Author's Note: Hey peeps! just some quick words for ya'll :D so as you may know i am completely new to this whole fanfiction thing but

I always felt like i wanted and had to write one especially now since i'm absolutely *obsessed*

with outlast (aaaand so many other things) right now and .. Eddie Gluskin ofc (insert guilty pleasures here) but i just really wanted to write a fic of my own and make this quite a lengthy one and see how that turns out

I would LOVE LOVE LOVE feedback from you guys i'm still a newbie (meaning don't hurt me if i mess up.. seriously .-.)

I know eddie gluskin fics are not for everyone so this fic may not be for you and yes i'm aware hes not the most sane one to write about but.. i mean.. this is fantasy so we can write about what we want ^_^

I am also not a native english speaker so excuse me if there's any grammar mistakes i do my best i truely do :'l this does have some lemonz so click out while you still can :o

so yesss i hope you like the fiction and its future chapters its more of an intro/introduction sorta thing right now but yes i hope you'll likes le me(...) and Feedbacks are always appreciated! have fun reading little ones more to come soon! :)

Prologue ~ Rationalization

September 10th, 2013 Medical staff living quarters, Elizabeth's room - 09:32 PM.

It was a dark and stormy night; the rain fell in torrents outside it had been one of the many late nights where Elizabeth Wilson would get back in her room at a late hour because she was working double shifts, she would look out into the window as those moments were the few ones she had to herself and whereas she could drown in her own thoughts.

Originally from England, London she came and migrated to the U.S., Colorado for a change but that had been years ago up until a few months ago when she found Mount Massive Asylum; to leave everything else behind was hard enough as it was but she had been working at the Murkoff corporation as a nurse for quite some time now when she first arrived at the asylum months ago,she swore to herself she wouldn't be here for long just long enough until she sorted herself out she didn't come here to lose this job in only a matter of days, as this asylum was quite horrendous at first but after some time you'd get used to it's environment she knew well enough that this Asylum wasn't just like any other Asylum these patients were quite..deranged to say the least; she was staying in the medical staff ward the place didn't really seem that appealing but there was no going back it's not like she was expecting a warm welcome and tea from this kind of place anyway, It also hadn't always been easy with the unstable patients here and being a woman and all it was only natural there had been more certain disturbing reactions aimed towards me that i had to witness most of the time she didn't know why the patients were the way the were it's not as if she could actually ask them or ask for their files and see all that they had done or been through to end up here maybe it was better this way to not know it wasn't that hard to figure out the basics anyway they had all done some sort of murder,rape or even serial killing they could've always been just plain deranged from certain events in their life most of them were criminally insane though you never knew indeed some of them had shown extreme mental instability and those were either being kept in another part of the facility or in solitary confinement they would also keep them in holding cells at times obviously some just couldn't be around people but others could if they had better days, if they needed tending there would always be some guards of some kind around no more than needed but still as these patients would sometimes react aggresively especially towards women or any kind of staff really so there was no time spend alone with them as most of the patients here were male anyway it seemed, she knew the risks she would be putting herself in many men here believed that this was no place for women anyway like most sexist pigs they weren't exactly women-friendly and they sure reminded me of that each day in some sort of way, strongly against believing any woman could be more successful or independent than them, i wouldn't be suprised if they let me work here just to make it in some sort of experiment to see how the patients react to women nowadays as the male population here had been enormous here.

I of course was an exception i needed this place this place didn't need me, i wanted this getaway; there was plenty enough space for male nurses and even though they were reluctant to even consider me as a possibility to work here they checked into my story and all of a sudden everything changed including the guards at the reception and of course the executive here..our "boss" Jeremy Blaire, they changed their way of thinking all of a sudden letting a woman work here but then again i was the first female to have worked here since- who knows.. ? ever since this place existed maybe ? I guess not many women apply for this kind of job anyway..

I could always use the money working here and she would be helping the patients any way she could after all, the working conditions had of course always been strange; you were not allowed to have any contact with the outside world, family, relationships, friends nor any of the female patients going into the female ward was forbidden wich was really oddthat particular ward looked disbanded for many years anyway, it seemed like forever ago that she experienced real freedom and not just from a courtyard but from the actual world no company was as strict as Murkoff about that regulation to have no outside contact in fact they were very clear on that they made me sign a contract which restricted any contact at all, you could hardly ever see the male patients only if they needed to be tended to nor could you see any of the files barely medical ones too it seemed at murkoff there were always certain things you could not do or see or get yourself involved in and it seemed if you wanted to leave here you would never really go, i don't think they would let you.

For Elizabeth all that wasn't ever really an issue it's not as if she tried to leave sure she thought about it but where would she go ? home ? wherever that is.. she did not have any close friends nor family nearby she learned the basics at her school back in London but was still a new nurse in the practical part a few months ago by now she got the hang of it and the pay was good enough although it was never really about earning money but she figured this was just the kind of job she could use now to have some distraction from the past, however this was still an asylum and these people were still people who need all the help they can get.

Murkoff couldn't have been all that clean of course in all these months being here i have never seen someone leave the asylum there had to be some reason why the personnel couldn't have any outside contact or why they are always so suspicious of everything you do here, why they're so secretive and cautious all the time and then there's that Murkoff executive official Jeremy Blaire; Elizabeth had only seen him a few times he was always busy with something almost as if he's keeping something to himself it all seemed very strange he had been here for years keeping everything together and confined;

Then there was this other guy that if together was talking to wich only happens once or twice that i know of or have seen he also seemed very busy around here from what i heard he's a software engineer and his name is Waylon he's only been here for a week or so he's probably also not allowed to talk to any people outside this lot if he has any family he seems too busy anway to do so i haven't seen much of him anyway he's probably allowed to go to the lower levels of the asylum and has more security clearance here than the rest of the staff wich is weird since he's only been here a week you'd think he'd be the one they wouldn't allow to go to the lower levels there's something about the lower levels that's so secretive only a few can go down there.

