Proloque.

It has been three years now.

She looked at the pictures in the small, light blue box and realized it has been three years already. Three years ago she was happy. Three years ago they were kissing each other by the ferryboats. Three years ago, she had the best feeling in the whole world. She was young, had a good job, a couple of friends who she considered as family and a guy who was the love of her life. But who knew that the best feeling in the world could change so quickly?

A single tear went down her cheek. The pain she felt the day after wasn't gone completely. Even after three years she felt it sometimes. But on these kind of days the pain became unbearable. She didn't want to think of it anymore. She didn't want to remember it. She didn't want to remember the things that happened because things that happened after she kissed him goodbye at the ferry were indescribable.

She took another picture and looked at it. There were two guys and three girls at the picture, including her. Another tear felt down. They were her friends, her family. There was this feeling in her stomach now. It felt like she left them. They still called and e-mailed with each other, but it wasn't the same. They were in Seattle and she was all the way in Paris.

She whipped her tears from her face and put the box back in the closet. she knew that she needed to get her mind of the past. Her friends in Seattle had their own life and so did he. Her friends didn't talk about him so she didn't knew exactly how he was, but she knew that he was okay, or even more than okay. And so was she, right?

She looked at the box again. She pretended that she was fine, but she knew better. She wanted to go back and this day made her want to go back even harder. But she knew she couldn't do that. And she had to say, her life in Paris was good. She was almost ready with her residency. In about two months, she was an attending. And she lived in a beautiful apartment, nearby the hospital. Paris was actually pretty great.

But it's not Seattle.

"Meredith, are you okay?"

Suddenly her thoughts were gone. She was back to reality. She sighed and looked at the guy in the doorway. She nodded and gave him a little smile.

"Jeah, just miles away ," and she stood up to follow the guy.

It has been three years now, but sometimes it felt like it was yesterday…