I havent seen my jacob in two weeks ever since we went to see that wont answer my calls or said he has mono

but i dont believe him so i have decided that tomorrow im going down to the rez to see him.

I got up early this morning got showered and did some housework. im now on my way to the rez to see i have started to have feelings towards him like i no he has towards me but i dont know how to tell him. I will just have to wait and see how this morning goes.

i pulled up to the little red house got out of my truck and made my way towards the front door but before i got there it swung open and out came an angry looking jake.

"Hi jake" i whispered

He didnt talk just nodded his head in acknowledgement.

"Can we talk?" I asked

"you got 5 minutes" He said angrily.

"What happened to you jake? Why havent you got in touch with me or answered any of my calls and texts?" I said.

"I don't want to be friends anymore bella so i suggest you turn around get back in your truck and don't come back because you arent welcome here anymore now go!" Jake seethed.

I didnt want to cry infront of him so i bit my lip turned around and walked towards the happened to my happy best friend?Why does he hate me now?What am i going to do without my sun? I felt the whole in my chest burst wide open again and sat down in the sand and cried and makes me so unloveable? i don't think of edward that often anymore i dont feel the love that i used to have for him anymore but i will never forget the pain that his words had caused me and now jacob had made a new hole in my chest.A voice i didnt know brought me out of my thinking.

"Are you ok" asked a very good looking boy.

"not really" i answered.

"do you mind if i sit with you? my names jared by the way" he said.

"Im bella and yes its ok with me if you want to sit down its your rez" i said with a small smile.

He didnt say anything just smiled back and nodded.

" I dont want to pry but why are you sat in the sand crying?" He asked.

" my best friend doesnt want to be my friend anymore and i dont know has changed so much he has got a tattoe and cut off his hair i dont even recognize him anymore!" i said while trying not to start crying all over again.

" I sort of know how you feel my friend paul did the same thing. He ditched me to go and hang around with sam uley and his gang i bet jacob has done the same thing" he answered looking sad and a little bit angry.

we didnt say anything for a while just both sat looking out at the ocean lost in our i couldnt stay here all day i had to sort myself out before i went back home to charlie i didnt want him to think i was going to go back to how i was when edward left me

all those months ago i had to be strong this time.

" Do you want a lift anywhere because i could drop you off before i go home?" i asked.

"Yeah sure you can drop me at my house if you dont mind?" he asked.

" Thats fine jared i dont mind at all" i promised.

He gave me directions to his house and i pulled into his drive.

" Thanks bella it was nice meeting we could hang out sometime?" he asked.

i thought about it for a minute and decided i wouldnt mind seeing him again he seemed nice enough to talk too. I told him yes and he gave me a small kiss on my cheek before he got out of my truck.

On the drive home i couldnt help but think that i would survive without jacob in my life if i didnt do it for myself i had to do it for charlie

because i couldnt let him watch me fall apart all over again i just couldnt do it to him a second time.