Reasons to stay
It's strange. When I sleep I can forget all the terrible things there happened. I dream about being back in the forest, before everything went wrong. Before friendships where torn apart by betrayal. When I wake up I remember everything painfully clear. Yes, Allan came back. We went to the Holy Land to stop the Sheriff from killing King Richard. Everything went wrong. At first the king thought we were the ones trying to kill him and when he realized he'd been tricked it ended up with Gisborne killing Marian whom the sheriff had brought as a prisoner.
Watching Robin was terrible, still I couldn't help wonder "what if it had been Djaq?" and I know if that had been the case I wouldn't have been as strong as Robin. I would've broken. I've done it before; grief makes me mad.
We said we stayed because Djaq wanted to raise birds. The truth is neither of us could live with Robin, who'd just had to burry his wife, should go every day, seeing Djaq and I happy together.
Allan was the first we told about our plans, funny thing is he got really mad at me "WHAT ABOUT LUKE?" he yelled, "HE'S YOUR BROTHER!" I knew he was thinking of his own brother but I also knew Luke would understand. Understand that we had to stay, to give Robin the space he needed to grieve. Besides, someone has to make sure the graves of Marian and Carter are looked after.