Just a fair warning: this could be considered a tearjerker, as it does contain a major character death. I hope you enjoy, though! It starts off with everyone finding out about Olivia's assault in Sealview, but that just leads up to how the character gets to Olivia's apartment and then gets killed.

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Olivia stumbled into her apartment, almost crying from the scene that replayed over and over in her mind. She was in the stationhouse, and the only person who knew what had happened to her came striding in. Carolyn, the only person she had told of her assault beside her therapist, had come striding into the stationhouse, slapped her and said hysterically, "I don't know how you stand living with the memory of being assaulted. I don't think I can."

After she ran out in tears, Olivia stood there in shock, staring back at Elliot, Munch, Fin, Cragen and Casey. They were staring at her with the same expression of shock, but before any of them could say a word she strode from the room, hiding the tears streaming from her eyes. She was ashamed for a reason she couldn't explain. To be honest, she hadn't expected to be forced to tell her friends and colleagues about her assault.

She slammed the door and collapsed onto her bed, staring at the window and drew her knees up to her chest, wrapping her arms around her legs. A soft knock broke the cold silence, and a fatherly voice said "Olivia?"

She could refuse anyone but him. Slowly she opened the door, and there stood Cragen, tears in his own eyes. "Why didn't you tell me?" He asked softly, and Olivia broke down, tears sliding down her cheeks as she covered her face. Don wordlessly pulled her into his arms, pressing his lips against her forehead and whispering, "It's gonna be okay, Olivia, I'm here,"

It broke Don's heart to see the woman he still considered to be his little girl break emotionally right in front of him. That only happened when something extremely bad happened. They stood in the doorway as Olivia's sob slowed and she murmured, "I don't know why I didn't tell you, Don. I'm so sor-"

"Don't say you're sorry," He whispered, and she pulled back. He wiped her tears, and she smiled gently at him. He returned the smile, and suddenly a footstep was heard from behind them. Don whirled around and a sharp BANG split the air. Don's smile melted into a grimace of pain, and he slowly started to collapse. Olivia supported him and slowly laid him on the ground, her hand pulling her gun and aiming it at the person who had shot him.

It was none other than Harris, the devil from her nightmares.

"You bastard, what have you done!?" She screamed, her gun aiming straight at his heart. Harris grinned evilly, and said,

"He was in the way of me finishing what I started, and then shooting you."

"You're not gonna get the chance," She growled, as he started to pull the trigger. She pulled hers faster, and her bullet flew into his heart, if he even had one. As he fell, she shot him again, and again, and again before he fell , dead before he hit the ground.

"Don!" Olivia shouted, kneeling by his side and pulling her phone to dial dispatch. "This is Detective Benson, I've got a man down, I repeat man down, 1352 Belgaum Street, apartment 23,"

"Copy that Detective," dispatch crackled back, and Don's shaking hand lifted up and his lips parted to whisper,

"Liv,"

She grasped his hand, fighting back tears as she covered his wound with her other hand. "You're gonna be okay, Don, you have to be," She muttered, grabbing her coat and trying to stop the bleeding. Don closed his eyes and she said hurriedly, "Keep your eyes open, Don, you gotta keep your eyes open," With a groan he dragged his eyes open, and blinked a few times.

He coughed a few times, and drops of blood spewed up. "Oh God no," Olivia muttered, knowing that there was blood in his lungs now.

"You'll, you'll be okay, Olivia," Cragen rasped, and Olivia said urgently,

"Just keep breathing! Keep breathing!"

Sirens could be heard in the background, and Olivia almost cried with relief. "Help's coming, Don, you'll be okay,"

"I, I lived my life, Olivia, you gotta let me go,"

"No, I won't! Please, Don, don't make me, don't make me let you go," Olivia said vehemently, and Don wet his lips, saying faintly,

"Always, thought of you, daughter. Love you, Liv,"

"I love you, Don! You were always like a father to me, always! Don't leave me," She pleaded, tears overflowing from her eyes.

"I see, Marge, Liv, I'll be okay, good, bye," He murmured, and his eyes fluttered close.

Olivia sat there for a long moment, refusing to believe it. "No!" She screamed as paramedics ran in through the door. They started to check her, but she shoved them away, lurching to her feet and saying blankly, "They're both dead. I'm fine, it's not my blood."

She stumbled out of her door, and when she got to the stairs, she saw Elliot, Fin, Munch and Casey standing there. Olivia stared down at them, and Elliot took the stairs three at a time to get to her, saying, "Are you okay?"

"No," She said hollowly, and spread her hands, looking at the blood and saying, "It's Don's. He, he's gone. And it's all my fault." She turned around and strode back to her apartment, leaving the other to wonder in shock about what she meant.

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An hour later, after Olivia had been processed and was wearing new clothes, the detectives were finally allowed to see the scene, with Don Cragen's body still lying there in his own pool of blood. Casey immediately lost it, sobs ripping from her throat and Munch pulled her into his arms, tears slipping down his face. Fin stared at Cragen stonily until someone walked in, gasping and saying, "Oh my God," They all looked and saw Alex Cabot standing there, her hands over her mouth and tears glistening in her eyes. Fin walked over to her, wrapping his arm around her shoulders and she buried her face into his chest. Elliot's gaze went back to Cragen's body, and then up to Olivia's face.

"He was the one who assaulted you, wasn't he." Elliot stated, and Olivia nodded miserably.

"if I had stopped him, he wouldn't have come and shot Cragen," She replied softly, and Elliot touched her arm until she looked up at him.

"He wouldn't have blamed you, Liv. I'm sure he still doesn't." He said quietly, and Olivia held her tears back as she slipped her arms around his waist. He let his head rest on her shoulder, his eyes on Cragen's closed ones.

The squad stood there for a long time, each grieving in their own way, but Elliot and Olivia didn't shed a tear. After an hour, Olivia linked arms with Alex and Casey and they walked out, followed by Elliot, Fin and Munch. They were wordlessly going to their favorite bar as Melinda came running up, having just been informed by the Chief.

"Is it…is he…" She started to say, and when Olivia nodded, she closed her eyes titled her head back and her shoulders shook from silent sobs. Olivia, Alex and Casey pulled her into a group hug, which they pulled Elliot, Fin and Munch into. It was an unusual sight, a group of serious SVU detectives, ADA's and a ME group hugging on the side of a street, but none of them cared. They had lost the head of their group, the glue that held them all together at the toughest times, and they needed to grieve over the fact that he was now gone.

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That's not the end, I promise! I'm working on some more chapters, but I can just leave it like that if you think that'd be better. Let me know, either way! Thanks so much, and thanks for reading! Adios!