To Sinful To Resist

Buffy The Vampire Slayer Fan fiction

All Human

NC-17

Disclaimer: All characters belong to Joss and I own nothing I just want a happier ending for my favorite couple.

Chapter 1: Introductions Are In Order

One look no matter how innocent can set your body ablaze, one touch can leave you feeling burned from the inside out. Buffy Summers had never known this kind of feeling before. At almost 18 years old she had never known what it was like to be with a man in any capacity that bordered on intimate.

Xander, her 19-year-old brother, was experienced and so it only seemed logical to go to him for advice. Xander was 6 feet tall, had brown eyes, brown hair and had the muscles to go along with his boyish good looks, or so she had heard girls whisper. He was also in his first year at Sunnydale University majoring in Architectural Design. His age and experience was why she was here in the park on a Sunday afternoon feeling embarrassed and nervous.

"You want to know what?" Xander asked shock registering in his face and voice.

"I want to know what sex is like." Buffy replied with her head down in embarrassment.

"Why? You and Angel aren't going to… you know… are you?" He asked tripping over his words. Angel was her boyfriend of a few months and Xander didn't particularly like him, not that he'd ever said that, it was just obvious. Angel was also 19 and in S.U. with Xander although he was majoring in business. He was 6 ft. with soulful brown eyes, brown hair and a muscular body.

"No! Nothing like that I'm just curious. I'm going to be eighteen in two months and I know nothing." Buffy replied in answer to his earlier question.

"Well ask someone else I am not discussing this with you." And with those words he walked away before Buffy could get another word out.

"Stupid over-protective brother. Just want to know about sex so I know what to do if anything ever happens. Don't want to look like a bumbling fool." She grumbled sitting on a bench nearby.

"Don' think you could ever look like a bumblin' fool pet." A voice said behind her. She knew that voice and turning she saw that it was Spike her brothers best friend. "But if ya want some advice can always ask me ya know." He told her with a smirk.

Spike was a six-foot, blue eyed, platinum blonde very toned and cocky 19 year old. He went to S.U. along with Xander majoring in the same field. When him and Xander had first started hanging out Buffy had had the biggest crush on him, but she grew out of that once she got to know him. He was sex on legs and he knew it too. His reputation with the girls spoke for itself. There was no way she was going to talk to him about this though. No way.

"I don't want or need your advice Spike. My best friend is your girlfriend and I don't think she would like you talking to me about this type of thing." She responded with a pointed look.

"Wasn' plannin' on tellin' Harmony pet." He replied with a laugh. Harmony Kendall was Buffy's best friend. She was a bitch but Buffy had known her since they were kids and had grown used to her ways. She was blonde like Buffy, but that's where their similarities ended. Where Buffy was athletically built with green eyes Harmony was thin with womanly curves and blue eyes. She was Spike's type in more ways then one as she was ditzy too.

"Oh. Well still I don't need your help I can always ask Harmony I know you guys have done it she told me." He raised a brow. "Hey I didn't want to know she just decided to tell me anyway." She informed him noting the look.

"Ah I see. Well in that case no sense in not askin' me what ya wanna know huh pet?"

"Okay but this conversation never gets out to anyone understand?" She told him with a glare. He raised his hands defensively.

"Lips are sealed." He replied. "So ask away. What ya wanna know?"

"What's it like?" She asked after a brief pause and a deep breath

"What's what like?"

"Sex."

"Oh sex. Well depends on that kind of sex I guess." He replied lighting up a smoke and inhaling. "What exactly do you want to know about sex?" He asked after exhaling.

"I'm… well… I'm not too sure I guess. I just want to know what I'm in for the first time I guess." She replied her face bright red and her eyes staring at the ground.

"Nothin' to be ashamed of. S' natural to be curious if you've never had sex before. I'll tell ya this though it varies from encounter to encounter dependin' on the type of relationship ya share with the other person." He told her frankly.

"Okay, can you give me some examples?" She asked looking at him through her lashes and gauging his reaction.

"Sure luv. Let's see one-night stands are usually satisfyin' but detached. It's bout' getting' off and not really anythin' else. Sex in a relationship is different s' more personal, you're more exposed an' involved." He told her returning her look with a bold one of his own.

"Oh. Is that what it's like with you and Harmony?" She asked.

"Sometimes I guess." He replied. She gave him a questioning look. "Harmony and I are good together but I don' think she understands me sometimes an' it makes it hard to connect with her."

"She told me once that she didn't think you really cared about her just wanted the sex." She told him then looked shocked that she had revealed a secret from a friend. He chuckled.

"No worries kitten I won' tell her nuthin' ya say. But I do. Care I mean. I'm just not sure what that means for me an' her." He looked across the park at all the couples strolling hand-in-hand and then looked at her curiously. "So why you wanna know these things pet? Plannin' on sleepin with tall dark and broody?" He asked with a laugh.

