Malchik Gay, a degrassi fanfic

This is Ellie's feelings about Marco. I used the tatu song Malchik Gay which means gay boy. I know its short but please tell me what you think. I appreciate reviews.

I see him across the cafeteria grabbing lunch. He looks over at me and smiles. He looks so cute. I love him. He starts to walk towards me. The way he looks at me says it all. It says we'll always be just friends. I can tell. I've seen the way he looks at Dylan. As if Dylan is the only person in the world. He never looked at me like that. I always hoped that when we pretended to go out he would really fall for me but that didn't happen. He comes over and kisses me on the cheek. I wish he would kiss me on the lips. Dylan comes over. I tell them I'll give them some privacy. Marco hugs me before I leave.

Handsome

Tender

Soft

Why do you look right through me?

Thinking

"No"

I can't deny my feelings

Growing strong

I try to keep believing

dreaming on

And every time I see you

I crave more

I wanna pull you closer

Closer

but you leave me feeling frozen

I go over and sit with Alex. I wish Marco would stay with me. I wish he would feel the way I do. I think about what could have happened if only he felt the same. It's too bad I can't erase these feelings. They're driving me crazy.

Malchik gay

I can be

all you need

Won't you please

stay with me

Malchik gay

Apologies, might-have beens

Malchik gay

can't erase what I feel

Malchik gay

I look over at Marco and Dylan laughing and having a good time. I feel like crying but I have to hold it in. I try to think of some way that we could both be together but I can't. I see Dylan put his arm around Marco and Marco leans in to give him a quick kiss. I wish Marco wanted me.

Choking

Back emotion

I try to keep on hoping

for a way

a reason for us both to

come in

close

I long for you to hold me

like your boyfriend does

and though my dream is

slowly fading

I wanna be the object

Object

Of your passion, but it's hopeless

This whole thing is hopeless. I watch Marco and Dylan walk out of the cafeteria. Marco looks at me and waves goodbye. I smile and wave.

Malchik gay

I can be

all you need

Won't you please

stay with me

Malchik gay

Apologies, might-have beens

Malchik gay

can't erase what I feel

Malchik gay

I guess we'll always be just friends. Better than nothing right?