Summary: Has anyone else noticed how shippy Singularity is? Well, I present to you, scenes pondering how one of my fav characters must have felt during a few key scenes of this lovely episode.
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Black Holes
"This is fun. Only 8 hours to go. Sweet."
"I still do not understand this black hole."
"Well, a black hole is this really…big…thing…well, basically it's a massive…hole…out there."
"I see"
"No, see…everything gets sucked into it. Even light. That's why we can't see it. It just gets…sucked in…"
"Thank you"
"…sure."
-Stargate SG-1, Singularity Jack and Teal'c
It's odd, the way he feels about her, he thinks as he tries to explain black holes to Teal'c with only the rudimentary knowledge that comes with owning a telescope. It almost reminds him of a black hole itself, weird as that seems. After all, a big hole in space that sucks all matter into it isn't what people usually use to describe falling in love…it's more common to use overdone clichés like sunsets, or waves, or two-by-fours slamming into heads…but it fits. And it really does remind him of her…not only how she's a science geek, (even though he's in love with her he still thinks it), but the way he felt—feels—so…drawn to her. Like she's the black hole, and she's sucking him in whether she wants to or not, or even knows she's doing it…but the funny thing is, he doesn't really mind. Of course, it would be a heck of a lot better if she wasn't the single most off-limits person on base, but even just being able to be near her, to listen to her speak her techno-babble, to watch her face light up when she makes a breakthrough in the lab, to just feel her presence, is a lot better than nothing.
You know, it really is uncanny how accurate the black hole analogy is, now that he thinks about it. Not only the whole sucking-him-in thing, but how he couldn't see it until it was too late, how he just woke up one morning with the unbelievable thought, I love my 2IC. And even though it felt at the moment like a sudden revelation, it also seemed like he'd known it for a long time, and just realized it then. There were hints, he supposes now, little clues that should have sent up red flags, like when he saw her in that dress on the Mongolian planet and suddenly found it hard to breathe, but it never really connected with him until there was nothing he could do to stop it, although he's not really sure he would have done anything if he could. But there was no chance, and he was blind until he was sucked in so deep there was no hope of getting out.
Teal'c thanks him for the explanation that was about his love life as much as about a scientific phenomena, and Jack nods a 'sure' in return, and returns to his speculation of Carter, love, and black holes.