SETH POV

I have been wondering around the reservation trying to find a private spot for almost an hour now. Every time I turn around I see or smell someone nearby. You would think with all of this land that this would be an easy task but let me tell you it's not. I finally just said screw it and went home to watch TV. Both Mom and Leah are here so there is no alone time for me to be able to think.

I surfed through the channels until I found women's volleyball but today, even that wasn't worth watching. On a normal day that would have thrilled the hell out of me to see how they jiggle when they jump up and down.

Mom was banging dishes in the kitchen making noises and Leah was bitching about whatever she was today. I was trying to tune them out but I couldn't.

"You two aren't the only ones that live here and have problems you know."

Mom stuck her head out of the kitchen "Seth what is wrong with you? Come in here and we'll talk about it."

I know she means well but the last person I wanted to talk to about my feelings with was my Mother "You wouldn't understand." I slammed the door behind me.

I don't think anyone understands but maybe some of my pack brothers. Talking to them is like asking for my nuts to be put into a vise. They just make stupid comments or tell me I'm young and I will figure it out with time.

I'm too young to be a man. Too damn old to be a boy. I'm stuck somewhere in between all of that shit and being a wolf. Not sure where I fit in, even if I do. I feel like I don't relate to anyone or anything anymore.

I try to do the right thing; make good grades to please my Mom, be a sounding board for Leah to be a good brother and be dedicated to my pack brothers. Sam always tells me that it will get easier with time but how much longer do I have to wait for that to happen. Every day I am getting farther away from caring about anything.

Then it happened; I met her and she guided me through the night that sent me on a roller coaster ride to hell. I became whatever it took to make her happy and to please her. Knowing that I would get caught up in the web of lies that I was telling and the games we played but I didn't give a shit.

But I couldn't help myself from doing it and enjoying every minute of the wild ride she was taking me on. I should have listened to what I've heard Paul say so many times; hit it and quit it. But, I didn't and this is where my story begins. I woke up with a stranger that made my life more fucked up than I could have ever dreamed was possible. If I would have only known; I would have just stayed home.

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I was begging Sam to let me go on the weekend trip with Paul, Jacob, Quill, Embry and Jared. They are going on a week of Tribal Gatherings. The elders felt it would be good for them to find out about other tribes and their rituals that had been passed down through the generations.

They were all throwing a fit about having to go, but not me. I just wanted to go somewhere, anywhere would do. Sam was getting irritated with their whining.

"You will go and you will represent our ancestors with respect. If you guys cause any problems or don't do as your told; you will answer to me when you get home."

Paul was the worst one "Oh come on Sam, this is a bunch of bullshit and you know it. You're not going so why do we have to? It's going to be the most boring week and we have nothing in common with them unless their wolves too."

Sam was getting more irritated by the minute, especially with Paul "That is the point of sending you. To find out what you have in common with them. Explore your heritage and find your roots. You're all going and that's the end of it. Jacob I expect you to take the lead while you guys are there." The alpha had told them what they were going to do and it was a done deal now.

I went to Sam's house to beg one more time for him to let me go. He was laughing "They are all begging me to let them stay here and you're begging me to let you go. Seth why is this so important to you?"

I considered making up something to tell him but I decided I would tell him the truth about how I felt "I don't feel like I have any common ground anymore. I'm always too young to behave that way or I'm not old enough to do that yet. I went to bed a kid and woke up wolf one day. Time isn't making anything any easier for me. I thought that if I went maybe I can find my roots or maybe at least find a better understanding of who I am. I miss my Dad and wish he was still here so I would have someone that could guide me through this shit." I was so emotional thinking about my Dad and know it showed when I spoke about him.

After I told Sam my reason he thought about it for a minute "I'll tell you what Seth, if Sue says you can go, then you can. What you just said to me is what I'm hoping that you all will get from going on this trip." I thanked Sam and went to find Mom to get her to say yes.

Getting her to say yes took some doing. She still sees me as her little baby. I agreed to stay with the others, call her every day and not get into any trouble.

We stayed at the cheapest hotel nearby the convention center. Jacob was hurrying us along so we didn't miss the first speaker of the day. Sam put a lot of pressure on Jacob to make sure that this trip went well and we didn't miss out on anything that it had to offer.

I personally enjoyed listening to the stories that they told from other tribes and I think that Jacob did too. Quill, Embry and Jared at least listened. We had to keep elbowing Paul to keep him awake.

