Me: Yeah. I'm working on my stories. I'm sorry I keep making new ones, but when I get idea's I like to write the beginning of a story, to see how much you like it. So please tell me how good or bad this is.
This may never start.
We could fall apart.
"Please?" She begged me.
"Fine. Go." I gave in.
"Thanks." She smiled.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
I hate it when she come's for that!
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
All I can think about is her, her scent, her voice...
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
I've fallen in love! With her!
This may never start.
I'll tear us apart.
Can I be your enemy?
Being a jerk has caused many things. She thinks I'm mean. It hurts when she says she hates me.
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything.
I've been waiting for 2 years now. For them to break up!
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
I just hope one day she'll return my feelings.
This may never start.
Tearing out my heart.
I watched her from the caf 'e window, she had just come to ask for a day off; To go with her boyfriend. Why didn't this pain, just go away? Why did it hurt to see her with him?
I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
(I'd be your memory)
Feelings disappear.
I've told myself no so many times. Sometimes my feelings for her disappear, and become anger, causing me to be a jerk. Plus I enjoy picking on her.
I'm too scared to love. I'm afraid I'll lose her.
Can I be your memory?
I want her to know me, I want her to be mine. I want her to go with Me. Not Him. I want the memory of her first kiss... Oh wait, I kiss her before...
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
We always fight we always argue. But at times we laugh it off.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
I remember when I fell for you. I've never felt this way in my life. I fell for you when I first saw her... after that, she was all I could see!
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
Every time I see her it's harder to keep calm. I wish she would feel the same for me.
This may never start.
We could fall apart
Fight, fight, fight, while her and his relationship gets stronger, I just will never get the chance will I?
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
I sick of being afraid of love. I'm sick of only thinking one day, I'll just be a distant memory, will she even remember me at all if she moved away?
Can I be your memory?
Can I be your memory?
I don't just want to be her memory. I want to live my life creating memories with her.
Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
I asked Shirogane for a day off. This might be the last date with Masaya I'd have. He was getting distant. And I think he's cheating on me.
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again
I don't feel anything when I'm with him anymore.
Cause I fear I might break
and I fear I can't take it
Tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty
I can't take the pressure of thinking he's cheating the pressure of making myself love him. I don't want to make myself empty of emotion.
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
As we rounded the corner to the movie's I knew after, I'd break it off.
We're better off without you
How could I be so blind? Him cheating on me! Moe told me. I should've listened to her.
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I'm breaking up with him in a hour. I thought to myself repeatedly, I'm breaking up with the boyfriend I've had for 2 years now.
Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
There's no hope in reviving this relationship, there's no love, and apparently no trust. I thought to myself during the movie.
For all of the days that we spent
Carried away from home
I've ditched my friend for you, I got off early from work repeatedly, I missed important phone calls because of you! I started getting mad.
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm not actually sure if he's cheating. I'm not sure if I want to know!
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty
Even though I'm in a movie theater with alot of other people, I still feel alone, I still don't feel the same love I felt 2 years ago. Maybe it was the Mew aqua that attracted me, not the person.
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
The movie's ending in 15 minutes. And I'm stilling thinking of the words to say, to end my first love's relationship.
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
10 minutes. I'm almost there, I almost know what to say. I'll be so much better off without you.
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
5 minutes... I know what to say. I know...
My social life is better without you, have you ever met Mini or Moe?! I thought.
Without you
And now it's time.
"Masaya..." I said slowly.
"Yes?" He smiled. It looked forced.
"I think we should break up. I just don't feel the love anymore, it's been like that for awhile." I said.
"I ... uhh..!" He tried to say.
"I don't want to hear it." I shouted putting my hands over my ears, I knew he'd say he was cheating on me.
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I didn't want to know, I figure if he's happy there's no harm right? Right?
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
"Well. Then.. I guess this is goodbye too, I'm moving.." He said walking away. "I found someone." He mumbled. I could hear it from heightened hearing.
I didn't want to know where, I really didn't care. I didn't want to know who. Because I don't care anymore.
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty
I sat on the sidewalk's empty curve. It was finally over. And yet, I still felt empty.
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
The pressure of the night was lifted.
And minutes after I realized that, I didn't have to worry anymore.
Feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
You're better off without me
He could do so much more, He could be free of my weirdness. He's way better off without me.
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And before I knew it, I was actually glad. Because, even though I thought I felt empty.. I felt my heart quickening when he walked past me on the sidewalk. And our eyes met...
"What are you doing out so late baka?" Shirogane asked.
"Ah nothing, GUESS WHAT!" I said hyperly.
"What?" He asked.
"I broke up with Masaya!" I smiled.
"And you're happy?!" He fell over.
"Mm hmm!" I grinned.
And he looked at a clock above my head.
"Baka." He said flicking my forehead and pointing up.
"Oww! What was that for!" I looked at the clock. And it was passed curfew.
"Oh crap!!!! My mom is going to kill me!" I whined.
"Pay attention to time next time dummy." Shirogane smirked.
"Yeah." I laughed.
"Come on." He said pulling me.
His touch sent lightning through my arm.
"Ah, uh, huh?!" I managed to say.
"I'm walking you home hurry up." He said dropping my arm.
"Ok!" I answered.
"Are you sick? You face is red." He smirked.
"Ah!" I cried.
And just then I knew, something was going to be different, just alittle different around the caf 'e...
Me: How'd you like it? 5+ reviews please! Thank you for reading the first chapter.
Song Names
Ryou's: Memory- by Sugarcolt.
Ichigo's: Pressure- by Paramore.