My Father taught me to believe in God.

But what God would create such horrors?

Who would create something as unforgiving as a vampire?

They kill for enjoyment, it is wrong.

How could I live this way?

I can't die,

I can't be alive again.

Why, Lord?

Why make me take others' lives to survive?

I was going to save people.

Now I am a monster.

A sudden thought strikes me,

So sudden I am sure God put it there.

Maybe I don't have to be a monster.

I can choose not to be.

I can have faith in God.

I am sure that if I drink from animals…

After all, I think

I still ate deer when l was human.

Surely, it is no different.

I smile,

Because God has answered my prayers.

I am Carlisle Cullen,

A vampire,

And I can still save people.

A/N: This is set after Carlisle refuses to eat and tries to kill himself. I know this is super...Preachy? Preachy. This is super preachy and religious but I believe Carlisle did have faith (Why else would he have a cross hanging in his home?) and God helped him. Let me know and review, yeah?

Your obedient servant,

P.O.P