Yeah. Genetic dead end. That's me. Wow, am I glad Seth phased human, its bad enough that I know Jacob can hear this, thankfully he is pretending he can't, don't know what I would do if anyone really paid attention to this…..

Leah Clearwater, only known female werewolf – and what's the point of THAT? Thrown into a pack with the man I love, and getting to watch him love someone else, like that isn't bad enough, no. Let's cap it off with knowing that unlike the rest of them I'LL never imprint, because I'll never continue the line. Oh Sam will, he and Emily will have scores of little werewolf babies, and continue on adoring each other…..well, at least Jake broke away and gave me a chance not to have to face it ALL the time, even though I know its there…

"Hey, Leah, stop shouting, it's impossible to ignore"

"Damn Jake, can't you phase or something? Leave me in peace?"

"Can't YOU Leah? I have work to do."

"Can't you just get out of my head?"

"You wouldn't believe how much I wish I could."

You would think Jacob would really GET it, running around for vampires that I am certain he likes little more than I do, trying to protect someone who really doesn't care enough to return his feeling…

"Leah, get lost, what do you know."

"You know how much I understand the unrequited love thing; I'm just not a sucker like you."

"No, you just make everyone else as miserable as you are, thanks Leah."

"No problem, any time."

"Seriously Leah, phase and give me a break."

"Is that an ORDER oh high Alpha wolf?"

"You know its not Leah, but I am begging for some peace."

Ok, so I phase back, much easier to be miserable on my own, it's true. I just want to kick Jacob for doing this to himself, I left as soon as there was any possibility of it, and he hangs around by CHOICE. Idiot. Though truthfully, I understand. Maybe if Sam was dying, who knows, maybe I would be that much of a glutton for punishment. I picture Bella again, or what I have seen of her through Jacob's eyes recently. Bloated, bruised, and dying to keep something that by rights should be destroyed….no leaving Sam's pack had absolutely nothing to do with his opinions. We always thought alike, he and I, we were so perfect together….not as perfect as him and Emily though. I guess I am a glutton, actually; bridesmaid, what was I thinking? Oh why can't I imprint and forget Sam even exists? What a relief that would be.