Chapter 1: Fixation

~*Edward's POV*~

Depression. Anger. Loneliness. Three emotions I am overwhelmingly familiar with. It never helps when your entire family has met their soul mate, and you are left to ponder endlessly about the day you will meet yours.

The walls of my room seemed to be closing in on me. I have to get out, I thought to myself. I was out of the glass wall and half a mile away from my home in less than half a minute. I looked back at the dark rooms of the mansion, and I turned and kept running.

I knew I could have anyone I wanted, but I didn't want just anyone. She would have to catch my eye, be my one and only, forever. I couldn't do that though. I could never make another soul be tempted to join me in eternal damnation. I just wouldn't.

The sun began to rise and I knew I would have to return to that wretched school once again. I began to go back home, not realizing I was almost in Port Angeles, I would have been late if Alice hadn't known where I was. She drove up beside me in my Silver Volvo, and I could tell she was smiling through the tinted windows. I climbed in, and just had time to close the door as she sped off in the direction of our home.

It was a relatively short drive, and a quiet one, for a short time. She was thinking about why I was out there, so I answered her thoughts, as usual.

"I was thinking." I said with a hint of annoyance, so she would not push the subject. Which was pointless, I mean, it IS Alice we are talking about.

"About? Jasper can feel you are lonely, and guess what? There's a new girl coming to school today! Maybe you'll like her!" She said with an all too wide smile on her face. Apparently, I do like her, even though I haven't even met her.

"Alice. I am not going to sentence someone to our fate. Not unless Carlisle declares she's dying." I said with even more annoyance now. I was getting aggravated. I wanted to leave this subject.

"Aww, Come on Edward! You'll like her. Trust me." Never bet against Alice crossed my mind as we pulled into our drive way. Finally. I thought as I sped out of the car and up the stairs to change. Alice had laid out khaki pants with an Oxford style, button up, navy blue shirt. I rolled my eyes, but I hadn't the time to change into anything else.

We arrived at school just in time. We took Rosalie's convertible and Emmett's jeep. I ran to my first subject, and I waited to meet the new girl at lunch, and Biology, Alice had told me. Great, I thought. More temptation to deal with.

School had gone by all too fast, and now it's Lunch time. I walked in following Rose and Emmett, and Alice and Jasper. I heard Jessica talking to the new girl, and when I tried to read the new girl, Bella, I couldn't. My head spun. Whats wrong with me? I can read everyone else, why not her?! I walked past them as Jessica nonchalantly mentioned the time I turned her down. I couldn't help but to smile. Bella shot a glance at me, and for the first time in all my years, I saw disgust cross her face as she looked at me. I walked to the table. This day is going to suck.

A/N: Okay, this is my first FanFic, and my first chapter. Please review, When I get 10 reviews I will post another chapter. I Hope I did well. I will do better. The next one will be more exciting. (: