Dude.

I read this one story that inspired me.

Its not like the story I read it will be different.

Don't worry I'm not done with the dark side of the moon but I had to get this down before I forgot.

This story is going to be told from my pov.

Just playing with ideas

Chapter 1

For a pessimist your pretty optimistic

I've never been the really popular girl, and I've never been the prettiest. I'm not perfect. I'm not the skinniest. I'm an awkward 5'10, brown and blonde hair, with light brown eyes. I have a round face, medium length hair, with an athletic build.

"I hate my life…" I growled as I walked up the hall to lunch.

"I hate this school…" My friend Emily grumbled as we went up the stairs.

"I seriously…can't stand this! She's failing me on purpose!" I shouted in frustration.

"Dude, it will be okay, you'll get that crap sorted out." She paused, "Just think, your birthday party is tonight, you'll have all of your friends to get all of this off of your mind." She said reassuringly.

"Yeahh..woo me happy sweet 16 Shelby." some birthday your going to have.

"You could be a little more optimistic." she said sarcastically.

But I couldn't, it felt like the weight of the world might just crush me, everything I had worked for was slipping from my grasp. My world was falling apart, and I can't find the pieces.

I went straight for the table, not getting any food. I sat there and laid my face on the table.

"Why aren't you eating? Are you okay?" my friend Brittany asked.

"because, I'm sick, and no I'm not." I grumbled almost unintelligibly.

"oh, are you going to be able to have your party?" She asked.

"Yes." I mumbled.

Of course, after lunch, my favorite class. Geometry was next, I was doomed for another F to brighten this lovely day.

It was my slowest class. At least the day was finally almost over

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A few hours later… at the party.

I was ready to get everything off my mind, like Emily said. I wanted to have a good time. This was suppose to be one of the good birthdays, I was going to be able to get my permit, what wasn't great about that. We ran around outside, and then we "tussled" on the trampoline, fighting with each other I guess you'd say.

Okay, so silly as it sounds, this is really where the story starts. We were in the kitchen… About to eat cake, when I had to blow my candles out.

"Make a wish!" Brittany shouted.

How silly, I thought.

I closed my eyes, and obediently obeyed, as my friends watched. I thought of something silly.

wouldn't it be great if I could live in the twilight universe? And not have to care so much about everything…

So I did, I wished to be Bella Swan, I know silly right? I should have been wishing for something more real, something like a car…or some money for a car.

"So what did you wish for?" Emily and Amanda asked in unison.

I laughed, playing along with there silliness, "It won't come true if I tell you." I said with a little unnoticeable acid dripping off the words, as I smiled and stuck my tongue out at them.

We ate cake, and then went outside to film some short films. I liked making movies in some of my spare time. It was fun and interesting. I had to admit I was having a really good time, considering the awful day I had. I had almost completely forgotten about my problems.

It was about two A.M Amanda, Haley, and Brittany were playing with the Wii. Emily had already fallen asleep. I was laying on the couch, trying to keep my eyes open. I was excited about going and taking my permit test tomorrow. I finally gave in to my droopy eyelids and went into a dreamless slumber.

It felt like I had been asleep for hours, when I heard a unfamiliar voice in my room, "Bella, its time to get up…your plane leaves in 2 hours." wait a second, what?

I jumped out of the bed, almost crashing into the wall as I tried to get to the light switch, I flipped it on. I wasn't in my room anymore. I darted over to my dresser where there was a mirror, I grabbed the long mahogany hair that was mid-way down my back. I looked at my skin tone, it went from a very tan color, to almost snow white. My face was heart shaped, my lips were full, the top one slightly too full, and I had shrunk about 6 inches.

Well Shelby, you must have had to much cake, you really need to snap out of this. I thought to myself.

I smacked myself, thinking for some reason that might help. I figured I must be asleep, this wasn't making sense.

