Pairing: ShuuRen/RenShuu

Rated: M..(just to be sure)

Note: This was a Christmas gift for my dear sis, without her I wouldn't even have the courage to write...

Call me Shuuhei

Somewhere in a bar in Sereitei a red haired fukutaichou was looking to his own bottle of saké, alone sit in the usual table he and his friends used to be, no one had come again today. He took a look around the bar..hearing low ranks talking about the war, cheering, making toasts to Soul Society victory, what did they knew?...he thought..they know nothing. He sank in his chair not wanting to be noticed after all that table was the most hidden of them all...He took a sip directly from the bottle thinking in the last terrible events.

The Winter War had finished only two weeks ago...but inside everyone souls at least, the ones that fought that hideous battle..the war of feelings was still ongoing. He was ripped from his thoughts from a loud laughter that came from a low rank, ranting about how amazing the squads have been...and about Ichigo. " Fucking ridiculous..." he murmured to himself...did they won something?...did they?...if yes...at what cost...to win something one has to make sacrifices...and those were to high.

Some scars would be open for many more years, his friends...his precious friends..Hinamori was in a coma, she almost died and there was no certain if she will ever wake up. Kira...had an perfect behaviour facing the enemy and after, but he knew he wasn't alright, Renji caught him in the Third Division barracks looking at the persimmons trees as if he was in a daze..away from this world. Rukia almost died there too if it wasn't for Kuchiki-taichou. Ichigo, the boy did go to hell and came back, was told that his life was all planned and now he was loosing his powers and probably he would not see anyone from here anymore...and Hisagi..he fought his own taichou that was finally able to see but was blinded by madness...how strong could his senpai had been...his maturity to face his own taichou in that critical condition.

Renji sighed, head down thinking about his close friends, taking sips...suddenly he felt a shadow above him..he lifted his head to see who it was and for his surprise his friend and senpai was there looking at him.

" Abarai.?..what are you doing here?...Are you already healed from your wounds?" he asked curious as he pulled a chair to sit in front of his kouhai..Renji following every move of his with his eyes.

" Well...yeah I know I was beaten up pretty bad..."..he scrached his head...hissing at the thought, " ..but I heal fast.." he said with a sad smile taking a look at Hisagi..he probably had aged a lot in this last two weeks...his face was tired..defeated, he stared a bit at him

" Don't tell me I look like shit..." he rolled his eyes.

"...you really look like shit..." Renji smiled sadly, nothing pains him more than see his friend, senpai and former lover in this state, his hair was messy, his skin aged, dark circles around his eyes. "...you have to calm down.." he took a sip from the bottle.

"...yeah..I haven't sleep much." he sighed, "..I was with Kira until now..I have been spending some nights with him, I also did go see Rangiku-san...she is always with Hitsugaya-taichou so I guess that's fine, Hinamori is still in a coma..Unohana-san says if we talk to her she probably can hear us...and I have to take care of the 9th...things just don't stop because of the war...I have to support my division." he lifted an arm to make a sign to the waiter...ordering sake.

Renji's heart was hurting since the first sentence...he still had feelings for his senpai, they had shared beautiful moments but things got complicated and they were separated for almost two years now, but Renji couldn't forget..in fact..he will never forget.

" ..That is really great and all..but you need to take care of yourself, you take care of everyone and...who is taking care of you?" Renji had a pained expression in his face, in fact he knew his words were useless...and this was what ruin their past...being in love with someone that kind was rather difficult, he had to share him with everyone and this type of good people always put other's happiness as priority and his love life was placed in the last spot...Renji was placed for last.

" I have a day-off tomorrow...and...I thought I would find you here..." he said taking a sip of his sake, closing his eyes to enjoy the taste.

" yeah...I've been coming here since I'm healed..in the hope of..." he sighed, "...whatever.." he took a sip of his own too.

