She said she loves me.
I'm still trying to process that one.
Only in my wildest dreams did I ever allow myself to imagine that she could ever love me. I figured the best I could hope for was some passion, or lust, or even just to have her tolerate me.
But love…wow.
Now I just have to find out if she meant it.
Unfortunately, near-death declarations, of love or otherwise, may not always be the truth. Even if it is, it may not have been something she was ready to say.
The last thing I want is B'Elanna to feel obligated to be with me because she said something she didn't mean to say. I want all of her, and if that means I have to wait another 3 years, that's what I'll do.
I never thought that I'd find someone worth this sort of effort, but B'Elanna's special. I feel my heart dance when I see her, and my pulse quickens just thinking about her. No other woman has had that effect on me-I don't think that another one ever will.
But the hard part now will be to track her down. It's been two days since she said it, and I haven't been able to find her since. I think the excuse is that she's recovering from our near-death experience in her quarters.
All I can do is hope that she's just processing everything that's happened, and not trying to think of a way to gently let me down.
Please…please let her really love me.