I was completely obsessed with twilight, but this was crazy, something like this was impossible. I scoffed that I was actually believing this was happening. I really was losing it. I thought for a second, if this really was Bella, she was very pretty. She really did see herself all wrong.

Well, as long as I'm going crazy, I might as well enjoy it. I thought. I walked out of my room, into a unfamiliar hallway. Pinching myself once more just to be sure.

It doesn't look like I'm going to be waking up for a while. I rubbed my arm where I pinched myself when I realized something.

It hurt. I felt it, do you usually feel real pain in dreams, I looked at my face in mirror in the hallway, my face was red. Are you able to see the detail of a smack in dreams? this was completely insane. There was no way…

"Hey Bella, how are you this morning, today's the big day huh?" I tall young man asked.

Phil…I thought to myself.

"I'm fine, thanks, and I guess it is the big day. I was about to go get ready." I rushed the words when I spoke.

"Hmm, okay. Well your mom and I packed your bags in the car, so she's ready when you are." I nodded at him and sped to the bathroom.

I scrunched her hair. Or my hair. Brushed my teeth, I remembered Bella didn't wear make-up. So it didn't take me long to get ready. I went back into her room, put on some blue jean pants and a red t-shirt, along with a jacket.

I walked outside, examining the outside of the house. Everything looked so real, and in detail. Maybe this wasn't a dream.

Of course the phrase "Be careful what you wish for comes to mind too."

"I saw Renee sitting by the car. Tears in her eyes, as she watched me walk towards her. She was pretty, she looked a lot like Bella, but different in a lot of ways to.

"Oh honey you know you don't have to do this, you can come to Florida with us." she pouted her lip. I had to think like Bella now. I wasn't Shelby anymore.

"I know, but I want to do this. I want to stay with Charlie a while." I said getting into the car.

She nodded, and we drove to the airport, it didn't take long, we were there in about thirty minutes. I got out, and got my bags.

"Hon are you sure?" she asked, tears welded up in her eyes again.

"Yes, I promise I'm positive." I couldn't wait to meet Edward, as long as I think I'm dreaming.

"Okay, well you know you can come home whenever you want to, I'll be right here to come get you." she hugged me and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"thanks mom," I paused, she wasn't my mom, I didn't feel comfortable telling her I loved her but it was Bella now, "I love you…" I said awkwardly.

"Love you to Bella, e-mail me as soon as you get there, and tell Charlie I said hi." I looked at her she was crying now.

"I will, of course, don't freak if it takes me a few days." remembering the worried e-mail I read in twilight.

She giggled, "I promise."

On the plane, for the first time today, I thought about my family and friends. I missed them, but I was curious about this. Besides, I was asleep. Why did it matter anyway?

I got to Seattle, and grabbed my luggage, and saw a man dressed in uniform, smiling at me. I was so scared I wouldn't be able to find him, but it was Charlie, he started walking over towards me.

"Hey Bells, how've you been? You haven't changed much." he said kind of awkwardly. I see what Bella meant when she thought it was weird being around Charlie, but then again I was a lot different then Bella.

"I'm fine dad, you haven't changed much either." I hugged him, trying to make things seem more real, he hesitantly put his arms around me.

We walked in silence to his police cruiser. He carried my luggage. We didn't actually speak again until we were on the road.

"So, I got you a truck." Charlie said finally.

"Oh, dad you didn't have to." I said coolly.

"Well, its just sort of a homecoming gift I want you to be happy here." he blushed slightly.

"Thanks dad, I can't wait to see it."

I thought to myself for a minute, I knew in twilight Bella wasn't into sports… But I wanted to play basketball, I loved it, if this wasn't a dream, and I wasn't going back home I was going to play.

"So I'm thinking about trying out for the basketball team this year…" I said glancing over to see Charlie's expression.

Emotions struck his face, shocked, worried, confused, and shock again.

"Bells, you hate sports." he said a little harsher then intended.

"Things have changed, I really like basketball, I had a friend back in phoenix play with me. I really like it." I said amused at Charlie's expression.