The day went by very fast and poor Jacob was bombarded with invitations to attend special meetings and hang out with other tribes. He told us to go back to the room and he would meet us there later.

They were all making plans to go down the street to a bar and I was getting ready to go with them when Paul stopped me "Where do you think you're going?" I told him I was going to.

"You're too young to get in. At least the others look old enough. There is a Chucky Cheese down the street. That's probably more your speed there sport." I don't know why I thought coming with them would change anything because it hasn't. They're still treating me like I'm some little kid. Well fuck them, I don't have to spend time around them. I will go find something to do on my own.

I found a burger place and went in. Placed my order and sat down. I don't think I've felt more alone than I do right now. My brothers tossed me aside to go chase tail just like they always do. The only one that's not on my shit list right now is Jacob.

While I was waiting for my food the waitress came over "Is there anything else that I can bring you?" I told her I was fine and asked where the bathroom was. She pointed to the back of the restaurant.

When I came out of the bathroom there were three smokin hot girls setting across from the booth I was sitting at. The brunette was kind of on the shy side and just smiled when she was listening to what the one was saying. The redhead hadn't said anything yet, she was playing around on her phone. The blond you could hear from anywhere you sat in the restaurant.

"I'm telling you Jan the best way to get over your old guy after a break up is to get under a new one." So now I knew that the brunettes name was Jan and she just broke up with her boyfriend.

Jan's face was red "God Pg don't you ever give it a rest. I'm going out tonight isn't that enough considering that I didn't want to go to begin with. I don't even know why I let you guys talk me into this."

I thought that was kind of cute and I would be more than happy to be the one that assisted her to get over the old boyfriend. But I'm sure I would hear the same thing from these girls as I hear from everybody else; you're too damn young.

The redhead put her phone down on the table "Now you know we need to let Jan ease back into the dating scene. Not everyone is like you Pg and think that you should sample men like normal people do the Baskin Robins list of flavors."

"So I date a lot Fae. What is wrong with that? Jan needs to do a little sampling while she's still young."

I was thinking about some things I would love to sample on these girls when I saw a spoon fly across my face. I looked over at them. The one they call Pg was snapping her fingers at me.

"I've been trying to get your attention. Now that I have it, I have a question for you. Look at my lovely friend here and tell me that you wouldn't love to ask her out? She thinks and acts like an old grandma for some reason. We're trying to tell her that there are tons of men that want to go out with her. Now Jan stand up so he can see your butt before he answers the question."

I froze because I wasn't sure if I should respond to them or not.

Jan hid her face "Pg will you please shut up."

"Sorry about that. You never know what might come out of her damn mouth. She has no shame." I smiled and went back to eating.

I listen to them go back and forth for a while. I smiled for the first time on this trip. These girls are something else. They talked about everything from makeup tips to some of their sexual experiences. Hell they were making me blush.

After the girls left it seemed really quiet inside the restaurant. I ordered ice cream and was dreading going back to the empty room alone. I called Jacob to see if he was done yet and he told me he was staying at convention center for a party. Then he was going to crashing there with some people he had met.

I called Jared and the music was loud in the back ground when he answered "I don't know when we'll be back but damn dude you're missing out. There's a bunch of college chicks here. If I'm lucky you won't see me for a week." I hung up the phone. Everybody has something to do and a life but me.

When I walked outside the girls were all waiting around their car. They said the car wouldn't start and someone was coming to pick them up. A car with two more hot chicks pulled up and one of them yelled at me.

"Hey burger boy, do you want to go to a frat party with us?" I couldn't get to that car fast enough to get in.

I was cramped in the back seat with three hotties and wished that this ride would go on forever. The driver introduced herself "I'm Miami and this one in the passenger seat is Misty." I asked if that was where she was from to get that nickname.

She gave me a smile that just would make you want to beg her to love you "No I got that name because I know how to make you get really hot." I was shivering with goose bumps because that was damn straight she knows how.

But thinking back now; I should have just never gotten into the car with them. My Mom always told me to never talk to strangers and never accept a ride from them either. This story is why I should have listened to what my Mother had told me.

I wasn't prepared for what happened next. I just thought I wanted to be grown up until grown up responsibilities came with my actions.

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I snuggled my head back into the pillow and wasn't ready to wake up yet. I rolled over and felt something warm lying beside me. I opened my eyes to a naked girl with brunette hair. I'm pretty sure that she's not the same girl that I met last night either.