Silence filled the air as they were drinking...they look at each other in the eyes...so much they have to say but none would give the first step, so much pain, some resentments too, they continued their drinking without a sound. They knew what no one could understand, their relationship had been intense, full of lust and promises made in the heat of the moment, both were remembering it now, sitting at the bar, drinking sake and looking at dark and amber orbs..also frowning at the way things ended, a terrible fight full of cries and agressions..and the next thing Renji knew his lover was gone.

The air was thick and heavy, Renji wanted to get out of there he opened his mouth to say something but in a flash a finger was in his lips.

"..You know...this recent events had make me realize that...there are things we can never let go..because they could not be here tomorrow." he looked at Renji seeking for some answer.

" Just don't...damn Hisagi ...don't do that to me" the redhead lowered his head.

" What?...I had made a mistake..." he placed his hand above Renji's, " I should have never left you...I.." he was interrupted bu Renji that took of his hand roughly from touching him..he widened his yes at the reaction...but he couldn't blame him..he understood what he was feeling.

" Damn..Hisagi-san.." Renji was speaking between his teeth almost hissing, " I will never forget you, never...but I won't be together with you again, you always put me for last..and I am possessive..I know it's my fault too" he looked around the bar..but they were pretty isolated from other tables, before he could finished his words a pair of lips in his own, Renji faltered, those rough lips on his were making him forget his resolution., he stood up breaking the kiss, " I should ...just...go..." Hisagi was looking up at him with a sad look in his eyes..he placed his hand on his head and when Renji started to walk he grabbed him by his arm standing up, narrowing his eyes at his former lover he took a chance again, "...come with me...to my room" a firm rough voice spelled those words with the most confidence ever and Renji couldn't resist that.

Following him to the Nine Division barracks, Renji entered with the other fukutaichou in his room, closing the door behind them, they stood there looking at each other not saying a word. " I shouldn't had come" the redhead said turning around to leave the place but was stopped by bronzed arms that were wrapped around his waist.

" Senpai..."

" Don't call me senpai here..." he took the chance to lick Renji nape below his ponytail.

" Hisa..."

" Call me Shuuhei as you always did inside this walls" he kissed Renji's neck.

The redhead turned around and placed a hand in the tattooed face, such a rebel appearance to a mature and kind personality, Hisagi was always the most adult of them all...contrasting with him. Renji couldn't resist that bronzed lips, those dark pearls, he kissed him deeply..pushing his tongue inside to devour and explore that moist cave and the other answered with the same passion..Renji leaned at the door and pulled Hisagi with him, hands were digging everywhere inside the clothes...the redhead was caressing his former lover arms...how much he adored them...so perfect as he was feeling the other hands running around his chest..both let out a throaty moan inside their mouths, they started to ravish their mouths...wild kisses..tongues dancing in an erratic rhythm, they wanted to eat each other alive.

Renji dig one hand inside Hisagi clothes and started to caress his member pumping a few times up and down going a bit below to caress his balls too, the other moan at that and did the same to the redhead, both moaned breaking the kiss and slid down the door to sit at the ground, they got close to each other and removed both members out, they were hard as a rock, looking at each others eyes they joined both cocks and seized them with their fingers interlacing them, moving up and down at the same time.

Panting hard Renji looked at them, it always mesmerized him how much equal they look, the skin tone, the size, everything..he placed his forehead in his senpai and looked at those dark orbs...pumping harder now they were with their mouths open..panting, moaning not breaking eye contact, so intense...such passion...they moved harder and faster...their sweat was starting to mix in both foreheads...they were close, their moans were louder, there was no rhythm now...just desperation to achieve climax..they both came with a gasp...hot liquid dripping in both hands mixed, they jerked themselves off until the last drop not removing their hands after, they stayed quiet for a few seconds trying to regain control.

Renji placed a hand in the bronzed cheek and kissed him deeply...he knew this was not over yet and wasn't enough to satisfy both...their members were already twitching for more..they will be indulging in each other for hours, their sex was always fierce and savage, he didn't knew if this was leading somewhere, they probably will never be lovers again but for now he was going to follow Hisagi to his futon, he was going to take care of him and give everything he would demand.