"well…that's great Bells, I'm happy for you."

There was no doubt we were pulling up to the house, I saw the old Chevy, it was big, and red, but it had class to it.

"Wow dad Thank you so much I love it!" I said jumping out of the cruiser to examine it.

"awe its nothing bells, do you remember my friend in La Push Billy Black?" he asked blushing at my enthusiasm.

Ew, Billy and Jacob, not a fan…

"Yes, of course. How could I forget." I said blankly.

I didn't like Jacob much… I was team Edward back when everything was normal.

"Well, he sold it to me, he's done a lot of work on it, the thing runs great." he said as I embraced him in a hug.

"Thanks I love it." I went upstairs and unpacked my things. I liked Forks, rain was good sometimes.

I walked upstairs, to the room Bella described. It was cute. A little bigger then my own room. I folded my pajamas and put them in the drawer. And hung my clothes in the closet. Then I went to the bathroom, Charlie and I would be sharing to drop off my toiletry items.

I wasn't a good cook, I knew about as much about cooking as Charlie. Back when things were normal in my life, my mother cooked. I didn't really have to worry about that. So I went downstairs, to see Charlie cooking eggs and bacon.

"Oh, dad you didn't have to cook. I could have done it." I said walking in the kitchen.

"I didn't want you to have to cook your first night here." he said flipping the eggs.

So I went and got plates, and sat the table. I ate quickly, the sooner I fell asleep, the better things would be.

"Ch-dad, I'm going to go take a shower and go to bed, I have a big day ahead of me." I rushed, and ran back up the stairs.

"Night Bells, I heard him call.

After I got my shower I went to Bella's room and got settled, I laid in the bed thinking of my mom, dad and sister. Wondering what they were doing right now. I missed them, but I was also way to curious.

It wasn't long until I drifted into another dreamless sleep.

I rolled over, rubbing the sleep from my eyes when the memory of yesterday flooded back. I jumped up quickly, well to quickly I fell back on the bed dizzy. I felt my hair to see if it was long, I grabbed my face looked at my arm. I was still Bella.

I was relieved, I was excited, I would actually get to see the Cullen's… I think. Of course, he'd want to kill me. I went to my closet, and pulled out some blue jeans, and a Brown turtleneck. I threw it on, went to the bathroom, fixed Bella's untamable hair, brushed my teeth, and went downstairs and greeted Charlie.

"Hey Ch-dad." I said awkwardly getting a bowl for some cereal.

"Hey Bells, How did you sleep?" he asked as he slurped his coffee and read the paper.

"I slept pretty good, and you?" I asked.

"Fine, well, its time for me to go, you can make it here on your own can't you?" He asked hesitantly getting up.

"Yeah, I'll see you when you get in."

"Alright see you then."

And he was gone, I ate my cereal, realizing, I was starving, I started out eating slowly, but ended up it was gone in five minutes I grabbed a bag, and walked out the door when something important hit me.

I don't have my license. I thought.

"Crap!" I muttered. How was this going to work. I guess it doesn't really matter. I had practiced a lot with my dad anyway back in my real world.

The car roared to life, and startled me, I let out a little shriek. And I drove, not really knowing where I was going. Forks was small, so I'd just drive around until I found something that referred to school.

-- I had a hard time finding a parking spot in the small area to park. I was one of the last people here, It took me nearly fifteen minutes to find this place. I guess it wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. I saw the Volvo, and the BMW right off. I remembered that I needed to park far away from him, I wasn't going to make this day unbearable for him.

I went to the receptionists desk walking hesitantly.

"I'm Sh-Isabella Swan, I'm the new student." I stuttered.

"Oh Chief Swan's daughter! We've been expecting you." she was very perky.

I remembered that forks was about as big as my old school, maybe bigger. It really wasn't a big change in people.

She handed me my schedule, a map and the note teachers had to sign.

"Here, hon. Just bring this paper back at the end of the day." she smiled at me encouragingly.