Trying not to be freaking out, I sat up on the side of the bed. I think that I had my first sexual experience and missed it. Actually I was still wearing the damn condom so I know I did. I remember going to the frat party with the girls but not much else after that.

A girl with just a bra and a pair of shorts on came into the room "Don't mind me I'm just going to grab my blouse that Bee borrowed and I'll get out of the way." I hope that the girl's name that I slept with is Bee because I don't think calling her; hey I just fucked you but don't know your name is appropriate.

I covered my junk up with the blanket and was trying not to look at her as she was rummaging through the closet. She took a blouse off of a hanger and came over to the bed. She smacked the girl that was in bed with me on the butt.

"Bee get up your boy toy is awake."

She smiled at me "I'm Gem by the way." Then she closed the door behind her. What a little gem she is too.

Bee put her hand on my back. My breathing went hard and erratic just from her touch "Good morning Paul. Did you sleep well?"

After she said that my breathing wasn't a problem anymore; because it had almost stopped completely.

Apparently telling her my name was Paul wasn't the only lie that I had told her during the night that we had spent together. I was a sophomore; in college. I guess the sophomore part really is true but in high school. My major is philosophy and my words to her were as smooth as Casanova himself. There were so many others lies that I learned that I had told her; I was ashamed of myself. But the biggest one was my age. I had told her I was nineteen going on twenty. That will be true in a couple of years.

There are nine college girls that live in the house together; all very hot girls that live together I should point out. I had met most of them already. But on my way out I ran into another one. She was doing yoga and damn that can make you really limber. She was putting her body into positions that I hadn't ever seen before.

"Good morning, I'm Nancy. Who are you?"

Bee came out dressed and this is the first time I had really looked at her. She was beautiful "Nancy this Paul." I nodded my head at Nancy and was practically running for the fucking door.

Bee walked me out and put her arms around my neck "I had a good time last night. Would you like to do something tonight if you're not busy?" I wasn't sure what the morning after ediquettes was or what I should say.

So I said the only thing that came to my mind "I can't, I have to go to Chucky Cheese tonight with my brothers."

"Oh Paul you're so silly. You had us cracking up all night." I'm glad that I amused them because I am damn sure that Paul wouldn't find it amusing that I used his name.

When her lips were on mine, nothing else mattered. I knew it was wrong and I should have told her the truth then but I didn't want to. The feelings I was having from just this kiss took over and I went along with the lies that I had already told her.

I ran back to the room and no one was there. I showered as fast as I could and found some clothes to put on. I stuck the clothes that I was wearing last night in a trash bag and dropped them in a dumpster on way to the center. I didn't need them smelling the girls on me or my clothes.

The guys were standing outside the convention center when I got there on a break. Jacob was pissed at me "Seth where the fuck have you been, I have been calling you? They told me you weren't in the room this morning and no one knew where you were at. Sue is frantic because she said you didn't call her yesterday so she has been calling us trying to get a hold of you."

Oh shit, I had forgotten to call Mom "I wasn't feeling well, I think it was something that I ate last night. I got up early this morning and went for a walk to get some air. I stopped off at a park and sat down on the bench. I must have fallen asleep. I lost my cell yesterday and haven't found it yet. Sorry I didn't mean to worry you guys."

Part of the story I told them is true. I lost my cell phone somewhere and I didn't mean to worry them.

Jacob handed me his phone "Call your mom before she comes down here and kicks my ass. If you leave the room again; at least leave a note so we know where you are because we can't call your phone."

I told Mom that I had lost my cell and was sorry that I hadn't checked in with her. She asked me if I was having a good time and if I learned anything from coming here. With a smile on my face "It's been the time of life. I learned things that you wouldn't believe."

Jacob told me if I wasn't feeling well to go back to the room and lay down. They had a gathering after this and it would be late when they got back. I was really grateful because my butt was dragging and for some reason I couldn't remember what I had done or why I felt this way.

Paul was eyeing me "Something is off with you. So what's going on?"

I acted like I didn't know what he was talking about. Jacob told Paul to leave me alone. That I was just sick and I needed to get some rest. Believe me when I say I felt sick and damn well needed the rest.

After I had slept a few hours I decided to go back to the girl's house to see if I left my cell phone there. Misty answered the door.

"Oh Bee wolf boy is back for seconds."

My face must have turned white if that was possible "Did you just call me wolf boy?" I thought that I felt panic this morning but it wasn't anything like I was feeling now. Did I expose our secret?

"Yeah I did. Last night on our way home you were hanging your head out of the window howling at the moon. So I nicknamed you wolf boy." What else did I do or tell these girls last night?

