I do not own DBZ and I never will and if I did there would be a lot of changes and krillens voice would be sooooooo much better and hurcule would be dead then non existent in other world. I'm doing this just too occupy me and hopefully others!

Yaoi Warning and M x F warning. This will later change into a Vegeta X Gohan and also Gohan x Eraza. Also Maybe hints of Gohan X yamcha there ;) There's a bit of Gohan X others but if they are main characters you will have too wait and see. I'm mainly going along with it as it comes!

There's gonna be abuse, also drugs, alcohol and sexual scenes and gohan is OOC (that's out of character right?) if non of this is your style or if your underage (if you get caught reading this by mummy and daddy I wont be held responsible for you, it was your own bloody mind that got you caught, take Responsibility for your own actions!... Oh my god I've turned into my mother...), then please find something else to read I don't want the review's filled up with pointless rants I already warned you of :P So enjoy or hate, Please review if you like or have any comments.

Ok sorry bout this but I have redone the story, I hated a few facts of it so little features have been added or removed, nothing major.

Changes of the heart

Chapter 1.

Gohan's P.O.V

Why did he leave us? He knew we needed him! I know I beat the worse threat to come yet, cell, But that didn't mean we could live without him! I can't believe I was hearing right when he said he wasn't gonna come back, I felt like it was a big slap across my face or even one of cell's punch's. Did we do something too make him go? Wasn't I good enough son? Of course I wasn't, I practically killed him today… I had a chance too seize everything, defeat cell and live happily ever after but what did I do? I just messed with the stupid creature. I thought I was doing a good thing in making cell suffer… Making him pay for the lives he took… But I lost my own flesh and blood in doing so and I could have cost the life of earth and the universe! He told me, he shouted at me to do it! To kill him! But did I listen? No of course I didn't! And it's my fault he's gone!

That's how part of me feels, even though I felt numb from emotions I knew part of me had guilt even if it was hard too feel at the moment, but another part of me is shocked at him… He had the chance too get wished back! We could have used that last wish too send us too namek and wish him back with their dragonballs! It would have worked but he said 'no'. Don't we mean anything too him? I'm only eleven and lost my father, again! He left me when I returned from namek, he disappeared but what got me was the fact he had instant transmission but instead of coming home and spending it with his family, he trained! And now he's gone off too train again! Me, his own SON was chosen over TRAINING! He even left his own wife! He knew she was ill lately as well, always puking day and night, now she's a widow, he had a chance too live but he didn't wanna come home…

I felt stupid up there on kami's look out, I had a fake smile the whole time, no one even noticed I was really quiet, I just plastered a fake smile and dumb chit chat until I separated from everyone, then I wiped the smile of my face and tried too grasp everything. I couldn't though, everything didn't feel real, it had too be a dream right? I just rolled my own eyes at that, it felt real but it didn't at the same time, nothing could have been much worse…

Yeah I thought id know better than too say those words, when ever anyone say's that you can grantee that it will get worse! Once I got home I filed the entire story too my mother, she sobbed her eyes out for ages but I also faked smiled that but later on she asked her father, my grandfather, too leave. Once he did I got the worse ear ache ever received by her. She blamed me, like I wasn't feeling bad enough about it as it was. I started defending myself but then she slapped me a few times, it didn't hurt, she realised this after the 3rd slap. It wasn't the fact it hurt as it was nothing only a tap for my strength, it's the fact she WANTED to hurt me. I didn't even know what to do about that, I had become numb again to my feelings. The only feeling working was my shocked one. She wanted too hurt me after I said 'I didn't think cell could blow up', that I never meant too kill dad! I know I should have thought clearly at the time but she wanted too hurt me! If I was weaker than the average human how badly would the damage be from her? But then I couldn't hold in words, I told her straight.

'He didn't wanna come back anyways not like he'd wanted this family in the first place, always leaving now he's gone, his choice not mine!' And then it must have hit her that it was both our faults. She didn't do anything, she stared at the floor, and probably realising her husband would never come home as he didn't want too! Something else was bugging her but before I had chance too ask she ran too the bathroom again.

A month had pasted after the event, mother and I wasn't talking much, the uncomfortable atmosphere was perfectly surrounding around us. But the biggest shock arrived that very day…

Out of P.O.V.

"Gohan hunny stop doing your work for a second I need too tell you something." Chichi said while gently sitting on his bed.

"What is it mum?" Gohan asked Puzzled, wasn't like her too tell him too stop doing his work, in-fact she's only done it once.