"Okay thank you." I said walking out the door.

I heard her say good luck, but I just pretended not to hear it.

I admit, I was terrible at meeting new people. I was on the shy side. English was my first period.

I sat down, laying my head flat on my desk. Everything was so complicated. I heard the bell ring, as 20 pairs of eyes burned holes in the back of my shirt. I raised my head to see a lanky, dark haired boy.

"Hi I'm Eric Yorkie, you must be Isabella." He outstretched his hand.

Shelby, I thought.

"Umm, Bella. Nice to meet you." I shook his hand.

"Bella, what class do you have next?" He asked.

"Umm," I glanced at the schedule, "Geometry." I said.

"Awe, well I don't have that class next, do you mind if I walk you there?" he asked.

"No…" I said, he finally walked off to his desk and the teacher began the lecture, but I couldn't focus, I was thinking about my friends.

The bell rang after what seemed like forever and a day. Eric practically ran to my desk.

"You ready?" he asked.

"Sure." I said in a monotone.

As we walked, he went on about Forks and everything, but I wasn't listening. I was looking for a sign of the Cullen's. I knew I wouldn't have the pleasure of seeing them until lunch though.

"Well, this is Geometry, I guess I'll talk to you later."

"Bye, thanks." I said as he ran back in the other direction to get to his class.

I walked in, and saw a blonde haired, blue eyed baby face that could be no other then Mike Newton.

"Hello, you must be Isabella Swan." he said walking towards me.

"Bella." I corrected. "Nice to meet you." I said walking to my seat.

"Can I walk you to your next class?" he asked. What was with these guys? Bella was right mikes like a puppy.

"Sure." I said kind of agitated.

3rd and 4th period were a blur, the lunch bell rang, and my heart sunk. Mike, and Eric met up with me and walked me to the cafeteria, and took me to there table of friends. I sat across who appeared to be Jessica Stanley, I met her earlier in 3rd period.

"Hey Bella, whats up?" she greeted.

"Nothing." I said glancing around trying to find the Cullen's.

I found them.

They were beautiful. I instantly knew who was who. They were all beautiful beyond what my imagination dreamed. I paid no attention to the others, I stared at Edward.

He WAS like a god, his features, his hair, his everything, whatever you thought in your head, multiply it times 1000.

Brittany would love to see this. I thought.

I dropped my gaze when he looked at me, I saw his pain, with my being here. His eyes were coal black.

"I think I'm going to go ahead and go outside, I left my biology book In my truck." I said getting up.

"Do you want me to walk you?" mike asked.

"No. I can make it just fine on my own." I said acidly.

"Okay…see you in P.E Bella." he said.

As I walked to dump my tray, I looked at him, he stared at me curiously. I was really just trying to ease this for him, I smiled, and winked. His mouth dropped, and was completely dumbfounded.

I went outside, breathing in the cool moist air. I took my jacket off, sitting it in my truck, I ran my hands through my hair.

I still didn't want to go home, I was having fun, I missed them of course, but this was so interesting. I heard the bell ring again. And knew it was time to split.

I ran to biology, so I could beat him to class. I got in, I was relieved he wasn't there. I gave the teacher the slip, he signed it and pointed to the seat. I walked over towards it, and scooted it as far away as I could without being completely off the lab.

I decided to throw my hair in a ponytail so my scent wouldn't fly around every time I moved my head.

There he was, he glared at me in disbelief. I didn't smile, I didn't speak, I knew it would just make it harder.

So he did what was expected, he moved as far away as he could. And I did my best not to stare at him. But it was hard.

I could feel his eyes, on me the whole period. It made me feel anxious. I couldn't listen, I couldn't think. I just sat there, like a prisoner of my mind.

so this is how she felt, well this sucks. I thought.

Finally, the bell rang. He left as quickly as he could, I quickly followed. Or tried, I tripped and fell. It was embarrassing, I dropped everything. Thankfully, the golden retriever was at my service.