I spent the afternoon with Bee in her bed. Every time we had sex it was like having my first time again. When I wasn't sure what I should do; it was like she knew and showed me. I wasn't lasting very long and felt that I was shorting her on her own pleasure. But each time she would tell me how much she loved it and how great it was. She guided me from being a boy to man.

I was getting ready to leave and was kissing Bee when Quill, Embry and Jared walked up behind me "Hey Seth, are you going to introduce us to your friend?" My heart almost stopped because I was about to get busted.

Bee looked at me then them "Paul why are they calling you Seth?"

Jared smirked "Yeah Paul I would love to hear the answer to that question."

I told her it was my middle name and excused myself for a moment "What are you guys doing here and how did you know where I was?"

They said that Paul and Jacob had stayed but they decided to go back to the room and came across my scent on the way. I gave them a brief explanation and begged them not to say anything.

Quill put his arm around my neck "Let me make sure that I understand you. You hooked up with some chick you didn't even know last night. Told her your name is Paul. Then you ditched us to come back here and fuck her again today. So you're at our mercy." I guess he summed it up pretty well.

The girls were coming out of the house carrying luggage. They all wanted to know who my friends were. I went to introduce them but hell now they decided to be somebody else too. Quill said his name was Sam Uley and Embry was Jacob Black. The only one that was original was Jared.

"I'm Billy the Kid."

Fae gave him a seductive smile "Well are you good with your gun, kid?"

"I'm very good with my gun and its loaded Darlin, so you might want to be careful." I covered my face because I know this is going to get all fucked up.

The girls were going on a spur of the moment trip on a private jet that one of their parents owns. Somehow we got invited to go along too. We are going to go with them and then catch the jet back after the six hour layover. We should be able to get back here before they even know that were gone. Quill called Jacob and told him we were going to a midnight matinée. Our alibi was in place.

We were all awed by these beauties and we were putty in their hands for them to sculpt. On the jet the alcohol was flowing freely and we were all enjoying it.

They kept talking about a girl named Wheels that was going to be meeting them at the airport. Quill asked why they called her that; was it because she drove fast?

Jess stopped flipping through her magazine "Oh honey after you meet her; you'll know why."

Bee was sitting on my lap and whispered in my ear "Do you want to join the mile high club?"

She guided me through another sexual experience that most guys only get to fantasize about.

It wasn't enough that I had done things to mess up everything in my own life. But now I was taking my pack brothers with me. I introduced them into a world that none of us knew ever existed. We lived a pretty simple and protected life on the reservation. Nothing like what we were about to experience.

I often wonder what would have changed if we never had gotten on the jet that night. Would my life have gone in a different direction or would the outcome still have stayed the same?

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I rolled over to find Bee and found I had a handful of something I didn't know what the fuck it was. I opened my eyes and was face to face with a chimpanzee.

"What the fuck?" I jumped out of bed and stepped on a bunch of bananas. There were bananas all over the bed and the floor. The chimpanzee held up a banana for me to take from him.

I slipped on my shorts and closed the bedroom door behind me. I walked down a long hallway to somewhere. I have no fucking clue where I was at or where it was leading me to.

When I walked out into the living room it was trashed. The couch was upside down along with the rest of furniture strung out throughout the room. Beer bottles and liquor bottles sat around everywhere. Chinese food containers, some were dumped on the carpet and some were opened up on the coffee table. There was more damn bananas strung around the room. I called out but no one answered me.

I needed to get some air. I opened the balcony doors and saw Embry stretched out with only his underwear on. Or I think it was Embry anyways because this dudes head was shaved. I wonder why he would shave his head. Embry always loved his hair. It was a thing with him.

I walked closer and sure enough it was him. He had a pair of thigh high panty hose wrapped around his neck like a tie.

I woke his ass up and asked him if he knew what the hell we did last night "No man I don't remember shit. The last thing I remember was hopping the jet with the girls. We were drinking a lot but I can't believe that booze would make me feel this bad."

I was feeling the same as I felt the first night that I had spent with Bee. Besides the splitting head ache and upset stomach; I was unsure of what I had actually done or who the hell I had done it with for that matter.

We both were moving in slow motion searching for Jared and Quill. Embry went into the bathroom and screamed "Where the fuck is my hair?"

That answered my question from earlier; he has no clue of why his head was shaved.

"Seth get in here I found Quill." I went into the bathroom and Quill was curled up in the bathtub with his head on a pillow. He was holding on to a bunch of bananas naked.

