My second fanfic! Here you go.
I'm not too happy about this, but I guess there's really no harm in posting it anyway.
Disclaimer: I do not own anything...
"Please, please. Go out with me?" We stand in the hallway, seconds earlier we were walking, patrolling, but then James grabbed my arm and asked me the same question he has asked me so many times before.
"James... I don't think it's a great idea..." I want to say yes, he has really changed this year, being head boy and all, but the problem is really me.
You see... James is a great person. Loving, funny, smart, popular... And of course really, I mean really hot.
He has been asking me out since fifth year, but because of his arrogance I have been saying no.
Now I fancy him back.
But I won't do anything about it.
He's too good.
He thinks I'm like him.
But I'm not.
Ever since I was a little girl I've been, let me say... Restless! Maybe that's the wrong word for it. Let me explain!
When I was nine years old all I wanted was a dog. At my tenth birthday I got one! It was one of the happiest days of my life. I took such good care of it, taught it all those tricks and took it for long walks.
One year later I was bored with it. I ended up giving it to my neighbor...
If that's not enough, here's another example;
Severus and I were best friends as kids. He was the one that first told me about magic, Hogwarts and the wizard world. We were supposed to be "best friend for ever".
When we came to Hogwarts things became complicated. But we fought for our friendship. Nothing were supposed to come between us! But after he called me a mudblood I realised he could call me what the bloody hell he wanted! I didn't really care.
He was just not interesting anymore!
There is plenty smaller examples too. Like the fact that I always change my favorite color and that I can but something I really like one day, and the next day I hate it.
You see my problem, right?
I don't want to grow tired of James!
"Lily, I can't see why you keep turning me down!" It's so hard to remember what to say when he looks at me like that, my heart is going crazy. "Give me one good reason."
"Um... Sure. I'll give you a reason!" I look around to come up with something that he can't argue with. "I'm not... You're..."
"Aha! You can't come up with something!" He looks triumphant. "Shall we say eleven o'clock Saturday?"
"No. No date! I don't want to." I stare him straight in the eye, or I would have if his eyes were on the floor... "The thing is James, I'm not a relationship kind of girl. You know? I'm easily bored and I don't want to harm our friendship."
"What?" I turn my head up and see a surprised look on his face. "I bore you?" That's what he got out of my little speech? I just found something bad about him.
"That is not what I'm saying. Can't you just pay attention for one second?"
"Lily, when have I ever bored you?"
"Well... Technically, never. But I don't want that to happen! So, I try to spend as little time as possible with you to prevent that!"
"You know that we have spent almost every hour of every day together, right?"
"What?" That can't be true. "We have?"
"Yeah, you haven't noticed? It's like we're already together! And it's beem this way since the start of the year." There's a hopeful glint in his eyes, and I can feel something change inside me.
When I look at James I feel in a way I've never done before. He's like a friend I whant to be with for the rest of my life.
And I just realized there is plenty of things I haven't grown tired of! My teddybear, my friends in Gryffindor, my favorite flower, Lilies!
I can do this!
"Well the James! On second thought I think I will go out with you." I smile wider than I've never smiled before.
And then he kisses me, and I can't help but think that this is a thing I will never grow tired of.