This is a story about how episode 7-7 French Twist, should have gone, and how Luke and Lorelai find their way back to each other. It's a fully LL story. There'll prob be about 4 chapters, all song fics. Please Review!! I love to get feedback!
Disclaimer: I always forget this….I don't own it. Shocking, huh? The characters are The CW's, the song is I'm not Missing You by Stacy Orrico.
Chapter 1- I'm Not Missing You
"Marry me, Lorelai."
She sat in the empty restaurant, staring at Chris, while every employee at the restaurant was staring at her. Creepy, by the way. She stared into his eyes, so filled with love. She could tell that he really wanted this, but;
"No," Lorelai eventually managed, although it came out a little harsher than she'd meant.
Oh, Oh
I'm not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiosity
Now that it's over
What else could it be,
"What? Lor, come on," Chris pleaded.
"Chris-,"
"Why not?"
"I just-; I can't Chris, it isn't right."
"Lor,"
"Christopher," Lorelai cut in sharply, "can we please just go?" She got from the table and headed for the exit. After settling the bill, Chris met her outside and they made their way back to the hotel in silence. Lorelai hadn't meant to come off so cold toward Chris, but she wasn't about to just jump into a marriage. Sure, she and Chris's relationship had been going well, but with them, it was always up and down. You never knew when Chris was going to bail. He was still that sixteen year old boy, and unfortunately, when she was with him, she became that sixteen year old girl again. Their relationship never had any real stability.
I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around
(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
About a week later, Lorelai and Rory were sitting in the living room, discussing the now infamous Paris trip.
"What happened?" Rory asked.
"I don't really know. I just-. I couldn't do it. It just felt so…wrong," Lorelai told her.
"Wrong how?"
"I mean, it was all so sudden, and you weren't there, and-," Lorelai drifted off.
"And it was with the wrong guy?" Rory suggested.
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it's different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you
"Rory…"
"Alright, I was just saying. Dad will always be my father, but Luke is….Luke. He's always been there for us, especially when Dad would bail. Just because you had me with dad doesn't mean that you're meant to be together," Rory reasoned. Her mother, ever stubborn, didn't respond. "I have to go," Rory told her. She could tell that her mom needed some time to think things over. "Schoolwork calls. Are you gonna be okay?"
"Yup," Lorelai told her.
"Okay. Let me know if you need anything." Rory hugged her mom and headed to the door. She swung it open to find Chris, poised to knock.
It's a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?
"Uh, hey dad," Rory greeted her father uncomfortably.
"Hey kid!" Chris greeted cheerfully, oblivious as usual. What a shocker. "Is your mom around?"
"Uh, yea. She's inside. But I was just leaving, so I'll see you later," Rory said before scooting past her father and heading for her car. Whatever Chris was there for, it was almost guaranteed to end badly. Things usually did whenever Chris was involved. This time, Rory almost hated to admit, she almost hoped it wouldn't end well. Anyone could see that Lorelai did not belong with Chris. Anyone except, apparently, Lorelai.
I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around
"Her Lor," Chris greeted as he entered the living room, startling Lorelai.
"Uh, hey Chris. What are you doing here?" They hadn't spoken since they'd returned form Paris.
"I wanted to talk to you."
"So talk," Lorelai said, a little more coldly then she'd expected.
"Right. So, uh, Paris. Maybe you were right. Maybe it was too fast to get married. But we can have a long engagement-,"
"Whoa, Chris, we are not engaged." Lorelai interrupted.
'Then maybe we can, you know, live together, see how well it works out-,"
"Chris, stop," Lorelai interrupted again, shaking her head.
"What?"
"This isn't gonna work."
(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it's different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you
"Not if we don't try! We used to be so good together."
"Used to be. Past tense. We're not the same people we were in high school. I am not the same girl you knew at sixteen. I raised a kid, started my own inn. Just because you got me a piece of pizza in tenth grade because I missed lunch does not mean that we should get married."
"How do you know that we can't make it work?" Chris asked.
"Because, Chris, my heart just isn't in it. I can't change how I feel." She said softly.
No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when it's right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life
"Is this still about that diner guy that broke your heart?" Chris asked.
"This is not about Luke, Christopher," Lorelai lied.
"Then why can't you just give us a try?" Chris pleaded.
"Because I don't love you, Chris!" Lorelai exclaimed suddenly, surprising even herself. Chris looked at her in shock. "I'm sorry," she told him. And she meant it. It was never her intent to hurt him.
Chris looked at Lorelai with a pained expression.
(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone (I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you
"What happened to us Lor?" He asked. "I always thought that we'd end up together."
"We grew up, Chris. And honestly, you screwed up. You got me pregnant and left. You came back sixteen years later, and I thought maybe you'd changed. But no, Sherry got pregnant and you were gone again. After that feel apart, you just expected me to drop my life and go running back to you? That's not how it works, Chris. You broke up my relationship with the only guy I've ever really been in love with. Twice. And, granted, the second time was pretty much all on me. But I can't do this anymore. I don't want to. I want to be with someone I love, who won't just pick up and leave all of a sudden. And yes, I may have already ruined my chance at that, but it's not fair to either of us to pretend that we're gonna be together forever." Lorelai looked at Chris, expected a not-too-happy response to her rant.
"So this is about Luke."
"It's not about Luke. Yes, I love Luke, and I hope that one day we can fix what we so badly screwed up. But what I feel for Luke doesn't change how I feel about you."
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because (it's the best day of my life)
"I want you to be happy Lor, I really do. But I don't think he's the one who can make you happy. And I think that you're gonna regret this." Lorelai sighed. She had tried to be nice, but she just couldn't deal with him anymore.
"Goodbye, Christopher," Lorelai said coldly, not so subtly hinting that it was time for him to leave. He turned and walked out the door, slamming it behind him.
Lorelai flopped back down on the couch and sighed. She had done the right thing. She knew that, and she didn't regret it in the least. It wasn't fair to keep leading Chris on. But that didn't exactly leave her in the ideal situation. She was by herself in her dark, empty living room, all alone. She hadn't spoken to the man she loved since that awful run-in at the supermarket. The things he had said, they hurt her. Sure, she'd pretty much deserved it. And she knew he was talking out of the hurt that she caused him. But did he mean it when he said that they didn't belong together? Lorelai wasn't sure. But she knew what she felt: that they were meant to be.
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
With Chris, it had been a whole different story. Every time they had gotten together, the timing was always wrong and it would blow up in their faces. But this time was different. They'd given it a real, full-fledged shot. Lorelai was glad that they did, because now she would never look back and wonder "What if," She realized now that where Chris was concerned, timing had never been the real problem. It was Chris. They just weren't meant to be together. Because Chris wasn't Luke.
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you I'm not missing you (oh baby)
I'm not missing you
I'm so over you
It ain't even a problem
Luke. What was she supposed to do about Luke? She'd screwed it all up so badly. Yea, he'd hurt her-big time. But what she did was so much worse. Could Luke ever forgive her? Lorelai wasn't sure. But there was only one way to find out.
TBC
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