Malchik Gay Mikami's long lusting after Light, a death note fanfic

Well, my first Song-fic. Hope you like it. The song is "Malchik Gay" which is the English version. By t.A.T.u. And I don't own the song or the Death Note anime.

Yaoi. Mikami lusting after Light with Mikami's point of view on things, how he feels. My first Death Note fan fiction as well, so please give me some advice on things.

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I sigh exasperatedly, I wanted to be with my God, he was so perfect, smooth skin, good looks, and he knew just how to talk me into things. I wanted him to notice me so badly, to acknowledge my existence. I want him to love me the way that I now love him. At first, I was just a worshiper, now my feelings have grown more. Every time I see him, my heart just pounds in my chest, I can't help but to love him.

Handsome
Tender
Soft
Why do you look right through me
thinking
"No"
I can't deny my feelings
Growing strong
I try to keep believing
dreaming on
And every time I see you
I crave more
I wanna pull you closer
closer
closer
closer
but you leave me feeling frozen

I can change as much as I need for him to only want me. I hardly ever get to see him, he's with that detective all the time, I want him all for myself. I find myself constantly apologizing to him whenever I start to say something that I might have wanted to at first, but then decided against. I want to be all he craves and lusts for and all that he loves.

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I can be
all you need
Won't you please
stay with me
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Apologies, might-have-been's
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I'm always trying to keep myself from confessing to him. I keep longing for the chance to be able to come into close contact with him, to "accidentally" trip into him. And then after that incident, he'd catch me and hold me close, like how I'm sure he does with the damned detective. But slowly, my will to go after him is waning down; I want to be everything to him. All of his passion, I want for myself.

Choking
Back emotion
I try to keep on hoping
for a way;
a reason for us both to
come in
close
I long for you to hold me
like your boyfriend does
and though my dream is
slowly fading
I wanna be the object
object
object
object
of your passion but it's hopeless

I just need to tell him everything that he needs to know, and make my way to him as a worthy subject to him. Yagami Raito, I'll never lose my feelings for you. They'll burn eternally inside me as long as I know your existence.

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