Back and fourth pacing, she had been at this for the past twenty minutes. The decision had eaten at her brain for the past few days, should she go out of her way just to torture herself? Was it really worth it just to stare and see if only for a second to how the life she once knew progressed without her, was she forgotten already? Still mourned for?
The tapping of her footsteps on the rooftop being the only sound for miles aside from the occasional cars down below. She tried to focus, considering the pros and cons. Going back would just be opening old wounds, but it needed had to be done just as it had happened done every other time. It was like a much-needed cleansing to clean out all the filth that accumulated over time, the regret? No she did not have any regret about the choices she made here, did she?
Finally stopping and glancing out into the night sky she made up her mind. She would go, after all it had been two years since she had last seen anything out of her old life. It would do her good, perhaps she wouldn't find it so hard to smile everyday. It was beginning to become such a hassle to pull the her lips into one, they seemed to just sag at the sides all day, especially when she was alone. Taking one last glance at the sky she made haste leaving the rooftop for one a few blocks away.
"Hey Suki, have you seen my boomerang?" Sokka had searched all day through their dingy little apartment. It wasn't much but it was theirs. A little place to call home where their love could blossom and one day lead to the family both of them longed for. It may have been cramp with only one bedroom and on the not so great side of town it, but it was theirs and it was all they needed, besides each other that is.
"Why are you so obsessed with that thing Sokka?" Suki sighed, annoyed that he cared more about his stupid old boomerang that he did about her new dress. "Sometimes I think you love that stupid thing more than you love me." She said with a pout.
Sokka shot her an annoyed glance before responding. "Well if it cooked dinner I probably would." He had to hide the smirk on his face and ignore the pillow she tossed at his head, but it was worth it.
"Ha ha." Clearly she was not amused a deep frown and wrinkles setting on her forehead.
Giving up on his search for a minute he was quick on his feet taking a seat next to her on the couch. "I was only teasing. It's just you know how important it is to me, it's a family heirloom and after everything that's happened these past few years it's nice to have a something to keep old memories alive." Any signs of the smirk he had earlier was completely gone. A sad look on his face, unwanted thoughts beginning to go through his head.
Sensing the change in his mood Suki took his face in her hands. "I think I saw it under the bed earlier." Her voice was gentle and caring, holding nothing but love and passion for him. He quickly dove off the couch and headed for the bedroom but not before doing a complete 360 halfway to plant a kiss on her cheek. Suki smiled, she couldn't bear to see him upset. It had been a rough few years for him and he was just beginning to move on. She would do whatever he needed her for, for that's what it meant to love someone.
She was swinging her legs against the side of the rooftop, it had taken her twenty minutes to get here. All She could was stare from afar, a glimpse into the life she once lived. If anyone saw her it would look like she was stalking them, but is it really stalking if it's you're brother and his girlfriend? She threw the though away as it really didn't matter. He seemed happy, that was all that mattered. Her biggest concern before everything happened was how her brother would take it. She didn't want to hurt him, she wanted to leave off good as she knew what was to come might kill him and take away that smile and corny humour she loved about him.
As Sokka left the room she began to stare at Suki. She was grateful for her once best friend. Suki had been there for him to help him pick up the pieces. She held him together through it all and she would always be grateful to Suki for that reason.
She sighed getting up, not really sure how to feel. Was she expecting something more? Maybe she secretly hoped they would see her and invite her inside and act like nothing happened as they sat down and drank tea over stories. Yea right maybe if she wished hard enough things would go her way. A dark feeling begin to wash over her.
Had she made the right choice? She wished she had another option where she could have kept both aspects of her life. She didn't though. She had made her decision a long time ago, she chose love.
She chose him over everything else. Her family, her friends, everything she ever knew she gave up, all for one person. She loved him though, she needed him, craved him, her blood would boil when her wasn't around. It was destiny he said. Destiny had made her decision for her and sometimes she felt cheated. Maybe things could have been different, maybe in another life she could have been happy with her friends and family, she could have gotten married, had children, a nice house with a dog and a picket fence. Ha who was she kidding, she would never have those things. The only thing she had left was love and she would have it til the end of time.
"I thought I'd find you here."
His voice pulled her out of her thoughts and brought her back to the rooftop, back to everything She shot him a surprised look before hiding her face in shame. She felt weak for coming back and now he knew making it worse.
"You have no reason to feel ashamed about this. It's completely normal to feel these things." He took a step closer to her trying to bridge the gap that had begun to form over the past week. He knew he well, he could sense her feelings and she hated that. She was an open book to him and he was still a mystery to her. He had so much complexity to him that it would take her lifetimes to fully understand, luckily she had that time.
"I am not ashamed." She said with a little more malice then she intended before taking a step back. He took two steps this time. "I know when you're lying tara, I know it's not easy for you, you're still adjusting." Adjusting was and understatement. Their was so much to this life that sometimes it was just plain overwhelming. "I'm not mad, it's just best for you not to dwell on these things." He took another step closer. "I know but I just needed something...I needed to understand. To see how your life goes on without you." She took a step closer, tears beginning to form in her eyes.
He took another step before pulling her against his chest, her tears now falling freely. "I know that you still hold your old life, but you have a new one with me now. You have to learn to move on and let go. I'll always be here for you, I love you. You know that. I hate to say this but that's not your life anymore." His words were harsh but she knew they were true, he only said them because he cared for her. Taking her face in his hands he looked into her eyes, a piercing blue that always seemed to hold so much innocence for someone her age. He kissed her. before wiping the tears out of her eyes. They stood there for a few minutes just listening to the silence holding each other.
She looked into his eyes this time and gave a soft smile. He picked her up and sat down on the ledge before placing her in his lap. He started nudging his nose in the crevice of her neck. She couldn't help but let out a small whimper as he did so. It had been so long and she was still so sensitive in that spot, that spot where he claimed as his property forever, those tiny marks of scar tissue. Noticing her whimper he let out a small chuckle before running the tip of his tongue over the marks. This time she moaned. As he went in for a kiss she pulled away. "This isn't the time nor the place. Keep in your pants Zuko." He let out a low growl for she stood up. Following her lead he stood up and grabbed her from behind. He lowered his head to her ear before letting out a small whisper.
"You don't have any regrets do you?"
She stiffened. He took a step back feeling her tense up at his question.
"I did give you a choice." That last part was barely audible but she would be stupid to miss the hurt in his voice
She quickly turned around before pulling his face into her hands, his eyes had a sad look, almost scared.
"Zuko don't you ever think I regret being with you. It was my choice and I made it of my own free will."
Destiny be damned, The choice was hers to make no one elses! She would soon learn however, that destiny was funny thing.
Well there's my Zutara Vampire fic, there isn't a lot of them so I figured I'd give it a try. I'm not the best writer so be gentle. I don't really think I'll continue this unless people like it. It's been in my head for about a year but I'm uncomfortable with people reading my stuff. So I hope you guys like it. If it gets a few readers I'll continue with longer chapters and add a little more meat to it. Bear with me also my keyboard is a piece of crap so it anything is missing a letter it's spellcheck fault. Anyway read and review.