"I don't know. Someday I guess. Not sure I'm ready right now I mean I don't know anything about being with a guy. I need to know what to do so I don't look stupid." She responded with a sigh.

"Well s' not that difficult pet, jus' do what feels right."

"But do what Spike? I don't even know what I would do."

"Come with me pet, I'll show you somethin' that'll get you started. He told her standing up and offering her his hand.

"Show me what?" She asked taking his hand and letting him pull her up.

"Nuthin' bad, jus' a few tips to help you out. S' that okay?" He asked leading her towards his car.

"I guess so." She replied knowing he would never do anything to make her uncomfortable. She trusted him, had known him for four years so that was an easy thing to do.

They drove to his house in silence Buffy lost in her mind and trying to decide what Spike was going to show her. She was so lost in thought that she didn't notice that had reached Spike's house until he had come around to her side of the car and opened the door.

"Oh we're here already." Spike's house was just outside of Sunnydale on a secluded road. The house was big but not enormous and it overlooked a lake that they swam at all the time.

"We're gonna take a swim. Nuthin' too dangerous." He told her as they headed around the side of the house and down to the lake. The dock that lead out over the water was big and had rails along the side of the walkway but they ended when you got to the end to leave a wide-open space to jump off of.

"Spike I don't have a suit to wear." She told him looking down at her clothes.

"Skivvies luv, we're jumpin' in wearin' our skivvies." He told her taking off his black t-shirt and revealing those well defined abs. "Start strippin' pet." He told her undoing the button on his black jeans.

"I can't do that Spike!" I replied shocked he would even suggest it.

"S' no different then swimming in a bikini luv, s' jus a bit more personal. Ya need to loosen' up an' get used to bein' in your own skin." He told her after removing his boots, socks and jeans. "Wanna know 'bout sex this is the firs' step. Won' be able to get naked in front of Peaches if you can't jump into a lake spontaneously in your bra an' panties." He told her mater-of-fact, then turned and jumped in. When he surfaced she was already starting to remove her shoes and socks.

"I can't believe I'm doing this." She grumbled under her breath, but he heard and smirked. After removing her blue tank top and undoing the top button of her short shorts she looked up. "Promise not to tell anyone Spike." She told him looking nervous.

"I promise pet no worries." And with that promise she lost the shorts and moved to the end of the dock. Looking down she took a deep breath and jumped in. The water was cold but not too cold and when it hit her she felt a little shock that quickly passed and left her feeling refreshed. Surfacing she looked around her for Spike, he was right behind her.

"S' not bad right pet?" He asked moving closer. She shook her head and smiled.

"No Spike it's not bad. Little weird to be in here with just my bra and panties but not bad." She replied treading water.

"Come closer." He told her motioning her to move in front of him. She did. "What were you thinkin' when I was sittin' here starin' up at you removin' your clothes.

"Embarrassed I guess, a little scared but also a little exhilarated and excited." She responded looking him in the eye, slightly embarrassed but not overly so.

"Why?" He asked.

"Because it was a personal act that one ones ever seen me do before." He looked sharply at her at that.

"Not even your best girls?"

"No. Never been comfortable with it, Willow is tall and skinny and could be a model, Anya is sex on legs with her curvy hips and perky boobs." At that he laughed. "And Harmony is star material. She could be a movie star with her blonde hair and shapely body. I feel frumpy next to them." She told him looking away. He grabbed her chin and turned her head to face him.

"Ya got the look luv even if ya don' know it, you also have the brains and personality to go with it. Deadly combination in a woman makes men fall at her feet." She laughed at that and leaned back laying her head in the water.

"Thanks Spike. You know how to make a girl feel good about herself."

S' my job luv." He responded moving around to her side.

She got up again and started swimming away from him and soon they were playing tag in the water like kids. Spike would catch her and then throw her making her laugh. It was a perfect afternoon and they both had fun the conversation this morning over but not forgotten by either of them.

Buffy had learned a lot about herself that day, that she was pretty for one, smart and friendly for another, and lastly that she would be okay when it came to sex as long as she let herself relax and do what felt natural.

When they both emerged from the lake and made their way towards the house she wasn't shy or embarrassed about her body, she was just natural. Spike led her inside and to his room so they could both dry off. After Spike left to get towels for them to dry off with she looked around at the room. It was dark but not overly so. There were posters all over the walls of the various bands he liked. Sex Pistols, The Ramones, and many other ones along those same lines. He had a desk in front of the window that overlooked the lake but it was partially covered in black curtains, as were all his windows. The bed was along the far wall and was one of the biggest beds she had ever seen; it was also covered in what looked to be silk sheets, in dark red no less. Moments later Spike returned with two big towels and handed her one.

"Gonna haf'ta remove your bra and panties luv." Spike told her tying his towel around his waist and removing his boxers from beneath it. "Won' dry if you don'."

"Oh… I… Uh…dunno if I can." Buffy replied feeling nervous, scared, and embarrassed all at once. Spike moved up behind her and spoke softly.

