Lyrics:
Many years have passed right before me, as I stare at the ever changing scenery.
But time is cruel that way, or so that's what they say.
Used to think that we would last forever, promised that we'd always be together.
But then it fades away, it all fades at the end of the day.
As time keeps on spinning I wonder and I ponder, "Do you think of me like I do you? "
The sadness that I felt and the pain that we both dealt, I hope it all just goes away forever...!
But isn't it strange how these feelings tear me right apart?
Wherever and whenever, you're always in my heart.
Your voice still remains, like the way you used to say my name...
No matter what we go through we'll end up just the same.
The pain that I feel will not heal, it keeps on piercing through.
I'll cherish all the love and the time I spent with you.
They're linked like a chain, all my feelings they will never change.
Now until forever, this love can't be explained
There's nothing I'd want to forget, no reason to hate or regret,
It's just that I had wished for a perfect world, but no, it wasn't so.
You're no longer the one I always dream of,
think it's time that I should find a new love,
A love that goes as planned, not one that will just end.
Like the sun that comes after a rainstorm,
all the feelings in my heart are reborn.
My broken heart has healed, but tell me if this is all real.
As seasons keep on changing, our feelings rearrange, but I will think of you, just think of me too!
The moments that we shared and the times when we both cared, they'll always be a memory within me.
I always believed, when I'd leave you'd still be in my heart, even if we're together or if we're far apart.
I know that in time, I will find a way to ease the pain, I hope that I'll be able to laugh with you again...
But isn't it sad how we've moved on from all that we had?
Sometimes I still miss it, all of the good and bad.
No need to pretend, we both know how we felt in the end.
Now until forever, we'll always just be friends.
Story:
As soon as I found out he didn't really love me, I cried for an entire week. Since we were always on the move as couple, we never really stayed in one place for too long. He like to travel, so I went along with whatever train ticket or airport pass he bought.
I spent years in that relationship. Every day thinking, and every night dreaming, of him. Only him.
People say, "Time is Cruel", though I never believed them, it turns out its actually true.
As I recollect what had happened the past week while staring out the window of my temporary hotel room in Spain, I remember back when to when I first met him. I thought our love would last forever, and we promised that. But, just as the tide goes back down, all of it fades as the sun sets.
Back when I was younger, and completely crazy about him, I wondered all day and all night if he felt the same way. And, he did. But it faded over time like dew on the grass.
He tried to make it a "Mutual Break-up" , but that didn't work. Both of us were, and still are, confused, hurt, and just hoping all of the pain and heartache go away forever.
I still don't understand how someone I loved so much could cause me so much pain. Someday, I'm sure his voice will leave me, and everything else. But, for now, no matter what we go through, we'll end up just the same.
You think the pain would get better- it doesn't. My heart now feels like a gigantic hole that will never fill up again. But, the good things make me happy now and again. Like, the way he used to hug me from behind, and how he had the cutest quirks.
It doesn't matter what my mother, sister, friends say, all my feelings they will never change. And for all eternity, this love will go without a definition.
And, I know memories fade over time , but I will never, nor do I want to, forget him. I don't hate him for hurting me, or regret ever meeting him like other girls would after a break-up.
When I was a little girl, I thought the world was perfect. Well no, not really, but I had wished for a perfect world, then I met him, an became more ignorant than before.
A few weeks later. . .
I called him up the second I opened my eyes on the first day of the second week after we broke up. It was the first night that I went through without dreaming about him. It was weird, a really new and alien feeling. And, I had realized, I had moved on. Not with another relationship, no, but with the fact that the pain had eased. Not all the way, but so that I could go without a headache every time I wake up, and that I could stop shoveling endless pints of ice cream down my throat.
I told him this time I was going to find a love that was worth finding, not one that will just end. And then hung up, sort of aggravated.
After I put the phone down, I smiled bitter sweetly. All of my feelings are reborn, it was a brand new feeling. It felt like a dream, I didn't think this the cruel world I had known so well could disguise itself overnight, yet it did.
As I moved from Spain to Italy, from Summer to Winter, all of my pain was finally alleviated. The day after I called him, he called me to ask me why I called him. I told him that I didn't want him to think I hated him, I still partially loved him and I didn't regret anything. "But I will think of you, just think of me too." I said.
He told me he didn't regret anything either, and was glad that I hadn't forgot him. Usually people try so hard to forget pain, they forget so much that they lose a piece of themselves. I told him that would never happen. That the times we both had together will always be a memory within me.
I always believed, when we were still together, that even if we split up, we'll always still love each other, that he'd still be in my heart. I know that in time, I will find a way to ease the pain, all of it. I hope that I'll be able to laugh with you again.
But I've always felt kind of sad that sometimes I miss it, all of the good and bad. There's no need to act like we're both perfectly happy and content, we both know how we felt in the end.
But, for now, we'll always just be friends.
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