But all that stuff didn't matter to her sure it was something to think about but it really wasn't any of her business as if she would get involved in such things, she just tried to keep to her own and not meddle in any of that she was here to just do her job and that would be that.

"God this room is so small and cramped up i'm starting to feel like a patient here too almost like a prisoner.., she thought to herself as she broke her old chain of thoughts''

The room she was staying in was quite small but it was clean,suprisingly warm for an old building like this and everything you needed,it looked comfy and it did her right all these months all of her personal belongings that they had to check first when she came into the building were here in this tiny room, a small frown appeared on her face when she remembered that one guard with the deep voice and angry expression on his face that made her wait what felt like hours in a hall in a really uncomfortable folding wooden chair who was going through her things like she was some kind of criminal and gave her some dirty looks apparently didn't fall for the whole nurse thing looking back now i'm starting to think he thought i was some kind of spy because no 'woman like me' would committ herself into being in mount massive after yet another but quicker background check they let me through; being here wasn't always the easiest of things.

The thought of living here in an asylum with all these people and strangers freely walking around; others confined in rooms was just the kind of thought you didn't need to have, no one here was all that friendly too just all keeping to themselves even the other nurses didn't speak that much.

She got up from where she was sitting pulling herself away from the everlasting rainy storm and chain of thoughts and realized she was still wearing her clothes for work and she still had her hair up she walked over to her mirror just above the sink in the corner of her room; luckily she had that in this tiny room aswell if you wanted to shower you'd have to walk down the corridor though there would be solitary showers there for the employees staying here.

"Huh i'm suprised they dont have any security guards walking with you down there just to make sure you're not going anywhere where you're not supposed to go, that would just be way too much they're way too fixated on themselves and the patients here anyway, god how did she even keep her own sanity working here ?"

Elizabeth looked at her reflection in the mirror standing in front of the sink hands resting on the edge of it,Her very full lips were still wearing the lipstick she applied this morning, in her usual very pale fair skin she could very obviously see the tiredness of her light emerald colored big eyes; her long light-blonde thick hair was tied up into a messy bun as usual when she was working so her hair would be out of the way it also looked more professional to her, she let it down and tied a braid in her hair she ran the water in the sink and splashed some hot water in her neck and face washing it with some facial cleanser she brought with her and rinsed off her makeup, "Just because i live in an asylum and work here doesnt mean i have to look like one she chuckled to herself oh well ." as she stopped running the water and walked over to her dresser she started changing.

Taking off her bra and top along with her employee identification card pinned to it; putting on a comfortable sweater and removing her scrubs just to sleep in her underwear. Guess i can take a shower in the morning she thought as she walked over to her bed seeking the comfort of it as she was exhausted, she got under the covers breathing out one final deep sigh and turned off the lamp next to her it was a dusty looking thing but the only lighting the room had and it was a fairly good one too, with that she drifted off into a very deep sleep...

"Distant voices; a bright light appears.

-Don't worry sweety we'll be back home before you know it and then you get to see all your old friends again it's not like we'll be gone forever.

-But mommy i don't wanna go, i like it here i don't want to leave anyone.

-you don't have to leave anyone love it's only a trip to the lake you know how much your father wanted to go i promise you'll like it there and you'll definetly like the suprise we have for you there, maybe you"ll even make some new friends you never know for now you still have teddy you can play with so go on and i'll be right out.

- she gives her a kiss on the head.

- Lights flash in front of her eyes;

There's an image of a girl sitting on the swing surrounded by a bright light someone is humming a nursing song slightely it's starting to sound louder in the back of my head, her back was turned my eyes fixated on her, until i suddenly hear other distant voices and the sounds of two men talking and yelling.

- We have a survivor here! jesus it's a little girl looks like she was hiding out underneath the bed here.

- she's not talking or moving looks like she's having a trauma can't blame her, can someone get her out of here !?

- The voices and flashbacks dissapear when suddenly the little girl on the swing starts talking; her tone sounding disgusted and angry; the humming completely gone.

-You could've done something sooner.
-You could've saved her.
-But instead you chose to save your own hide and abandon the only person that will ever love you.
-You're just a coward, you didn't desverve her.. you should've died with her guess in some way you did.
-He should've gotten you instead.
I couldn't move or feel anything.. i could only listen and stare in front of me.. i could only stare at that little girl.

-The girl on the swing slowly starts turning around but her face.. it's all distorted bloody looking, eye white completely turned black, pink dress covered in blood a big kitchen knife on her lap covered in more blood she starts twitching her body and laughing hysterically; then suddenly the entire bright light the girl on the swing was sitting in turned dark shadows creeping up from every corner until there was nothing left but absolute complete darkness."

Some hours passed when Elizabeth was trashing around in bed the entire time just when she had finally found sleep after an hour of laying in bed; she awoke a few minutes later, eyes wide open and fearful she realised what had just happened, it was still full on nighttime outside as she took in her surroundings it was very quiet outside her room like she was the only one in the building she was sweaty as she sat up and rubbed her forehead.

-"Ugh another nightmare..does this ever stop.." with an annoyed sigh she looked at the old school clock that was on the table next to her where the lamp was sitting it was 3:14 AM, wonderful she breathed out.

-"Still a long time before i have to wake up guess i should try finding some more sleep or else i"ll definetely look like a patient here in the morning...

Onto the next chapter! :D