"Well you know I've been ill the past few months and so…" She said while looking down.

"Yes, do you know what's wrong with you?" Gohan hoped she had he was starting too worry over her health.

"Yes, but there is nothing wrong with me… I'm pregnant…" She finally looked at him to see his reaction. It was blank, no shock, no anger no happiness… nothing. "Gohan? You understand right?"

"Yes… Are you sure? Trunks didn't say I had a brother in the future."

"Your father was dead in that time line." She pointed out.

"Yes, nothing different is it." Gohan spat out.

"Well I hoped you'd be happy for me…"

"I am… It's just another shock that's all…. Androids, Cell, Dad's death and now my baby brother or sister on the way…"

"I know it's a lot that's happened over the past few months but we got too move on, we have too face it. Your father's never coming back." He knew it had happened, he knew his father was dead before but it felt like a bubble had popped, the numbest before had broke. At that moment he was surrounded with emotions, he felt trapped and the walls were getting smaller. It was hard too breath, the feelings was drowning over him like never before. His father, he wasn't gonna see him again until his death… he wasn't gonna have his father too see him threw his life be there threw the happy occasions and the ruff times. His papa wasn't even gonna be there too see Gohan get married, or for the day Gohan's children are born, first everything…. didn't that mean anything too him up there?

"How long have you known about the baby?" Gohan had looked away the emotion over load was almost spilling out but he didn't how it as gonna spill out, Anger? Tears? Or worse, violence?

"Two days before your dad… Before, he died." Chichi said quietly the whole time she had her hand over the slight bump.

"So did he know?" Gohan was hoping he didn't, he would be extra pissed if he left with his mother in this predicament.

"No, and I should have he may have come back if so."

"Well if we aren't good enough for him I'm sure 'that' isn't."

"That' is a baby!" Chichi snapped.

"Probably not too him, I didn't mean anything too him, I can't have done if he isn't here with me! If I don't I'm sure my sib wont mean a thing too him!" Gohan couldn't take this and got up and flew out of the window anger taking over his body making him transform into his new super saiyan 2 form, he gladly destroyed a few mountains trying too ease the pain but it didn't ease it at all…

In Gohan's P.O.V

"Why can't I be normal! I don't want too be saiyan! I've ruined everything! He left us for no real reason! How can he say all the bad ones where after him! They weren't ALWAYS after him! Was cell? Vegeta at first? Nappa? Frieza at first? Or ginyu's at first? No.

And why vegeta is mad at my father for the defeat years ago? I was the one that beat vegeta when I fell upon him! I won him and he's blaming my father for this? Wait that's right he always gets the victory doesn't he! Even with cell, he's won! And frieza! Even though trunks killed that bastard! And vegeta killed the ginyu's, if it had been up too my dad they would have lived and later seeked revenge and ended up killing us all just like he lets everyone! We all could have died that day freiza returned he even sensed them arriving too earth but for some reason he didn't even transport here! What if trunks hadn't shown up? Or trunks was evil? Would he have won? Well yes if we were in trunk's timeline but how? He wouldn't have shown up he was unaware of trunk's arrival. Things just don't make sense… He only defeated Radditz with the help of piccolo but I defeated cell, the cell Jr's, garlic Jr and his men and also vegeta in a way! Vegeta defeated the ginyu's, number 20 and nappa! Trunks killed frieza and his father. He may win battles but we make sure they die so why the hell does my father get to be the hero when we make sure there is no threat living!" Gohan screamed the anger building up inside of his heart. He felt nothing but anger towards this man now, he had left them alone to fight for pleasure while they moaned his death and went threw life which he would be in if he didn't want too fight so much! "He loved fighting and the lovely food only, we come last even his friends mean more too him than they did!"

Tears was falling down his cheeks as he was powering higher and higher than he had before, he had improved his strength just at that moment from anger alone. He felt a twinge and a pull inside of him, a rush of power but before he had chance for this power to fully change he saw darkness and allowed it too take over his body. The last thing he remembers was sensing a power flying close to where his body was about too hit the floor, it was vegeta.

Hope you like it so far - the next chapter will be gohan in his teen years! - sorry if it dwells on the hate of goku but gohan is just getting in touch with his hate :P

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Just too let you all know I'm from England (Yorkshire part), so I can't help it if I type words I'm use too saying which might not be the words your familiar too. If words you come across you can't understand then ask I will just post up with an answer! But also I'm gonna base school, drinking, driving, jobs, sex and all rules as rules where I live cuz I will get too confused if I base it in America or something!