I went over to shake Quill to wake him up but we must have startled him. He threw the bananas "Where the fuck am I?" That was a question that I think we all wanted to know and needed to get the answer to.

When Quill stood up Embry and I looked at each other. I pointed to his thingy "What the fuck is that?"

Quill looked down "Holy shit."

There was silver glitter all over his dick. He was trying to get it to come off and I wanted to throw up watching him touch himself. Embry and I left the bathroom to let him do whatever it was he needed to do.

When Quill came out of the bathroom "All I remember is one of the girls liked sparkly things but I definitely don't remember how the fuck I got glitter stuck to my dick."

We went and got some of our clothes and put them on. The girls were nowhere to be found and their stuff wasn't here. So we were searching around to see what we could find in this very expense hotel suite that had been trashed beyond recognition.

Quills face went blank "Where's Jared?"

I guess in our morning after; we had for gotten about him. Quill called his cell phone and we heard it ringing under the couch. Well at least we found him. He must have passed out under there at some point. When we flipped it over, all we found was Jared's pants and his cell phone.

There were noises coming from down the hallway. Quill and Embry asked what the hell it was.

"There is a chimpanzee in the bedroom. I didn't know what to do with him so I left him there."

Embry was running down the hallway "No way, I've got to see this."

Embry came back leading him by the hand "I think I'm going to call him Clyde."

Quill punched Embry in the arm "Asshole we can't keep a monkey, he isn't ours. So stop playing around with him."

Embry let go of Clyde's hand. But Clyde stood there with his hand held out for Embry to take it again. I guess at least Embry made a friend.

Panic was starting to set in with all of us. Quill said Jacob had called his cell phone sixty four times and Jacob had left messages until he filled up his voice mail. Quill looked hard at his phone.

"Guys it's Saturday; we've been gone for three fucking days."

Then I wanted to pass out. This meant everyone knew we were gone by now, including my Mother. I can only imagine the trouble were in.

We were debating on what we needed to do. Quill took control of the situation "We need to stop panicking. We'll look around and find something to tell us where we are then we'll figure out what we need to do."

We spilt up to search the suite. I found a match book cover from the Pussy Kat Club on the floor in the living room and a tube of superglue with a bottle of silver glitter in the bathroom.

Embry came back with a pill bottle, the label had been torn off and it had magic marker writing on it "I think I know why we don't remember anything. It's fucking ecstasy, they drugged us."

I sat down at the kitchen table. Did Bee drug me? Has she been drugging me this whole time? It would make sense why I couldn't remember the first night we had spent together or now. The reason why I have felt so fucked up and different this week. But why in the hell would she do that? It's not like I wouldn't have slept with her without drugs. None of this makes any sense to me.

Embry asked me if I had Bees cell number or any of the girls. I shook my head no "I don't even know what her last name is or any of them for that matter."

We went down the list of girls; Jan, Misty, Fae, Pg, Wheels, Nancy, Gem, Miami, Jess and Bee. Embry asked me if I thought they just made up these names to give us. I kind of snickered at him "We gave them false names so anything is possible I guess."

Quill came back in the room with a flower bouquet and wedding rice in his hand. He threw down on the table a picture of me, him, Jared and Embry standing at an alter with a Minister in the Little Chapel of Love. We were wearing top hats and had a boutonniere pinned to our t-shirts "I'll tell you guys where we are; if you can tell me which one of us got married?"

The first place we went to find was the Little Chapel of Love. An older lady greeted us and we asked her if she remembered us. She smiled kindly.

"Of course boys I remember you and all the people that you brought in here with you. It was a very strange combination of people for a wedding. But I have seen some really strange things in the twenty years that my husband and I have been operating this chapel. I think that you have a great girl there and I hope that you both have as many happy years together as me and my Peter have had. But why are you here and not off on your honeymoon?"

We all looked at each other because we weren't sure what in the hell she was talking about or which one of us she was talking to. Quill asked her if we could have a copy of the marriage license.

The lady went back to her office and when she came out she handed the piece of paper to me. I felt my heart come up in my throat, I was the one that got married. I looked down at it to see that Paul Lahote and Isabella Swan was married here two day ago. I dropped the marriage licenses from my hand and watched it fall to the floor.

"Which one of the girls is Isabella?"

A huge thank you goes to Fae and Gemma. They inspired me to write this. This is dedicated to my beautiful sisters.

I hope you enjoyed reading me.