I don't own K-ON!

Finally! I'm back with the last Growing Old with You story :D It's been a while and I missed writing, hopefully this time I can have the time to keep writing. Anyway, here's the first chapter and I sort of tried some different things in this story so I hope you enjoy it. To those who read the previous growing old with you stories you guys probably know how Ui is soooo...just a heads up, don't be surprised ;). Oh and if you guys noticed the stories I wrote, including this one, I tried writing them like the 'behind the scenes' stories for some of the second season episodes...well just an FYI :3 Anyway, on to the story! :P

After seeing my sister off on her way to the station for their Kyoto trip, I head back to the kitchen to prepare myself something to eat. A simple toast is fine, I said to myself as I spread butter on my toasted bread slice. While I eat I texted my sister to see if she was able to make it to the station on time, she didn't call me or anything so I assumed she already did. After eating, I went up to her room to clean and make sure she had everything, "Thank goodness, the camera's the only she forgot," I said then closed the door to my sister's room as went out. I bet she's already having fun, I can't help but feel excited for her since she likes going on trips and I have some time left before going to school.

Usually, being early for school from time to time is just normal for me and I don't mind especially since I'm always waiting for onee-chan. But recently that's not the case, lately I've been wanting some extra time every morning and today is one of those days that I get to have it. I have 45 minutes; I checked the time and headed to my room. Locked my door and took out my phone. I browsed through my photos and chose my favorite one – Azusa-chan's picture. I'll go straight to the point, the truth is I'm in love with Azusa-chan. I'm not sure when it all started but I realized it after watching them perform a live house last year, Azusa-chan looked so cool. They all looked cool but during that time I couldn't explain why I was fixated on her.

I have yet to confess my feelings for her but most parts of me are against with the idea and it's not only because I might get rejected. Winter last year, I learned something about myself that I never imagined that I could be, not in my whole life. I never talked to anyone about this, not my friends, not Nodoka-san and especially not my sister or anyone in the family. It's, for most people, indecent but I couldn't help it.

"I have a lot of extra time today," I sat on my chair, looked at Azusa-chan's photo and I began to touch myself.

And that's mainly the reason why I couldn't confess; an obscene person like me doesn't deserve someone like her. I don't want her to find out about this side of me, she'll definitely scorn me. I never thought about these things before, not until I stopped by that yard sale last year. It was almost Christmas and I was just on my way home from shopping when I saw a yard sale. I took the opportunity and looked around since I still haven't bought any present for Azusa-chan yet. And that's where I stumbled upon that book.

It was a white book and had no title on it, which made me even more intrigued. So I picked it up, blew off some dust on it and opened it at the middle. My eyes widened when I read the title of the chapter: How to please your woman the right way. I don't know why I didn't check the table of contents first and just went ahead, halfway through everything. My curiosity was at its peak since Azusa-chan was on my mind when I read that, but there's a tiny bit part of me that told me not to go any further. Instinct? I wasn't sure myself. As I stared at the page, I fought my eagerness to learn more about this subject. However, I didn't even fight long for my curiosity got the better of me. So I turned the page, not knowing that beyond that would be a world that would change me, permanently. And before I knew it, it was already too late.

"Wha - ?! What is this?!" I stood frozen in my place when I saw the illustration of two naked women touching each other. My face instantly became hot when I finally realized what the book was all about. It became even hotter when I suddenly imagined Azusa-chan. NO! It was wrong of me to think such things about Azusa-chan. So I closed the book and put it back on the table before leaving – never looked back.

That night, what I saw earlier kept me from getting a good night's sleep. It was only one look, one image and yet I couldn't get it out my head. It shocked me, that's why it's unforgettable. But no matter what I did it never left my mind because, somehow, deep down inside of me; I wanted to see the next page. My thoughts were full of 'what ifs' the whole day and I knew I shouldn't but I really couldn't stand it, I didn't know why. In the end, I decided I had to do something about this somehow. So I got out of bed and quietly went downstairs to dad's office – careful not wake onee-chan. Our parents went on a vacation so dad left his laptop at home and I used that to do my research.

My heart pounded and hands trembled as I typed the title of that chapter. I shouldn't be doing this, I told myself over and over as I typed on the keyboard. I pressed search and within a second, the results were shown, not letting me have any time to change my mind or at least think about my actions. I figured I was already at it, might as well get it over with, otherwise I might go crazy from thinking what could have been on the other side of that page.

I took a deep breath before clicking the very first article on the list and, instantly, I saw an image similar to the one I saw in the book. Wha - ?! Again, it shocked me so I took a minute to walk around dad's office to compose myself before proceeding. When I felt that I could go on I sat back on the chair and scrolled down. Oh thank goodness…words, I said to myself in relief that there aren't any more photos that came next. However, I later realized that those straightforward words weren't any better, it was like pornography in texts. What's worse, I'm familiar with all of the terms used.

How you ask? Simple, when I was young those were the same words I was told not to say by my parents long ago when I heard and asked them about it. They didn't say what those terms meant and just said it was bad. When I reached middle school I heard it again and remembered. I didn't ask parents that time assuming that they're answer would be the same, so I did my own research by reading books thinking that I should understand more what I was avoiding and why was it so wrong. Eventually, I learned what I needed to learn and understood.

Encountering them again, this time as a high school student and on a different level was very overwhelming, but I still kept reading. And as I read through the article, I felt strange. Somehow my whole body felt hot and had the urge to touch the parts of my body where they said felt good. Curiosity has completely taken over me for I didn't even hesitate to see for myself if that was true or not – and that was the first time I did it.

After satisfying myself, I promised that night never to do that anymore. However, that didn't happen. My urges just wouldn't stop, especially when I'm thinking of Azusa-chan. I've promised myself so many times and I continued to break those promises not long after I've made them.

That was last year. So in my 2nd year, here I am again…

Mmmmn…! Azusa-chan…

Breaking that promise once more. I figured that it's already hopeless and I should just give up on trying to stop myself. I'll just hide this side of me from everyone who knows me – forever. I'm the worse. This is what the, so-called perfect little sister that people always say that I am.

I-I'm…*ha*…a-almost…t-ther – *ha* A-Azusa-ch-AHN!

I panted heavily as leaned back on my chair, feeling a bit exhausted. "It seems I took longer than usual," I realized as I looked at the time. I rested for a little while longer before cleaning up 5 minutes later. After I wiped my wet fingers and changed into a new pair of underwear, I picked up my phone from the table and looked at Azusa-chan's picture once again. I definitely don't deserve someone like her.

~VRRR~

"A message from Jun-chan?" I said as her name appeared on my screen.

[Ui are you in school yet? Could you meet me behind the gym? I'll be waiting…]

"I wonder what's up?" I asked myself before replying to my friend's message and leaving for school.

To be continued...

I hope you liked that.

This chapter's not that long but what do you think? :)

Well, on to the next chapter :P