Title: No Resolution
Rating: M (just to be safe)
Characters: Blaine, Sebastian
Summary: Blaine asks for Sebastian's help after the shooting incident but Sebastian is just as shaken as Blaine, albeit for slightly different reasons. Warnings inside. 4x18 spoilers. Part of my Second Chance verse.
Warnings: Mentions of gun violence, mentions of depression, self-harm and PTSD, spoilers for 4x18 "Shooting Star"
Disclaimer: I do not own Blaine or Sebastian.
A/N: So this is something I referenced in "Wonderful You" though it's not quite how I'd imagined it originally due to the episode content (could have used a little more Blaine but that's just my opinion). This is set relatively early in the verse, not long after "Dance Crashers" but before "Weekend at the Smythes" – Seb is still struggling a lot with his own self-harm and Blaine doesn't know he's going out with Nick. Enjoy :)
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NO RESOLUTION:
Blaine took a deep breath as he knocked on Sebastian Smythe's front door. He wrapped his arms around himself as he waited for the Warbler to answer the door and when it opened, Blaine felt his throat close and his eyes well with tears. Sebastian looked as scared as he felt and he let the boy pull him inside. He heard the door close before Sebastian hugged him tightly.
"Talk to me, Blaine. What happened?" Sebastian asked. He'd already heard about the shooting at McKinley but Blaine had called to talk.
"I still feel like I'm there! I feel like I'm in the choir room behind that damn piano!" Blaine cried into Sebastian's shoulder. "Mom already took me to the therapist but I just – I can't feel anything!"
Sebastian pulled away, taking Blaine's hand and leading him into the living room. "Sit down."
Blaine fell back into the couch, wiping at his eyes before they fell into his lap and he shook his head. "I thought I'd never walk out of the room… And the others were making it worse! They just kept trying to get out and talking – we could have all fucking died!"
"I thought it was just a teacher's gun going off by accident," Sebastian murmured. He'd sat down beside Blaine but he couldn't shake the shock of seeing him so traumatised.
"It was but we didn't know that!" Blaine shook his head as he leaned forward. "I-I wanted to tell my parents – tell them how much I loved them… I wanted to text Kurt for the same thing but… It was so quiet and there was so much noise at the same time… I couldn't make it stop and I can't fix it because of Cheerios and just-"
"Woah, okay – what do you mean you can't fix it? You can't stop flashbacks or what?" Sebastian's heart was in his throat. He wasn't ready to deal with this, it was too soon…
"I wanna fucking cut myself, okay?!" Blaine screamed. He glared at Sebastian for a few long seconds before he crumbled and burst into tears again. Sebastian shuffled closer and pulled him into his arms again, rubbing Blaine's back as sobs wracked his body.
"I-I don't know how to help you, Blaine," Sebastian murmured.
"You can't help me… No one can… I'm so fucking broken…"
Sebastian sighed softly. "We'll figure something out; we'll make it through this…"
As much as he wanted to, Sebastian couldn't ignore the tingling in his own wrists. Maybe they were both just too broken to fix each other this time.
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A/N: I honestly don't know how to resolve this. "Shooting Star" has hit me like a tonne of bricks and after the week I've had, I don't know how to solve a situation like this. But we know that Blaine and Seb both end up happy in the end in this verse so it's okay (not really). But thank you for reading, I hope you guys are all okay :) –Frankie xoxo
PS: Also, if you like the TV series Bones, be sure to check out my fic for that called "The Twin and her Sister" which I will hopefully update later tonight.