears welled up in the writer's golden eyes as he turned to the second page. It was a song, obviously written by Shuichi.
I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel shine,
Through the dark times even when I lose my mind.
But it feels like no one in the world is listenin',
And I can't ever seem to make the right decisions.
I walk around in the same haze, I'm still caught in my same ways.
I'm losing time in these strange days,
But somehow I always know the right things to say.
I don't know what time it is,
Or who's the one to blame for this.
Do I believe what I can't see?
And how do you know which way the wind blows?
Cause I can feel it all around,
I'm lost between the sound.
And just when I think I know, there she goes.
Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
I'm still smiling as the day goes by,
And how come nobody ever knows the reasons why?
Bury it deep, so far that you can't see.
If your like me, who wears a broken heart on your sleeve,
Pains and struggles that you know so well,
Either time don't, it can't, or it just won't tell.
I'm not the type to say I told you so,
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
I don't know what time it is,
Or who's the one to blame for this.
Do I believe what I can't see?
And how do you know which way the wind blows?
Cause I can feel it all around,
I'm lost between the sound.
And just when I think I know, there she goes.
Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
And you can sing until there's no song left (song left)
And I can scream until the world goes deaf (goes deaf)
For every other word left unsaid,
You should've took the time to read the signs
And see what it meant (what it meant)
In some ways everybody feels alone,
So if the burden is mine then I can carry my own (carry my own)
If joy really comes in the morning time,
then I'm gonna sit back and wait until the next sunrise.
Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
Tears flew freely down his face as he read the lyrics. 'I really fucked this up.' Eiri thought sadly, 'I should have paid attention to him…'