Ice Rupture
Every morning I wake up thinking I might be gone but I still open my eyes to see your peaceful face next to me. I pass my fingers thru your hair to realize is not a dream, but not today… I get of the bed to get dress, leaving Gilbird sleeping on my pillow next to you. It has been years since I lost all of the power I had; now I could feel it was time. As I walked thru the snowy garden it reminds me of you, all of our time together and how it comes to an end. I promised myself I would never love anyone after what happened with her but my awesome self fell for you. I hope you forgive me for not saying goodbye but I want you to know that I love you. I want you to know that this had to be done; you saved me from the depression that was in me after what happened but everyday I loose a piece of myself. I don't want you to be sad and keep moving because maybe one day I….
"Gilbert what are you doing out here? It's freezing…"
I look behind to see you standing with curios and sleepy look; I hide the letter in my pocket
"Nothing… go back inside"
"What is that?"
He walks around me to try to get to the letter but I stand up…
"GILBERT!"
We both turned to the screaming of my name
"Hungary?"
"Is it true?" she comes closer crying her eyes out "Roderich told me about it… is it true?"
It finally clicks in my head of what she is asking "what no, of course not…" a nervous laugh escapes from me
"What do you mean no! Vash sold you the gun I know what you are doing but I don't know why" she breaks out crying once more
"Gil what is she talking about?"
"Nothing nothing, you should go back inside… and you need to stop talking" I give her my best shut-the-hell-up look but she is not going to stop
"I'm worried about you! I can't just let you die"
"What?" he questions to me
"You don't understand…"
"But I'm trying to" she comes closer to hug me but I stop her half way
"It's over now, I can't keep pretending I'm here when I'm not… the fact is that we all know that I am already dead…"
"Gilbert…." She looks up to me crying
"Don't ignore me… what is going on?" he pulls on my jacket
I turned around leaving her crying "please understand…"
"Wait what—"
I kiss him one last time and hang onto him "I love you…" I grab his hand and place my Iron Cross in it, I look at his expression change as everything start making sense in his head and I see the tears building up in those violet eyes…
"w-why?" he starts crying
"Please take care" I smile… I can feel the card in my pocket, but is not necessary anymore… I look at her as she cries on the floor and I kneel down to give her a hug
"I'm sorry…" she hugs me back, as I start to walk away I take my gun out
"Gilbert no! please… please dont leave me!" I hear him scream and I point to my head
"I love you…" I hear him run to me but Hungary stops him
"Don't look!" I hear her cry
*click*
"Let me go" he struggles with her "Gilbert! Please don't do this!"
"I'm sorry…" I pull the trigger and it all becomes blurry within second and I feel my body fall to the snow, the one that remind me of you this morning and is now stain in red. I feel you reach to me and repeat my name endlessly but is to late and I can't hear anymore. The last I felt was the rain falling over me… even if it was not rain.