If could have anything in the world,
I would fade into the blackness.
Do you know what it's like?
To be used by people
Every
Single
Day?
Do you know how bad it hurts
To be left behind
By your friends
Because they know you'll pick up their slack?
I know.
I know so much
But live so little.
"Logan!"
They all call to me
Desperate for my help.
Do they even stop to think
That maybe I'm struggling?
Putting on my brave face
Making up the answer
When all I'm known for is knowledge
I'm stuck in the spotlight
When I don't know the subject.
Does anyone ever think
That perfect little Logan
Doesn't want to help them anymore?
Nobody leaves me alone
They want to know
What I know
Without spending the hours
Weeks
Months
Reading and learning
Yearning for teacher's approval
They don't appreciate me
No one else could even fathom
How deeply this all hurts me.
Kendall
James
Carlos
They all laugh
"Nerd!"
"Dweeb!"
"Loser!"
Words cut like knives in my back
If could have anything in the world,
I would fade into the blackness.