My Father taught me to believe in God.
But what God would create such horrors?
Who would create something as unforgiving as a vampire?
They kill for enjoyment, it is wrong.
How could I live this way?
I can't die,
I can't be alive again.
Why, Lord?
Why make me take others' lives to survive?
I was going to save people.
Now I am a monster.
A sudden thought strikes me,
So sudden I am sure God put it there.
Maybe I don't have to be a monster.
I can choose not to be.
I can have faith in God.
I am sure that if I drink from animals…
After all, I think
I still ate deer when l was human.
Surely, it is no different.
I smile,
Because God has answered my prayers.
I am Carlisle Cullen,
A vampire,
And I can still save people.
A/N: This is set after Carlisle refuses to eat and tries to kill himself. I know this is super...Preachy? Preachy. This is super preachy and religious but I believe Carlisle did have faith (Why else would he have a cross hanging in his home?) and God helped him. Let me know and review, yeah?
Your obedient servant,
P.O.P
