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"I Hope To Heaven, His Soul Has Gone."
"You…
"It was all because of you. My insecurities, my fears, the reason I keep my feelings hidden from everyone who is close to me.
"It's all because of you, Kitazawa.
"It's been hard to deal with the memories of that night for all these years. I've blamed myself for your actions, which eventually led to mine. I did what I had to do to protect myself.
"But you didn't have to do what you did to me. You just did it for a quick buck.
"Why? I thought I was good to you. I thought you were my friend.
"People think that I push them away because I'm afraid of getting hurt. But it's the other way around. I'm afraid of hurting them.
"When I met Shuichi, I saw the mirror image of myself, when I was twelve, when I was with you. I saw an aspiring writer, with not as much talent as I had. In his deep, violet eyes, I saw the happiness that I lost. I saw the purity, the naivety, the happy, vibrant spirit that I once had.
"I was afraid of hurting him, even though I knew I loved him. I pushed myself away, thinking it would save him. But he came after me, telling me that he loved me anyway. I never expected this. I never expected that I would trust anyone again.
"He's warmed my heart and set me free. I know that, no matter what, I could never get away from him. That's the power of the gravitation that pulls us together.
"You hurt me, Kitazawa. You hurt me deep.
"So, why am I here, in front of your tombstone, leaving flowers?
"Because, if it hadn't been for that night, if it hadn't been for me learning from the experience and becoming the person I am today, I never would have known just how much Shuichi loved me. If I remained the same person, I would have just welcomed him, not really knowing if his love would last, or just how strong it was for me. Back then, I was so quick to cling to people that they all figured I would never leave their side. And if I never left, they wouldn't need to follow. I would have been taken for granted, as I would have always been there.
"Shuichi loves me, I know that now. If I hadn't been cold, he never would have warmed me. If I hadn't had that barrier built around my heart, he never would have knocked it down. And if I hadn't gone away, he would never have followed me.
"Whenever I hear your name now, I smile, because the velvet voice that speaks it to me comforts me, even though he may not know it. He is my brat, my Shuichi, my strawberry sweetheart. And I would have never known just how much he loved me unless I was cold.
"I guess you did do one thing right… Kitazawa."
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Yuki stood up from the ground, leaving the bouquet of flowers by the grave.
Here lies the body of
YUKI KITAZAWA
I hope to Heaven, his soul has gone.
As Yuki turned to leave, he was surprised to find that Tohma Seguchi was standing a few feet away, appearing concerned. This made no difference to Yuki, as he walked right past him.
"Eiri…"
Yuki stopped for a moment.
"Where to?"
He smiled. "I'm going back. Back home." He resumed walking.
"And I know that when I get back, Shuichi will be there. And I know just how much he'll love me. For that reason Kitazawa, I hope to Heaven, your soul has gone."
THE END
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Okay, I know this isn't one of my best Graviation fics, but after watching the final episode -- again -- I wondered how things would have turned out for Yuki and Shuichi without the Kitazawa incident, and wondered what kind of person Yuki would be. If you think it's bad, I'll just remove it. If not, then please feel free to leave a review. Thank you!