"Be brave Buffy, you can do it. No one else here but me pet." He told her moving has hands down her arms slowly. She started to shiver whether from his touch or from the air on her cool skin she didn't know.

"Okay… here goes." She responded and went to reach for the bra clasp at her back but his hands were there moving hers out of the way.

"Lemme help with that." He said quietly and unhooked her bra. She held the towel up in front of her when the bra slipped down her arms and removed it without removing the towel, which took some manoeuvring on her part. Then his hands were at her hips in the sides of her panties and she sucked in her breath not sure what to think or do. "Relax kitten, not gonna hurt ya." He told her sliding them off her hips and down her legs.

Buffy never moved but she did tense slightly. "Spike…" she breathed out slowly. He got them to her feet and she stepped out of them aware suddenly that she was naked in Spike's room and that he was naked as well. When he stood back up she still didn't move and when she felt him behind her his chest very nearly touching her back she almost forgot to breath. His skin was so hot she could feel the heat coming off of him and warming her skin.

"Did good pet, din't flinch at all. Not comfy though are you?" He asked with a sigh. She shook her head to breathless to speak. "Din't think so. Relax Buffy s' natural to be in your bare skin. Close your eyes an' just stop thinkin'" He told her moving his hands to her arms again and drawing her back so she was tight against his chest. She could feel him from her neck all the way down to her knees his body was so close.

"Spike… I'm scared." She said with a shuddering breath.

"I know luv, I can feel the tension. Need to relax kitten." He moved his hand around to her stomach and pulled the towel away, but he never moved to look at her. At the first touch of his hands on her belly she jumped a little and when he ran his hands up her sides and neared her breasts she shuddered and let her head fall back onto his shoulder. Her eyes hadn't been closed so she saw that his face was tight but that his eyes were closed. She closed her eyes and succumbed to the feel of his hands on her skin.

"Oh God." She breathed letting her body relax and her senses take over. His hands moved to cup her breasts and still she never moved. She knew this was wrong she was dating Angel and he was dating Harmony her best friend but at that moment all she cared about were Spike's hand and how they made her feel.

His breathing had become more ragged and she could definitely feel his hardness against her lower back. He was turned on by nothing more than touching her. Then his hands moved down lower to her thighs and parted them slightly, he body responded and she moved her legs to give him better access.

The first touch of his hands on her made her jump and squeak a bit but she didn't pull away and after a few seconds he moved his hand further down and parted her sex to touch her. Her body was suddenly on fire, and she felt a rush between her legs. When his hand moved against her in a slow rhythmic movement she gasped and her back arched against him, her ass hitting against his erection when she relaxed.

"So wet luv, wanna touch you deeper." He breathed into her ear and she nodded not daring to speak. He moved his hand to her opening and slowly fit one finger inside her moving it in and out gently the pace picking up as her body responded and she started moving against his hand. "Gonna make you feel good pet, make you relax completely." He told her moving his hand faster. Her pussy was sopping by this point coating his fingers and running down her thighs but she didn't care she just followed her feelings and moved with him.

"Spike… need…" She breathed not sure exactly what it was she needed.

"I know luv gunna get ya there. No worries won' stop." He replied raggedly moving his hand faster and faster as he spoke. She moaned and he held her tighter slipping another finger in with the first one and pumping in and out of her innocent body faster and faster. He kept the thrusts gentle though not wanting to hurt her. "Let go kitten I've got ya." He breathed into her ear and bit her lobe. That put her over the edge and she grabbed his arm with her hands and rode out her first orgasm. His hand didn't stop moving until her legs gave way she started to slide down. His arms held her up, his hand resting on her belly.

When he moved away from her she drew herself up and looked down. She was embarrassed and didn't know what to do or where to look. When she got the nerve she looked up to see him watching her from his position on the bed where he had sat after moving away from her.

"Um…I don't know what to say or how to act." She told him in a quiet voice picking up her discarded towel and holding it against her.

"Hones'ly me either. Don' know what came over me jus' wanted you to relax." He said looking a bit confused.

"I should go, shouldn't I?" She asked unsure of herself.

"Guess so. I'll give ya a lift back to your house luv, jus' give me a minute. Body's not entirely in control yet." He told her looking down meaningfully.

"Oh yea sure I'll just go and get dressed in the bathroom." She replied and gathered her stuff to leave.

"M' sorry Buffy. Let m'self get carried away, but I don' regret it even though I should." He said looking across the room at her with a slight smile.

"I don't either Spike, never knew I could feel something that intense before." She replied before walking away not noticing his sharp look up at her.

After dressing they got in the car and he drove her home. They didn't speak but it wasn't an awkward silence, they just didn't feel the need to speak after what had transpired between them.

After he left she went to her room and laid on her bed thinking about everything that had happened that day. It wasn't long before she succumbed to sleep curled on her side, her expression one of contentment.