"Here Bella, let me help you with that." mike said bending down and picking up all my papers and books.

"Thanks." I muttered, I was still embarrassed about the fall.

"Are you okay?" his brow furrowing, "You and Cullen were in quite a hurry to get out of here.

"Well we both have our reasons." I said as we walked to gym.

"What did you do to him? I've never seen him act like that." he stated

"I stabbed him with a pencil." I laughed.

"It seriously looked it." he said walking sliently the rest of the way.

I went to the locker room, and changed into shorts, and tennis shoes, and ran back out. We were playing tennis.

Not one of my strong points. Especially since I wasn't coordinated anymore.

And of course it was indeed a disaster. Although hitting mike was funny, it also hurt me in the process. So I ended up sitting out watching.

"I'm so sorry Mike." I said as he walked over to me.

"Aw, don't worry about it. We won at least." he tried cheering me up, even though I wasn't upset.

"yeah..yay go us." I said acidly.

"alright…we'll I'll see you tomorrow." He waved and walked away.

I went and changed back into my clothes quickly. Running to the office. I knew I would run into him again.

I was right.

"Is there any way I can switch to a different class?" his smooth voice muttered, as the door shut behind me.

He looked at me. Glaring, evilly, I just stared in his eyes.

"Fine, I see that it can't be done. Thanks anyways." And he walked out, without looking at me.

"How was you first day?" the receptionist asked.

"great." I smiled. Even though it was about the opposite.

"Good. Well that's all I need, I guess I'll see you around." she grinned at me, and I was gone.

I slammed my head to my steering wheel. It was hard not being me. Although I liked this at the same time.

Was it so bad to not want to go home?

I turned the engine. And the truck roared to life. It didn't really frighten me, I saw the Cullen's getting into they're vehicles. And I saw Edward looking at me.

I just looked forward, as Bella would have.

I finally got home, and decided I would make an attempt to make food. I decided on hamburgers and french-fries. It didn't sound to complicated.

"Bells? That you?" I heard Charlie call from the door.

"Yeah, I'm in the kitchen." concentrating on flipping the burgers.

"Smells good, what are you making?" he asked hanging his gun up and sitting down.

"Hamburgers."

After I got dinner done, we didn't really talk much. I didn't talk about making friends, because I knew the people Bella wouldn't want to associate with in the long run. Angela would be who I hung out with. Of course I didn't have the pleasure of meeting her today.

"So do you like school? How was your day?" he finally asked.

"Yes, and good. I met a few nice people." I took another bite of the burger, I forgot I skipped lunch so I was hungrier then I thought.

"Who were they, I probably know they're parents."

"Oh, Mike Newton, Jessica Stanley, and Angela Webber."

"Oh, Mike, he's a great kid."

"Yeah, and I saw some interesting students." I added.

"Oh really, who?" he was interested now.

"The Cullen kids, they're all. Nice looking. But they don't talk to anybody." I knew they didn't but I needed to hear his rant on how good of a doctor Carlisle was.

And so I listened, for about fifteen minutes of him talking about how that family was wonderful.

"I'm going to go take a shower and go to bed okay? Night." I said. After I got done washing the dishes.

"Alright, I'll be down here watching the game if you need anything." and he took his position on the couch, where he'd probably sleep.

I walked slowly up the stairs. I felt my heart falling apart. The memory of today and the memory of where I was yesterday. It was just weird.

I turned the hot water all the way up. The heat sent chills down my spine, as my muscles tensed. I stayed until the hot water was drained. I looked In the medicine cabnet, and took a sleeping aid.

I slipped into a t-shirt and shorts. As I lied in my bed I burst into tears. I missed my family, friends. I missed being me.

But I felt something else. I liked this a lot. I wasn't ready to leave. I was having a good time being Bella. I couldn't wait for Edward to fall in love with me. Although I couldn't help but to be sad.

I finally, slipped into unconsciousness, and had nightmares, about my life.

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